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Wowser

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Mar 7, 2023
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I buy SN from IC, get it delivered.
I buy more SN from source 2.
Source 2 makes a mistake, delivers Sodium Azide.
Cops come, ransack my home. Found everything.
7 fire trucks pull up. Ambulance for me. More cops. I spend two hours in psych ward. I'm back home now.
They didn't take my AE at least.


From the bottom of my heart: fuck this planet.


What should I tell my parents, neighbors?
Gonna lay low. Fucking bastards.
 
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dimstar

Poor little woodpecker
Mar 17, 2023
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Damn I'm sorry that's just so unnecessary and cruel. I wouldn't say anything to neighbors just a miss understanding. I have no idea what to say to parents or your background. If they know your suicidal I dont see any lie around hiding it. Again I'm sorry that happened.
 
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Valky

Petulant Child
Apr 4, 2023
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I buy SN from IC, get it delivered.
I buy more SN from source 2.
Source 2 makes a mistake, delivers Sodium Azide.
Cops come, ransack my home. Found everything.
7 fire trucks pull up. Ambulance for me. More cops. I spend two hours in psych ward. I'm back home now.
They didn't take my AE at least.


From the bottom of my heart: fuck this planet.


What should I tell my parents, neighbors?
Gonna lay low. Fucking bastards.
What?????

What was their explanation?? 7 fire trucks? Was it only because of the SA? They usually 'only' pull up to such cases because of hazardous gases. How did they know what was shipped?
 
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Wowser

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Mar 7, 2023
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What?????

What was their explanation?? 7 fire trucks? Was it only because of the SA? They usually 'only' pull up to such cases because of hazardous gases. How did they know what was shipped?
They raided me because of IC. I storaged the SN in the same box as SA.
 
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Wowser

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Mar 7, 2023
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But how were they just allowed to come in? What was their explanation?
They said there's possible imminent danger or some bs; either I let them in, or they'll use violence. I won't elaborate further. I could get doxxed technically.
2 Hours in the psych ward btw.
 
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Valky

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Apr 4, 2023
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They said there's possible imminent danger or some bs; either I let them in, or they'll use violence. I won't elaborate further. I could get doxxed technically.
2 Hours in the psych ward btw.
Did they have a Durchsuchungsbefehl tho?
 
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pthnrdnojvsc

Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
Aug 12, 2019
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Seems like the news media , government , police etc are all working together and they have no bigger problems to attend to only raid , intimidate , harrass already suicidal people and take away their ability to commit suicide to escape suffering and torture. That 's their main priority coordinate in many countries police government raids to enforce their suicide prohibition state.

I wouldn't count out the almighty all seeing Google who owns android, youtube and the internet to not be involved also.
 
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Valky

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Disgusting. Really. I am so sorry.
 
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TheLastStraw10

wandering the stars
Apr 27, 2023
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I buy SN from IC, get it delivered.
I buy more SN from source 2.
Source 2 makes a mistake, delivers Sodium Azide.
Cops come, ransack my home. Found everything.
7 fire trucks pull up. Ambulance for me. More cops. I spend two hours in psych ward. I'm back home now.
They didn't take my AE at least.


From the bottom of my heart: fuck this planet.


What should I tell my parents, neighbors?
Gonna lay low. Fucking bastards.
So sorry that happened.
 
Lost in a Dream

Lost in a Dream

He/him - Metal head
Feb 22, 2020
1,773
I'm so afraid of this happening to me, and I'm probably just over a week away from being able to do this. Still waiting on my new shipment of SN to arrive now that I have my antiemetics, but it's getting harder to wait and stay alive. Do you think the sodium azide had anything to do with the aggressiveness of the police raid?

Seems like the news media , government , police etc are all working together and they have no bigger problems to attend to only raid , intimidate , harrass already suicidal people and take away their ability to commit suicide to escape suffering and torture. That 's their main priority coordinate in many countries police government raids to enforce their suicide prohibition state.
It's so stupid. I just wish those assholes would leave us alone and let us die in peace.
 
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Fl4u

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Oct 13, 2022
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I'm German too and got visited today as well... but I just didn't let them in. Do you think it's because of the sodium azide (maybe because that's more dangerous?) or because of your SN from IC?
 
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Wowser

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Mar 7, 2023
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What?????

What was their explanation?? 7 fire trucks? Was it only because of the SA? They usually 'only' pull up to such cases because of hazardous gases. How did they know what was shipped?
Fuck it. Imma say it. Initially, they came beacuse of my IC order. However, they called fire dep because they said my appartment stinks like chemicals. Fire dep confirmed that there weren't any dangers in the air or anywhere else in my house, aside from the SA, which was stored properly.
I'm German too and got visited today as well... but I just didn't let them in. Do you think it's because of the sodium azide (maybe because that's more dangerous?) or because of your SN from IC?
likely IC because they accused me of buying a suicide kit with a gas mask from a Canadian seller.
 
