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Spidermanspiderpoo

Spidermanspiderpoo

Member
Aug 23, 2022
36
I'm sorry I keep posting these updates, I literally do not have anywhere else to share it.
My SN has reached my city! It will be here by Saturday. So, hopefully, in a week, I will be off.
I've been wondering whether or not to leave a note, mostly inclined towards leaving one.
I used to think, the biggest fear was the loss of consciousness, you know? "If I'm dead, where will I be? What happens to my mind?" But now, I feel a great deal of comfort thinking that there won't be a consciousness, because all it has really done is cause me suffering.
 
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catflowers

catflowers

Experienced
Jul 31, 2022
225
sn needs to have a note dude you cant just die of sn and not say anything
 
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y'ffre

y'ffre

My English could be bad :)
Aug 15, 2022
179
Same, I am scared the hell out of death. Not dying but afterward.
But I am wondering something else. How your consciousness makes you suffer?
 
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Topacio

Topacio

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Aug 14, 2022
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But now, I feel a great deal of comfort thinking that there won't be a consciousness, because all it has really done is cause me suffering.
I have been practicing my method, and every time I come close it also comforts me. To know that this is the destiny that we decide by our own hands, and to walk the path that we have decided.... To finally free the soul from this world that binds us.
 
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catflowers

catflowers

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Jul 31, 2022
225
I won't be leaving notes. I've already said everything that needs to be said
you dont understand i think the notes are common in the us just as a will
 
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Topacio

Topacio

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Aug 14, 2022
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you dont understand i think the notes are common in the us just as a will
I guess it depends on the individual. I honestly pass. Not because I don't like it, but because I really wouldn't know what to say.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
44,317
The thought of non existence comforts me as well, I believe death to be like how before we were born where time passed and yet we were not aware of anything. Death is freedom from everything and it's certainly not anything to be feared. I can imagine that it must be a relief knowing that you will have SN soon. I wish you the best with your plans.
 
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Spidermanspiderpoo

Spidermanspiderpoo

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Aug 23, 2022
36
How your consciousness makes you suffer?
When I'm conscious, I feel, and most importantly, think.
And as I've come to realise of late, these 2 things are the worst of them all.
sn needs to have a note dude you cant just die of sn and not say anything
I honestly don't know what to say. There are no parting words I truly want to share.
 
y'ffre

y'ffre

My English could be bad :)
Aug 15, 2022
179
When I'm conscious, I feel, and most importantly, think.
And as I've come to realise of late, these 2 things are the worst of them all.
Yeah, I expected you to say thinking. It's so ironic that thoughts torture us that much. I mean there are lots of things in our minds, some of them ridiculous and funny, some of them very scary and disturbing. What makes the difference I wanted to ask. What makes a thought disturbing or ridiculous/funny?
 

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