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peewee

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Oct 16, 2025
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i have the whole sn set up ready to go, and a good window to do it, i dont doubt id succeed. however i have the opportunity to get phenobarbital and would add morphine to ctb as others have done. i think it would be alot more peaceful, but im also just wanting to be gone. is it worth it to wait to aquire the barb stuff for a more peaceful ctb?
 
imontheloose

imontheloose

Aspiring corpse
Jan 15, 2025
174
The chase for a better, perfect method is a dead-end and the main reason people on here end up never following through. "A lot more peaceful" is doubtful when you already have SN. All methods have a constant amount of pain and discomfort additionally or synergistically, the two just trade with one another maintaining equivalence.
 
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dragon.//

Student
Nov 5, 2025
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The chase for a better, perfect method is a dead-end and the main reason people on here end up never following through. "A lot more peaceful" is doubtful when you already have SN. All methods have a constant amount of pain and discomfort additionally or synergistically, the two just trade with one another maintaining equivalence.
I agree, people want the perfect death where there's no pain or discomfort at all (understandably), but that isnt realistic imo.
 
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Mr.Tristesse

I really don't want to be alive
Jul 23, 2022
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I don't know what the opportunity you are talking about looks like but it would definitely be worth it to use barbiturates instead of Shitty N if you can get ahold of them. They're in a completely separate class from SN.
 
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peewee

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Oct 16, 2025
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I don't know what the opportunity you are talking about looks like but it would definitely be worth it to use barbiturates instead of Shitty N if you can get ahold of them. They're in a completely separate class from SN.

thanks for this, yea I will go this way. as someone who attempted with FSH which is awful, i want my last moments to not be terrible if i can avoid it. i think people shouldn't just assume because you want a peaceful passing you've not tried other methods. i will be going with pheno and morphine. if that doesnt work then sn
 
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pelicanportal

life could have been beautiful
Jan 28, 2026
143
I dont ever want people here to CTB but if you can get a better more peaceful mwthid, absolutely do it.
 
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