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Scattered-Soul

Scattered-Soul

It was an indescribable pain
Oct 2, 2023
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when I tasted it, I found it unremarkable but salty as hell however nothing that I couldn't see a problem with.
I suppose there's a difference between tasting a little bit and actually ingesting the needed amount. I wonder if I can "practice" (in other terms maybe prepare myself at least a little bit) by drinking water with salt in it.
 
Goku Black

Goku Black

Mod
Jun 5, 2023
3,201
I suppose there's a difference between tasting a little bit and actually ingesting the needed amount. I wonder if I can "practice" (in other terms maybe prepare myself at least a little bit) by drinking water with salt in it.
No, of course there isn't. The thing is though, you'll get a bit an idea of what to expect plus if the taste is concern then there's ways to get around it. Just drinking any kind of liquid solution with salt in won't help either because SN may be different in terms of individual response.
 
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nightchaser

New Member
Jul 6, 2023
4
I weigh over 100KG and according to the latest PPeH, 35 grams of SN is recommended.
My question: how much water should be used? They recommend 50ml for 25 grams, so how much for 35 grams? 60ml? 70ml? Thanks.
 
Scattered-Soul

Scattered-Soul

It was an indescribable pain
Oct 2, 2023
158
I weigh over 100KG and according to the latest PPeH, 35 grams of SN is recommended.
My question: how much water should be used? They recommend 50ml for 25 grams, so how much for 35 grams? 60ml? 70ml? Thanks.
Their advice is to use as little water as possible and stir until all crystals are gone so I guess you can start with 50 ml and then add a bit more until the SN dissolves completely
 
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IsThisEverything

IsThisEverything

Member
Nov 1, 2023
88
I've read a lot about how antipsychotics can be used as the anti-emetic. Does this only apply to atypical antipsychotics, or is this also true of typical antipsychotics? I'm on flupentixol so wondered whether this would be suitable. If so, do I just take my regular dose (1mg for depression) or do I need a higher dose?
 
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Praestat_Mori

Mori praestat, quam haec pati!
May 21, 2023
9,027
I weigh over 100KG and according to the latest PPeH, 35 grams of SN is recommended.
My question: how much water should be used? They recommend 50ml for 25 grams, so how much for 35 grams? 60ml? 70ml? Thanks.
You can easily dissolve 35g in 50ml water (20°C), the maximum is 41g in 50 ml water (20°C) then the solution is saturated and you cannot dissolve more SN then.
 
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testingthis101010

Member
Feb 10, 2021
20
Can you someone kind enough DM me a source that ships to the US?
I would like to have the peace of mind to leave when the time comes. I have been depressed for more than 20 years on and off, since I was 19. And these days, I am feeling low, and I just want to keep crying. I wish, I was not born. Experiencing major panic/anxiety attacks. I tried meds, alcohol, deep breathing, trying to act like nothing matters, but none of these techniques worked. I just have major nightmares almost all nights. It is scary to be me, and I don't wish it to anybody.
Please share, if have any information about where to order SN. Thank you!
 
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cryone

cryone

Student
Nov 23, 2023
176
hey, if anyone is willing to PM a source for US id be very grateful.
 
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lightnings

Hell is here
May 12, 2023
244
Could someone please PM me a trusted european source?
Thank you
 
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アホペンギン

アホペンギン

Jul 10, 2023
2,203
I wonder if I can "practice" (in other terms maybe prepare myself at least a little bit) by drinking water with salt in it.
I did that before my SN attempt and all I can say is that it didn't make a significant impact on how I'd handle the taste lol

it was still disgusting it tasted like sea water but more salt added and some rubber (?) taste
absolutely foul i'd be happy to not taste that again but maybe I'd have no choice
 
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mia_qwerty

Student
Apr 13, 2023
153
I did that before my SN attempt and all I can say is that it didn't make a significant impact on how I'd handle the taste lol

it was still disgusting it tasted like sea water but more salt added and some rubber (?) taste
absolutely foul i'd be happy to not taste that again but maybe I'd have no choice
Wow you already had an SN attempt? Were you sick? What did you feel?
 
