SN CTB in 12 hours

[FreedomSoonIHope]

Wanted to make this post to force myself to go through with it, because I sure wouldn't want to disappoint you guys by not CTBing after saying I will. I'll also try to update as I'm doing it, which will give me something to do and hopefully make me less anxious. Here's my method, please let me know if you think anything should be changed.

8 hours before, fast

2 hours before, liquid fast

1 hour before, 30ml liquid ibuprofen

30 minutes before, 4000mg antacid tablets

Will have 3 glasses of 22g SN in 44ml water prepared

I weigh 180 pounds, will 20g SN still work fine? I read that laying on my right side speeds up digestion, is that something I should do after I take the SN? I don't have an antiemetic so I want to do everything I can to not puke, or at least digest enough of the SN before I do. If I do puke I'll drink one of the extra glasses. I really hope I have no problem swallowing the SN, and it kicks in fast. 12 hours and 10 minutes from now I better be unconscious, and then shortly after free of this joke of a world. I really appreciate everyone that talks to me while I do this.

 

[Aergia]

Unfortunately, I don't have answers— just want to say that I hope you find peace. As someone who also has SN but no [edit: prescription] antiemetics I'd appreciate knowing whether to lie down while ctb or not, as well.

 

[Crono]

My method is hanging, I don't know much about SN, but I wish you luck and hope everything works out for you, in life or death.

 

[FreedomSoonIHope]

Unfortunately, I don't have answers— just want to say that I hope you find peace. As someone who also has SN but no antiemetics I'd appreciate knowing whether to lie down while ctb or not, as well.

Thanks. I'll try and be a good test dummy for you and record my results if nobody has a straight answer

 

[Deleted member 65988]

Thanks. I'll try and be a good test dummy for you and record my results if nobody has a straight answer

you weigh just about as much as I do, maybe I'm 3 pounds heavier but I do think it's 25 grams of SN in 50ml of water. I definitely think since you aren't taking AEs, a 2nd and 3rd glass of SN may be preferable as it is part of your regimen but since you'll be absorbing 20 grams which is already over the recorded lethal dose in some instances however if you do take a 2nd glass after vomiting the 1st which is very likely, I doubt it could get to the 3rd glass because by then, you may be passed out and well on your way out of this planet.

I have seen that lying down on your right does help with absorption so that's some comfort and this goes for @jar-baby as an answer for you.

The biggest thing is not to be found because from what I've seen, from both failed and successful but especially failed examples of SN Ctb, some users definitely would've Ctb'd had they not been found and some didn't follow the protocol from Stan's guide because let's face it, not all of us will have access to prescribed meds like Benzos and AE although it may be different depending on what part of this planet you are from.

I plan on using SN at some point in the near future myself so I'm only relaying what I have read ever since I came to this forum for the sole purpose of finding out as much as I could about SN, good and bad.

Your regimen is pretty on point although Antacid isn't recommended anymore.

 

[HerculePoirot]

I believe announcing one's suicide to put pressure on oneself and avoid an embarrassing situation in case of failure is definitely not a good way of ensuring a successful attempt. Sorry.

 

[Deleted member 65988]

I believe announcing one's suicide to put pressure on oneself and avoid an embarrassing situation in case of failure is definitely not a good way of ensuring a successful attempt. Sorry.

I have to agree with this, I think it's better not to even mention it so as not to have that added pressure to succeed. Goodbye threads are common and I've read a lot of them but when my time comes, I think I won't do that.

 

[Aergia]

Wanted to make this post to force myself to go through with it, because I sure wouldn't want to disappoint you guys by not CTBing after saying I will. I'll also try to update as I'm doing it, which will give me something to do and hopefully make me less anxious. Here's my method, please let me know if you think anything should be changed.

8 hours before, fast

2 hours before, liquid fast

1 hour before, 30ml liquid ibuprofen

30 minutes before, 4000mg antacid tablets

Will have 3 glasses of 20g SN in 60ml water prepared

I weigh 180 pounds, will 20g SN still work fine? I read that laying on my right side speeds up digestion, is that something I should do after I take the SN? I don't have an antiemetic so I want to do everything I can to not puke, or at least digest enough of the SN before I do. If I do puke I'll drink one of the extra glasses. I really hope I have no problem swallowing the SN, and it kicks in fast. 12 hours and 10 minutes from now I better be unconscious, and then shortly after free of this joke of a world. I really appreciate everyone that talks to me while I do this.

Regarding the dosage, you could check out the table that lists body weights and their according dosages in this post:

SN Bible Sodium Nitrite Method (Comprehensive Guide SN Method)

Sodium Nitrite (SN) Method Introduction This document is a compilation of different sn information, members inputs, important posts related to sn, recorded suicide cases related to sn, different research on sn and so on. This document also give a full understanding of SN, what it is, how it...

sanctioned-suicide.net

edit: I also agree with the others in this thread that you shouldn't be putting pressure on yourself to go through with ctb by posting about it.