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Valky

Petulant Child
Apr 4, 2023
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Fuck it. Imma say it. Initially, they came beacuse of my IC order. However, they called fire dep because they said my appartment stinks like chemicals. Fire dep confirmed that there weren't any dangers in the air or anywhere else in my house, aside from the SA, which was stored properly.
So they just straight out lied, right?? Or did you really for some unexplainable reason brew some chemicals in your house?
 
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Wowser

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Mar 7, 2023
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So they just straight out lied, right?? Or did you really for some unexplainable reason brew some chemicals in your house?
No. They might've mistaken my stinky appartment for chemicals.
 
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tiny_dancer

Student
Aug 23, 2022
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I'm so sorry this happened to you.
It's so bizarre to me, especially because even if people are suicidal, it is not illegal and we are being treated like it's a heinous crime.
 
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Disaster

Experienced
Jan 24, 2023
291
But how were they just allowed to come in? What was their explanation?
Sodium azide is an actual hazard. SN should be basically harmless unless you ingest it or it's in the actual fire, but azide is actually dangerous when mishandled.
Also, the death with azide is less peaceful and turns the body, the puke if one puked etc. into a freaking hazard. It would be an absolutely evil thing to send someone SA as SN. I usually hope for no afterlife, but one responsible for sending SA instead of SN should burn in hell.
 
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Wowser

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Mar 7, 2023
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Sodium azide is an actual hazard. SN should be basically harmless unless you ingest it or it's in the actual fire, but azide is actually dangerous when mishandled.
Also, the death with azide is less peaceful and turns the body, the puke if one puked etc. into a freaking hazard. It would be an absolutely evil thing to send someone SA as SN. I usually hope for no afterlife, but one responsible for sending SA instead of SN should burn in hell.
It was properly packaged with a "Sodium Azide" label. Still, how tf can you mix up orders like this if you're a chemical seller, lmao.
 
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FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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That really is so horrible, it's inhumane how people cannot have the option to die in peace, to me this world certainly is hell.
 
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Fl4u

Student
Oct 13, 2022
149
It was properly packaged with a "Sodium Azide" label. Still, how tf can you mix up orders like this if you're a chemical seller, lmao.
When I bought my SN from a polish warehouse (my brother found my SN from IC a while ago), they first invoiced me for nitr(a)te and I had to point out again I was seeking nitr(i)te.
 
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Sparx

Specialist
Jan 4, 2023
324
likely IC because they accused me of buying a suicide kit with a gas mask from a Canadian seller.
Holy shit I've just had the police round confiscating my SN. I also ordered from EM a SCBA kit in November but have since got rid of it. I don't want them coming back looking for that 😧
 
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Sparx

Specialist
Jan 4, 2023
324
If they are this concerned about it does this mean that SN really is that poisonous and can just work on its own? because they aren't looking for the other drugs?
Yeah it obviously means it's an effective & relatively painless method otherwise they wouldn't be cracking down so hard on it. Screw these pro lifer scumbags 😡
 
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Belle1990

Member
Jan 31, 2021
28
I dont know how true never looked it up but after my failed attempt with sn my cmht took the remaining sn away and had to contact police to how to dispose of correctly. Police had to take it because it can be used as an accelerate for explosives.
 
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just_so_done

Experienced
Apr 16, 2023
258
I'm so sorry you had to go through that. I don't know why they make it so hard to find peace. They should be spending their efforts fixing the mental health system for those that are seeking help and not force their agenda on us. I'm pretty scared now that if I finally find a supplier who ships to Canada that the cops will show up and the psych ward here has already caused me so much trauma.
 
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Belle1990

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Jan 31, 2021
28
Not the purpose of the thread just gave that context so people didnt think police had turned up at my door and the time I was open on here about it people made me feel like a piece of shit and that I was being dishonest so not prepared to go down that road again. Sorry
 
PurpleParadigm

PurpleParadigm

The glow is an illusion
Mar 22, 2023
201
SN can be used to make explosives. They probably treated it as terrorist threat.
 
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Janeツ

Numb
Sep 18, 2019
25
I ordered SN on IC last year December. Today, the police came to my house, called my family, called me - just so that I could tell them "I am okay."
On the phone they called it a 'Suizid-kit', so they are aware of what we are doing.
I feel anxious…let's see if there is more coming.