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tartvinegar

Student
Feb 14, 2025
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I'm getting hotel for 2 days and I'm getting these supplies. Is there anything else I should bring or add or change? I wanted to just do a 1 night stay, is 2 necessary just to be on the safe side?

I'm 110lbs so I don't think I need much. I had a very sensitive stomach and deal with nausea even regularly, so I'm really worried about that. But even if I vomit, it should still be enough to be successful right?

Propofol, 200mg, 40 mins
Zofran 4-8mg, 40 minutes
Metro 3x10, 40 minutes
Antacid, 30 mins
Extra strength painkiller (Ibuprofen), 40 mins
Mint/numbing spray, numb right before, mint after
Straw
Cups
Scale
Bucket for vomiting

Day 1

7:30pm- stop eating (12 hour fast)

Day 2

11.30am- stop drinking (2 hour fast)

1:30pm- acetaminophen 1000mg (2x500mg pills)

1.50pm- metoclopramide 30mg (3x10mg pills) and Zofran (8mg)

During 40 minute wait:
Propanol

-Prepare SN doses-

dissolve 25g SN in 50-60ml water.

prepare 2 backup servings of the same dose each.

-Use numbing spray to numb back of mouth and throat.

2.20pm - drink SN dose 1.
- may gargle (don't swallow) water for taste mitigation.

- if vomit before fainting, drink SN dose 2.

- if vomit again, drink SN dose 3.
 
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tartvinegar

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Feb 14, 2025
152
Bumping this, pls advice
 
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rozeske

Maybe I am the problem
Dec 2, 2023
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Looks like a solid plan. 2 night stay isn't necessary and antacid won't affect it but might prolong time to unconsciousness and I think is no longer recommended.
 
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tartvinegar

Student
Feb 14, 2025
152
Thanks, I'll reduce to one night.

Is there anything I can do to be more comfortable?

I was going to be propped up in bed, like I'm watching TV, with bucket next to me.

I was also going to take a laxative 3 days before I ctb to minimize defecating. Would that make it worse? Is it spaced out enough?

Benzos would make it so much better, but I'm wary of getting it online. I'm hoping the beta blockers will be enough to overcome SI.

I want to have a nice few days before ctb, but I'm worried that will make it harder to ctb when the time comes.
I guess I should probably leave a tip for whoever finds me. Hopefully $50 will cover it. I lost my job, which is why I'm ctb so I don't have a lot and I want my family to have whatever that's remaining to ease the burden.
 
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tartvinegar

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Feb 14, 2025
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I guess a lot of us are in the same both. I was fired from a job I loved after 8 years while my mom is dying, like way to kick someone while they're down.

How did you obtain benzos?
 

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