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Dante_

Dante_

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Feb 27, 2025
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You survived an attempt? Was it similar experience to OP's?
Yes i did, quite a number of weeks ago, I ingested rougly just under half of 9 grams of sn in 50ml of water and over about an hour, i experienced the usual symptoms such as a fast heart rate (160bpm was the highest but that was when i walked around but on average, it was around 110-130bpm), it was also audible in my ears and i felt it on my face, cyanosis, lightheadedness, headache, dizziness, tinnitus (right ear was ringing), and muffled hearing for both of my ears, profound weakness but this progressed much more before losing consciousness, Appearance changes included lightly colored purple tongue and discolored fingers.

I mean i was able to see it all since I was walking and upright until I couldn't anymore and laid in bed after vomiting out whatever amount was left in my stomach after drinking water to slow down absorption but i still went unconscious for almost 2 hours, during this point, i do remember a brief moment of awareness where i couldnt move at all with my heart still racing but it was slower than before and i went out again, toward the end of it, i wanted to get up but again, i couldn't, my back and legs were basically immobilized from the lack of oxygen until I finally could but my sats took hours to climb back up above 90% and then the morning, well...I basically slept again as if I hadn't at all so my brain/body took a huge hit from all that, for about a week I had abdominal pain to deal with as the only "long term issue".

My oxygen sats were 78% at their lowest but it could've lower considering co-oximetry is more accurate than any pulse oximeter even if the one i had was pretty good.

In short, what i drank was definitely enough to cause death but just short of it if i did not acted as i did which was more subconscious than anything else even if i didnt care if I died, I was oddly calm too and wasnt in any particular stress or panic although until I saw my cyanosis was progressing, I understood I probably went as far as I did without realizing it.

Edit: For full disclosure, this goes far as to say, please DO NOT test ingest this substance, I liken it to the analogy of touching a really hot stove plate just to see when its totally worth avoiding and being affected by it mentally thereafter by the experience, the consequences are not worth it.

 
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Yes i did, quite a number of weeks ago, I ingested rougly just under half of 9 grams of sn in 50ml of water and over about an hour, i experienced the usual symptoms such as a fast heart rate (160bpm was the highest but that was when i walked around but on average, it was around 110-130bpm), it was also audible in my ears and i felt it on my face, cyanosis, lightheadedness, headache, dizziness, tinnitus (right ear was ringing), and muffled hearing for both of my ears, profound weakness but this progressed much more before losing consciousness, Appearance changes included lightly colored purple tongue and discolored fingers.

I mean i was able to see it all since I was walking and upright until I couldn't anymore and laid in bed after vomiting out whatever amount was left in my stomach after drinking water to slow down absorption but i still went unconscious for almost 2 hours, during this point, i do remember a brief moment of awareness where i couldnt move at all with my heart still racing but it was slower than before and i went out again, toward the end of it, i wanted to get up but again, i couldn't, my back and legs were basically immobilized from the lack of oxygen until I finally could but my sats took hours to climb back up above 90% and then the morning, well...I basically slept again as if I hadn't at all so my brain/body took a huge hit from all that, for about a week I had abdominal pain to deal with as the only "long term issue".

My oxygen sats were 78% at their lowest but it could've lower considering co-oximetry is more accurate than any pulse oximeter even if the one i had was pretty good.

In short, what i drank was definitely enough to cause death but just short of it if i did not acted as i did which was more subconscious than anything else even if i didnt care if I died, I was oddly calm too and wasnt in any particular stress or panic although until I saw my cyanosis was progressing, I understood I probably went as far as I did without realizing it.

Edit: For full disclosure, this goes far as to say, please DO NOT test ingest this substance, I liken it to the analogy of touching a really hot stove plate just to see when its totally worth avoiding and being affected by it mentally thereafter by the experience, the consequences are not worth it.

Did you go to ER or asked for help?
Do you still have the stomach issues?
 
