Story SN doesn't seem reliable anymore.

[glitterypearls]

I'm seeing couple of posts of it failing, @/nonialabaster seem that she did the method correct yet it still failed. SN was my plan to use as I CTB on 16th April but now I'm back to square one. I can't fail an attempt, It will take away my privacy and freedom so I won't be able to attempt again. I need full proof plan, so I thought what better than watching LIVE videos and recorded videos of people successfully and unsuccessfully CTB, so I can study their method and see what work/not work. there is no method that seem like full proof to me, and it scared me from CTB because a lot of them seem to fight it at the last second (survival instinct) it made me think, do they regret it? train and guns method is the worst when it fails. It would make me wish I didn't even attempt if it failed. there is a lot of guns failed attempts and the result is of the method failing is terrifying. I no longer have a 100% trusted method and that makes me sad.

partially hanging isn't always successful as it didn't work for @/prettykitty. night-night method doesn't seem to be successful either and full hanging after watching those videos.. just seem the worst way to me, the body jerk.. the fighting.. the trying to free yourself, few seconds of your body shaking. It just not pleasant and very terrifying. I don't what method going to be 100% successful and painless. SN was that for me mostly successful, painless for the most part and your survival instinct won't be as strong. I know there is N and carbon monoxide methods that are painless but they are hard to get hold of and/or do it right. I feel really frustrated :(

 

[Hugh Class]

Im planning on using fentanyl as my primary method.. and "detergent suicide" as my back up method.

I tried detergent suicide back in 2010.... i mixed sulfer lime pesticide with toilet bowl cleaner.... i mixed it in a big glass container in a outdoor area.... i took a big breath of the rotten egg smell....instantly saw like 2 million stars....and i woke up in a hospital and later transferred to a mental hospital.

If you use poison gas.... dont do it home or in a hotel....or anywhere with people around....they will die too.

 

[FuneralCry]

I certainly hate how in this anti suicide society it's so difficult to die and how methods can fail, failing ctb sounds so horrible to me and is exactly what I fear. I wish that we existed in a world where all those who wish to die could pass away in peace without having to struggle in planning methods, to me it's just so unfair how there is no straightforward, reliable and accessible way to just leave.

 

[kadjflakflajlk]

i'm pretty sure she said she couldn't drink it all as it was too salty, then she just started posting loads of songs instead

 

[usernametaken]

It's too salty??? I am wanting to do this tonight and am getting worried. I don't have any AE's or the time to get them. I just want out. Now

 

[kadjflakflajlk]

i think i got mixed up with another thread i read recently where they couldnt drink the whole lot, sounds like nonial did drink the full dose hmm

edit: i'm pretty sure it was that thread but ive reread it and the post i'm looking for isnt there anymore

 

[Sparx]

If SN is too salty to drink maybe try the 'Rizla bomb' method. It would've worked for @shrek34 but they were found after passing out.

 

[Storyteller]

nonialabaster needed to postpone due to feeling unwell, I can't recall what exactly it was but they weren't able to take SN that day. If remember the thread correctly

It's too salty??? I am wanting to do this tonight and am getting worried. I don't have any AE's or the time to get them. I just want out. Now

Without AE you will likely vomit as SN is unpleasant for a stomach I imagine. Of course they probably don't provide 100% guarantee that you won't. The SN also needs to be properly measured, too much or too low would result in fail attempt. I think I did see a thread where person seems to have successful ctb with SN after saying they felt drowsy and gone to bed. I don't think they replied after that. But again maybe they just weren't able to.

 

[CemetryGates]

If SN is too salty to drink maybe try the 'Rizla bomb' method. It would've worked for @shrek34 but they were found after passing out.

Can you link this

 

[Sparx]

Can you link this

SN Failure

Got a story here that could help some people planning to use SN. This happened about 2 weeks ago, where I took around 20g of SN (bought from IC, so that's definitely a legit source if you need it), using the rizla bomb method from here...

sanctioned-suicide.net

 

[usernametaken]

I just don't have that kind of time or money to get AE I have read still with vomiting it worked the only way is by not being found for hours.

 

[nonialabaster]

I'm seeing couple of posts of it failing, @/nonialabaster seem that she did the method correct yet it still failed. SN was my plan to use as I CTB on 16th April but now I'm back to square one. I can't fail an attempt, It will take away my privacy and freedom so I won't be able to attempt again. I need full proof plan, so I thought what better than watching LIVE videos and recorded videos of people successfully and unsuccessfully CTB, so I can study their method and see what work/not work. there is no method that seem like full proof to me, and it scared me from CTB because a lot of them seem to fight it at the last second (survival instinct) it made me think, do they regret it? train and guns method is the worst when it fails. It would make me wish I didn't even attempt if it failed. there is a lot of guns failed attempts and the result is of the method failing is terrifying. I no longer have a 100% trusted method and that makes me sad.

partially hanging isn't always successful as it didn't work for @/prettykitty. night-night method doesn't seem to be successful either and full hanging after watching those videos.. just seem the worst way to me, the body jerk.. the fighting.. the trying to free yourself, few seconds of your body shaking. It just not pleasant and very terrifying. I don't what method going to be 100% successful and painless. SN was that for me mostly successful, painless for the most part and your survival instinct won't be as strong. I know there is N and carbon monoxide methods that are painless but they are hard to get hold of and/or do it right. I feel really frustrated :(

Don't let me deter you, by any means. I think I figured out what went wrong.
I didn't use a straw and I'd had a couple of glasses of wine a few hours earlier. I have a naturally acidic stomach due to a pancreas issue and failed to take any antacid, because I didn't have any on hand.
That, combined with dregs of wine left in my system, probably contributed to the failure. I didn't drink any alcohol with the SN, but my pancreas causes my digestion to slow down. Not using a straw caused the taste to be much more pronounced, so I vomited. Alot. I'm going to try again very soon and feel much more confident about it.
This is a good example of why it's important not to rush it. Take it slow and be sure you have everything you think is best for you to use alongside the SN. Everyone is different. I should have followed my own damn advice!

