Sn gone

[Canon1]

Hi

I can't believe it. Today I had no regrets to end my life and hid the sn in my basement and can't find it anymore. It's like a curse.

I know 100 % that I hid it there. Nobody has access to my cellar and it's gone. What a shitty situation.

 

[Fwompje]

Does anyone else have access to your basement?

 

[missingpeace]

Are you sure that's where you kept it?

 

[Canon1]

Nobody else has access. The question is where did I put it. My apartment and basement are little. I was losing my mind, searching for it

 

[missingpeace]

I sometimes forget where I put things.. keep looking you will find it, if only you have access then it wouldn't have been taken

 

[Caoine01]

I'm sad about your loss, do you have a way to get a new one?

 

[Canon1]

I want do die asap. Any other ideas?

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I could cry. I want to drink it but I can't find it

 

[FuneralCry]

That sounds like such a horrible situation to be in, it's just so unfair what you have to go through and it must be so incredibly disappointing. Existing in this world certainly is hell.

 

[looking_for_peace]

I'm assuming you forgot where you placed the sn? if you can't remember, then for all you know, you may have placed it somewhere else entirely. if you KNOW you placed it somewhere within your basement, then you should make yourself determined to clear it out, no matter how long it might take. otherwise, search other areas.

 

[Canon1]

I found it

 

[Canon1]

I dissolved it in water. Everything is dissolved. Now I'm getting fear to drink it

 

[berniata]

I dissolved it in water. Everything is dissolved. Now I'm getting fear to drink it

there's always another day to do it if you don't want to right now. I hope you only make the decision if you end up feeling as comfortable with the decision as you did at the start of the day

 

[Canon1]

I am going to drink it now

 

[kazewoatsumete]

i hope whatever happens after you drank it was painless and peaceful. i hope you find your peace

 

[Tartuffe]

I am going to drink it now

Have you taken anything else with it?

 

[Canon1]

No, my friend did it without anything and it worked

 

[depressedcooc]

was it peaceful for your friend/were there many symptoms like vomiting?

also how are you doing OP have you drank it

 

[SenseOfLoss]

Oh, how are you now? I hope the best for you, no struggling, just peace.

 

[spiralling]

All the best to you. May you find peace.
Keep us updated.

 

[Canon1]

I had it on my lips and doubts came. So I haven't drunk it yet.

Today morning I was so willing but now after I found it, i got some euphoria and feel like maybe I should wait

 

[spiralling]

Where is your thread gone, spiralling?

I deleted it because I'm an idiot. Let's not hijack Canon1's thread, though.

 

[depressedcooc]

can you smell the saltiness

 

[Dubito]

I deleted it because I'm an idiot. Let's not hijack Canon1's thread, though.

Yes. Sry.

 

[Canon1]

Yes it smells ugly. I don't know what to do. What if my life will get better?

I deleted it because I'm an idiot. Let's not hijack Canon1's thread, though.

How is it possible to not die from drinking it?

 

[depressedcooc]

if you're not 100% ready then you can wait the SN will always be there.

 

[Dubito]

I had it on my lips and doubts came. So I haven't drunk it yet.

Today morning I was so willing but now after I found it, i got some euphoria and feel like maybe I should wait

That's a good decision! And for next time belief most people here, it's better to have a protocol.

 

[spiralling]

Yes it smells ugly. I don't know what to do. What if my life will get better?

How is it possible to not die from drinking it?

It was nitrate. I'm an idiot.

 

[HerculePoirot]

Yes it smells ugly. I don't know what to do. What if my life will get better?

How is it possible to not die from drinking it?

In case of doubt, do not do it.
This is an old but absolute rule.
If and only if you are 100% sure, do it swiftly.

 

[berniata]

It was nitrate. I'm an idiot.

lol I did the same thing when I was going through hell last year. you're not an idiot!

 

[spiralling]

I had it on my lips and doubts came. So I haven't drunk it yet.

Today morning I was so willing but now after I found it, i got some euphoria and feel like maybe I should wait

Very wise decision.