アホペンギン

アホペンギン

Jul 10, 2023
2,203
hey, if anyone is willing to PM a source for US id be very grateful.
Could someone please PM me a trusted european source?
Thank you
Me too! Thanks you.
I apologize if there are any misunderstandings stemming from the nature of this comment and I don't intend to come off as a cruel person, nor is this comment written to imply that I am such, but all of you have too few posts and not much of a "reputation" to be trusted with something with as much importance as an SN source. The amount of sources are quickly going down, restrictions are being placed, since people have began to take notice in how often SN is used as an end of life substance.

Also, new members and a lot of people in that case, aren't very careful with sources and I've seen many times where sources were shared publicly on the forum. Authorities may be browsing this place looking for sources to shut down.

I know it may sound ridiculous but you'll have to be a reputable and well known or at the very least, known, member of SS before expecting to have much success with getting sources, unfortunately. And like I mentioned before, you may get a source regardless since not everyone is careful with sources… Very disappointing that people are so careless in that respect, it has nothing to do with you though.
Wow you already had an SN attempt? Were you sick? What did you feel?
That was in September. My symptoms after drinking SN were a bad headache, my stomach felt tight and it was burning a lot, same with my heart and my throat burned a lot too. If I remember correctly I was sweating a lot and trembling.
I struggle with nausea and vomiting which caused me to fail. I vomited everything out and it got to the point where I was dry heaving but some SN stayed in my system, not enough to kill me but to cause organ damage.
Symptoms differ for everyone so it's unlikely for you to have the same experiences should you attempt with SN. The majority find the method relatively peaceful.
 
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gbi2

Specialist
Jul 10, 2023
311
If an SN attempt fails. Is it likely that recovery will occur within 48 hours? I mean if someone is guaranteed to not be disturbed for 3 days and takes SN but ultimately fails for whatever reason, vomiting or something, could the body remain unconscious for more than 48 hours or is that unlikely? Or even could something like a headache persist afterwards for that long?
 
Goku Black

Goku Black

Mod
Jun 5, 2023
3,201
If an SN attempt fails. Is it likely that recovery will occur within 48 hours? I mean if someone is guaranteed to not be disturbed for 3 days and takes SN but ultimately fails for whatever reason, vomiting or something, could the body remain unconscious for more than 48 hours or is that unlikely? Or even could something like a headache persist afterwards for that long?
Nope, get medical attention, do not attempt to recover on your own
 
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mia_qwerty

Student
Apr 13, 2023
153
I apologize if there are any misunderstandings stemming from the nature of this comment and I don't intend to come off as a cruel person, nor is this comment written to imply that I am such, but all of you have too few posts and not much of a "reputation" to be trusted with something with as much importance as an SN source. The amount of sources are quickly going down, restrictions are being placed, since people have began to take notice in how often SN is used as an end of life substance.

Also, new members and a lot of people in that case, aren't very careful with sources and I've seen many times where sources were shared publicly on the forum. Authorities may be browsing this place looking for sources to shut down.

I know it may sound ridiculous but you'll have to be a reputable and well known or at the very least, known, member of SS before expecting to have much success with getting sources, unfortunately. And like I mentioned before, you may get a source regardless since not everyone is careful with sources… Very disappointing that people are so careless in that respect, it has nothing to do with you though.

That was in September. My symptoms after drinking SN were a bad headache, my stomach felt tight and it was burning a lot, same with my heart and my throat burned a lot too. If I remember correctly I was sweating a lot and trembling.
I struggle with nausea and vomiting which caused me to fail. I vomited everything out and it got to the point where I was dry heaving but some SN stayed in my system, not enough to kill me but to cause organ damage.
Symptoms differ for everyone so it's unlikely for you to have the same experiences should you attempt with SN. The majority find the method relatively peaceful.
Ok thanks for taking the time to reply . I hear you about new members wrongly posting out about sources and id never do that. I do feel confused as I've been on here 8 months and have definitely posted quite a bit. I mainly do DM's and one guy i DM'd yesterday said he had seen my posts and was aware of my story. I have commented on others posts too. Doing my best here.
Again thanks for your words.
 