 

[Storyteller]

Don't let me deter you, by any means. I think I figured out what went wrong.
I didn't use a straw and I'd had a couple of glasses of wine a few hours earlier. I have a naturally acidic stomach due to a pancreas issue and failed to take any antacid, because I didn't have any on hand.
That, combined with dregs of wine left in my system, probably contributed to the failure. I didn't drink any alcohol with the SN, but my pancreas causes my digestion to slow down. Not using a straw caused the taste to be much more pronounced, so I vomited. Alot. I'm going to try again very soon and feel much more confident about it.
This is a good example of why it's important not to rush it. Take it slow and be sure you have everything you think is best for you to use alongside the SN. Everyone is different. I should have followed my own damn advice!

It's alright, love your thread and the way you talk. You're very sweet person. I hope everything goes well for you

I just don't have that kind of time or money to get AE I have read still with vomiting it worked the only way is by not being found for hours.

Well, only an attempt will tell, don't want to discourage you. Just worrying about your safety. Be at peace

 

[usernametaken]

I'll make updates. Just waiting until she goes to work. I hate leaving my new poodle puppy though. I presume best to leave him out of the room…

 

[nonialabaster]

I'll make updates. Just waiting until she goes to work. I hate leaving my new poodle puppy though. I presume best to leave him out of the room…

That's the hardest part for me. KaliKat is very bonded to me and sleeps in my bed all day and night. I think her crying at my door for me would be too much, so I've decided to let her stay with me. If I get too loud or thrashy, she has others rooms to run off to.

 

[WorthlessTrash]

Its only unreliable if you dont follow protocol or ask for help or are found. If you're asking for help or you take it somewhere where you are more than likely going to be found, you may need to evaluate whether or not you really do want to CTB.

 

[QiTianDaSheng]

I'm seeing couple of posts of it failing, @/nonialabaster seem that she did the method correct yet it still failed. SN was my plan to use as I CTB on 16th April but now I'm back to square one. I can't fail an attempt, It will take away my privacy and freedom so I won't be able to attempt again. I need full proof plan, so I thought what better than watching LIVE videos and recorded videos of people successfully and unsuccessfully CTB, so I can study their method and see what work/not work. there is no method that seem like full proof to me, and it scared me from CTB because a lot of them seem to fight it at the last second (survival instinct) it made me think, do they regret it? train and guns method is the worst when it fails. It would make me wish I didn't even attempt if it failed. there is a lot of guns failed attempts and the result is of the method failing is terrifying. I no longer have a 100% trusted method and that makes me sad.

partially hanging isn't always successful as it didn't work for @/prettykitty. night-night method doesn't seem to be successful either and full hanging after watching those videos.. just seem the worst way to me, the body jerk.. the fighting.. the trying to free yourself, few seconds of your body shaking. It just not pleasant and very terrifying. I don't what method going to be 100% successful and painless. SN was that for me mostly successful, painless for the most part and your survival instinct won't be as strong. I know there is N and carbon monoxide methods that are painless but they are hard to get hold of and/or do it right. I feel really frustrated :(

I think the totally cannot fail method is decapitation in car. Like. A couple of decent knots and/or carabiners on a 50m no stretch rope.
Tie it on, smoke a fatty/rip some meth whatever, music on loud, and floor it.

Swiftly becoming my favourite idea. Plenty of ways to up the ante too. Plus rental cars exist. Including car shares app thingies :)

 

[usernametaken]

That's the hardest part for me. KaliKat is very bonded to me and sleeps in my bed all day and night. I think her crying at my door for me would be too much, so I've decided to let her stay with me. If I get too loud or thrashy, she has others rooms to run off to.

Yeah I was trying to nap and had my door locked and Ziggy was going nuts he's only 3 months old and never been separated from me since we got him about a month ago. It's why I waited so long to go through with SN. I live in a large home in the country and the relative I live with is the reason I'm doing this. They are about to leave for work. I live in the US and it's 4 PM here. They won't be home until midnight. And they go straight to bed in another part of the home so We'll see….

 

[rabbit_feet]

nonialabaster needed to postpone due to feeling unwell, I can't recall what exactly it was but they weren't able to take SN that day. If remember the thread correctly

Without AE you will likely vomit as SN is unpleasant for a stomach I imagine. Of course they probably don't provide 100% guarantee that you won't. The SN also needs to be properly measured, too much or too low would result in fail attempt. I think I did see a thread where person seems to have successful ctb with SN after saying they felt drowsy and gone to bed. I don't think they replied after that. But again maybe they just weren't able to.

Noni had to postpone because the SN failed. I don't know if she took an AE cause I know she said something about throwing up at one point which I think could be the reason it failed but she said she did a blood test and it did turn her blood brown like it's supposed to. She also said it made her legs feel numb.

 

[nonialabaster]

Yeah I was trying to nap and had my door locked and Ziggy was going nuts he's only 3 months old and never been separated from me since we got him about a month ago. It's why I waited so long to go through with SN. I live in a large home in the country and the relative I live with is the reason I'm doing this. They are about to leave for work. I live in the US and it's 4 PM here. They won't be home until midnight. And they go straight to bed in another part of the home so We'll see….

I hope the ride is smooth and you find peace.