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Blueberry Panic

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Yes i did, quite a number of weeks ago, I ingested rougly just under half of 9 grams of sn in 50ml of water and over about an hour, i experienced the usual symptoms such as a fast heart rate (160bpm was the highest but that was when i walked around but on average, it was around 110-130bpm), it was also audible in my ears and i felt it on my face, cyanosis, lightheadedness, headache, dizziness, tinnitus (right ear was ringing), and muffled hearing for both of my ears, profound weakness but this progressed much more before losing consciousness, Appearance changes included lightly colored purple tongue and discolored fingers.

I mean i was able to see it all since I was walking and upright until I couldn't anymore and laid in bed after vomiting out whatever amount was left in my stomach after drinking water to slow down absorption but i still went unconscious for almost 2 hours, during this point, i do remember a brief moment of awareness where i couldnt move at all with my heart still racing but it was slower than before and i went out again, toward the end of it, i wanted to get up but again, i couldn't, my back and legs were basically immobilized from the lack of oxygen until I finally could but my sats took hours to climb back up above 90% and then the morning, well...I basically slept again as if I hadn't at all so my brain/body took a huge hit from all that, for about a week I had abdominal pain to deal with as the only "long term issue".

My oxygen sats were 78% at their lowest but it could've lower considering co-oximetry is more accurate than any pulse oximeter even if the one i had was pretty good.

In short, what i drank was definitely enough to cause death but just short of it if i did not acted as i did which was more subconscious than anything else even if i didnt care if I died, I was oddly calm too and wasnt in any particular stress or panic although until I saw my cyanosis was progressing, I understood I probably went as far as I did without realizing it.

Edit: For full disclosure, this goes far as to say, please DO NOT test ingest this substance, I liken it to the analogy of touching a really hot stove plate just to see when its totally worth avoiding and being affected by it mentally thereafter by the experience, the consequences are not worth it.

Yeah remember when I tested my sn too 🤭 I have no idea how much a took but I ended up in the hospital.
 
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Yes i did, quite a number of weeks ago, I ingested rougly just under half of 9 grams of sn in 50ml of water and over about an hour, i experienced the usual symptoms such as a fast heart rate (160bpm was the highest but that was when i walked around but on average, it was around 110-130bpm), it was also audible in my ears and i felt it on my face, cyanosis, lightheadedness, headache, dizziness, tinnitus (right ear was ringing), and muffled hearing for both of my ears, profound weakness but this progressed much more before losing consciousness, Appearance changes included lightly colored purple tongue and discolored fingers.

I mean i was able to see it all since I was walking and upright until I couldn't anymore and laid in bed after vomiting out whatever amount was left in my stomach after drinking water to slow down absorption but i still went unconscious for almost 2 hours, during this point, i do remember a brief moment of awareness where i couldnt move at all with my heart still racing but it was slower than before and i went out again, toward the end of it, i wanted to get up but again, i couldn't, my back and legs were basically immobilized from the lack of oxygen until I finally could but my sats took hours to climb back up above 90% and then the morning, well...I basically slept again as if I hadn't at all so my brain/body took a huge hit from all that, for about a week I had abdominal pain to deal with as the only "long term issue".

My oxygen sats were 78% at their lowest but it could've lower considering co-oximetry is more accurate than any pulse oximeter even if the one i had was pretty good.

In short, what i drank was definitely enough to cause death but just short of it if i did not acted as i did which was more subconscious than anything else even if i didnt care if I died, I was oddly calm too and wasnt in any particular stress or panic although until I saw my cyanosis was progressing, I understood I probably went as far as I did without realizing it.

Edit: For full disclosure, this goes far as to say, please DO NOT test ingest this substance, I liken it to the analogy of touching a really hot stove plate just to see when its totally worth avoiding and being affected by it mentally thereafter by the experience, the consequences are not worth it.

Thanks for sharing! I'm sorry you went through what you did :( I hope you're feeling way better now. Was it an intentional CTB? And do you feel any pains?
 
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