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アホペンギン

アホペンギン

Jul 10, 2023
2,203
I do feel confused as I've been on here 8 months and have definitely posted quite a bit.
Oh shit I think I misread the amount of posts that you had
I thought you had 11 posts, I'm sorry for that lol
The amount of time you're here doesn't necessarily play a part in how much you'll be trusted, at least in my eyes that's the case. Indeed, the forum was more underground before but I know there were definitely people who can't be trusted.
You'll be relatively trustable, then. But I don't guarantee that you'll get a source easily since there aren't that many around nowadays…Sorry for the previous misunderstanding, though.
 
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mia_qwerty

Student
Apr 13, 2023
153
Oh shit I think I misread the amount of posts that you had
I thought you had 11 posts, I'm sorry for that lol
The amount of time you're here doesn't necessarily play a part in how much you'll be trusted, at least in my eyes that's the case. Indeed, the forum was more underground before but I know there were definitely people who can't be trusted.
You'll be relatively trustable, then. But I don't guarantee that you'll get a source easily since there aren't that many around nowadays…Sorry for the previous misunderstanding, though.
that's ok. I do have a couple of sources from a while back but wondering if they still work. I'm actually scared to make an order incase of police check as I don't live alone and so everyone would know and I don't know the consequences of that. So gutted I can't get it in UK now.

What's there to mistrust in people? If they have scam links? Or if they post links publicly?
 
アホペンギン

アホペンギン

Jul 10, 2023
2,203
So gutted I can't get it in UK now.
Some people have managed to get SN delivered in the UK but it'll be very hard to do that. First of all SN is considered a poison now so obviously it'd be seized at customs if you don't have a license and secondly, you'll need to have an SN supplier who is willing to label the SN differently for you to mitigate the risks of it being confiscated.
 
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mia_qwerty

Student
Apr 13, 2023
153
Some people have managed to get SN delivered in the UK but it'll be very hard to do that. First of all SN is considered a poison now so obviously it'd be seized at customs if you don't have a license and secondly, you'll need to have an SN supplier who is willing to label the SN differently for you to mitigate the risks of it being confiscated.
Are you in the UK? Yes I'm aware of this stuff. That the label needs to be changed. And even then would it get through? I'm guessing they do spot checks
 
Meditation guide

Meditation guide

Always was, is, and always shall be.
Jun 22, 2020
6,089
Some info in case anyone wants it:

I also am wondering about the idea of failing and immediately calling for help as what constitutes failing, can someone be specific about that? I know it sounds like a dumb question but please describe what happens exactly that determines failure and the need to call for help.
 

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アホペンギン

アホペンギン

Jul 10, 2023
2,203
Are you in the UK? Yes I'm aware of this stuff. That the label needs to be changed. And even then would it get through? I'm guessing they do spot checks
I don't live in the UK.
SN is used to make explosives so the security may check for such things, and then preform a spot check.. I'm not sure what'd happen.
 
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Praestat_Mori

Mori praestat, quam haec pati!
May 21, 2023
9,027
Yes I'm aware of this stuff. That the label needs to be changed.
Just an idea. Travel to EU, get SN there, send it mislabled back home by yourself without own sender information, or - and that's probably the safest way - travel back home by ferry. I doubt that customs will check every person and let them open their bags.
 
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mia_qwerty

Student
Apr 13, 2023
153
Just an idea. Travel to EU, get SN there, send it mislabled back home by yourself without own sender information, or - and that's probably the safest way - travel back home by ferry. I doubt that customs will check every person and let them open their bags.
Yes if I wasn't so ill I could do that. Life does not permit for me to do such a trip.
 

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