Story SN Ctb in an hour, deliberate suicide to talk to God and fix my life

[y'ffre]

Rest in peace

 

[hiAbbey]

Hey, news? :(

He's still doing his podcast — in fact today just interviewed a guy who claimed to have a NDE, but did not mention having had one himself. Jeff is an interesting dude. I don't think he'll be leaving this existence soon.

 

[Shu]

Hi,

I believe i will die, have a near death experience and will be sent back, its the only way to continue in life to get answers from God and
either enter eternal bliss, but almost certainly returned to this existence. I'm convinced I'll be prevented from final death.

I need to have answers from Jesus and SN is my method of having a chat with him. Athiests can vent elsewhere, this is my goodbye thread.

If i come back in a day, you probably wont believe i had a death and life experience, so i wont return here unless it was a failed SN attempt.
If i succeed, you will find me on Jeff Mara's youtube channel and will be the only guy on there from Vietnam.

God bless, always do good, see you on the other side!

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Hey, news? :(

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goodnight joptr. may all your heart's desires be fulfilled

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Best wishes, I hope you can find peace and eternal freedom fellow sufferer.

Rip (confirmed)

Hi,

I believe i will die, have a near death experience and will be sent back, its the only way to continue in life to get answers from God and
either enter eternal bliss, but almost certainly returned to this existence. I'm convinced I'll be prevented from final death.

I need to have answers from Jesus and SN is my method of having a chat with him. Athiests can vent elsewhere, this is my goodbye thread.

If i come back in a day, you probably wont believe i had a death and life experience, so i wont return here unless it was a failed SN attempt.
If i succeed, you will find me on Jeff Mara's youtube channel and will be the only guy on there from Vietnam.

God bless, always do good, see you on the other side!

Rip

 

[hiAbbey]

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I've been following Jeff Mara's podcast on YouTube since this post (as much as depression allows.) and this appears it's from 13 hours ago (in US,) though possibly someone posted an older video in tribute to him. Did he really get his wish? If so, I pray he got to speak to his higher powers, and get the answers he was seeking with constancy and passion in his — life in a body, I guess you would say. But part of me really hopes not, because this is not a death of despair. At least it doesn't seem so to me given what I know, which is almost nothing. That said, it's always divided here: part feels sad when another person achieves CTB, part feels relieved on their behalf, and a whole lot of other emotions, like envy… If he's truly gone, may he rest. RIP, eccentric, truthseeking mensch.