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Fresh Soju

Fresh Soju

~🍻자살처럼🍶~
Oct 11, 2020
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I was actually rather upbeat. The day before, I considered whether I was slowly entering a manic episode. I guess my reckless SN Test confirmed that thought.
Too real LOL. I have done similar things in such states before, though I never went full manic I think, but definitely bordering on manic I'd assume.
I don't fault you for it, haha. Glad you got through it mostly unharmed, though.
 
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curiousgeorgette

curiousgeorgette

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Jan 26, 2026
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Can you talk more about the "terrifying oxygen deprivation"? When did that set in, and did you feel like you were suffocating or just not getting enough air (like maybe a more intense version of what you might feel at high altitudes if you're not used to it). This is the most scary part of SN for me so I'm curious to know about it in as much detail as possible. Thank you and I'm glad you're ok now!
 
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Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to kill myself
Oct 25, 2020
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Me.also interested by this
 
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darksouls

darksouls

Illuminated
May 10, 2025
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in the user discussion megathreat,
it was said that she was banned
 
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Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to kill myself
Oct 25, 2020
2,586
dans la discussion des utilisateurs sur la mégamenace,
On disait qu'elle était interdite
Sad she knew lot of interesting things...
 
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thekop85

Sorry I'm not good at English.
Jul 3, 2026
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I enjoyed reading your detailed report.
It was really bad luck that the police happened to arrive at that exact moment.
Still, I'm glad nothing serious happened.
 
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Steve Vermont

Student
Feb 27, 2020
179
I think you took an "anti-Goldlilocks" dose: enough to fuck you up, but not enough to kill you.

WhenI go, I'm going to follow the protocol rigorously and also take a hell of a lot of benzos.
 
Captive_Mind515

Captive_Mind515

King or street sweeper, dance with grim reaper!
Jul 18, 2023
776
I think you took an "anti-Goldlilocks" dose: enough to fuck you up, but not enough to kill you.

WhenI go, I'm going to follow the protocol rigorously and also take a hell of a lot of benzos.

They're gone. They made a subsequent attempt after this one.
 

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