 

[HerculePoirot]

I have to agree with this, I think it's better not to even mention it so as not to have that added pressure to succeed. Goodbye threads are common and I've read a lot of them but when my time comes, I think I won't do that.

I'm planning on posting a delayed thread beginning with "if you read this, I'm no longer on Earth..."

 

[Deleted member 65988]

I'm planning on posting a delayed thread beginning with "if you read this, I'm no longer on Earth..."

I do like the sound of that. I just personally want a quiet exit
I do appreciate that you are going to document as much as you can as it happens. Also, please don't feel any extra pressure to successfully CTB in order to not disappoint anyone of us OP. Anyways, I hope you'll be fine and I'll be watching this thread over the coming hours to see what happens. @FreedomSoonIHope

 

[MrDarkness]

I hope your able to find peace with your method, best of luck and god speed, I'll cya soon

 

[Praestat_Mori]

Wanted to make this post to force myself to go through with it, because I sure wouldn't want to disappoint you guys by not CTBing after saying I will.

You should not put yourself under pressure and should you change your mind not to CTB even in the last second that is perfectly fine. It's all your own choice and this will be respected here. Anyway it's up to you! I wish you all the best and good luck!

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

Wanted to make this post to force myself to go through with it, because I sure wouldn't want to disappoint you guys by not CTBing after saying I will. I'll also try to update as I'm doing it, which will give me something to do and hopefully make me less anxious. Here's my method, please let me know if you think anything should be changed.

8 hours before, fast

2 hours before, liquid fast

1 hour before, 30ml liquid ibuprofen

30 minutes before, 4000mg antacid tablets

Will have 3 glasses of 20g SN in 60ml water prepared

I weigh 180 pounds, will 20g SN still work fine? I read that laying on my right side speeds up digestion, is that something I should do after I take the SN? I don't have an antiemetic so I want to do everything I can to not puke, or at least digest enough of the SN before I do. If I do puke I'll drink one of the extra glasses. I really hope I have no problem swallowing the SN, and it kicks in fast. 12 hours and 10 minutes from now I better be unconscious, and then shortly after free of this joke of a world. I really appreciate everyone that talks to me while I do this.

Sorry you have been brought to this point. I wish you peace and freedom from this horrible world.
Just wanted you to know that we won't be disappointed if you don't go through with it.
I know it's difficult. Wishing you the best.

 

[NoLightRemains]

Wanted to make this post to force myself to go through with it, because I sure wouldn't want to disappoint you guys by not CTBing after saying I will. I'll also try to update as I'm doing it, which will give me something to do and hopefully make me less anxious. Here's my method, please let me know if you think anything should be changed.

8 hours before, fast

2 hours before, liquid fast

1 hour before, 30ml liquid ibuprofen

30 minutes before, 4000mg antacid tablets

Will have 3 glasses of 20g SN in 60ml water prepared

I weigh 180 pounds, will 20g SN still work fine? I read that laying on my right side speeds up digestion, is that something I should do after I take the SN? I don't have an antiemetic so I want to do everything I can to not puke, or at least digest enough of the SN before I do. If I do puke I'll drink one of the extra glasses. I really hope I have no problem swallowing the SN, and it kicks in fast. 12 hours and 10 minutes from now I better be unconscious, and then shortly after free of this joke of a world. I really appreciate everyone that talks to me while I do this.

Nobody would be disappointed if you change your mind. You can always back out. We're just internet strangers, don't make a life-ending decision based off perceived embarrassment or disappointment. Sorry life brought you to this point.

 

[angel31]

Hey its really terrible, that life has led you to this point… but if you are not 100% sure that you want to ctb, then dont… dont do it to "not disappoint us"…
I hope that whatever you choose to do, everything works out ur way, and wish u all the luck in the world <3
If u want to chat a bit, PM me, ill answer u if im still awake :)
Sending u a digital hug

 

[deomlez]

Have a nice trip. SI is hard to fight, if you stay longer, we will be there.

 

[FreedomSoonIHope]

I am 100% sure that I want to CTB, I have to do it and I am going to do it. The post isn't putting pressure on myself, it's just helping to make me commit and not have any second thoughts. Saying I wouldn't want to disappoint you guys was mainly just me making a dark joke because I thought it was funny lol. You guys can calm down now

 

[sensenmann]

I wish you all the best at the end of your journey

 

[AntiAll]

Wanted to make this post to force myself to go through with it, because I sure wouldn't want to disappoint you guys by not CTBing after saying I will. I'll also try to update as I'm doing it, which will give me something to do and hopefully make me less anxious. Here's my method, please let me know if you think anything should be changed.

8 hours before, fast

2 hours before, liquid fast

1 hour before, 30ml liquid ibuprofen

30 minutes before, 4000mg antacid tablets

Will have 3 glasses of 20g SN in 60ml water prepared

I weigh 180 pounds, will 20g SN still work fine? I read that laying on my right side speeds up digestion, is that something I should do after I take the SN? I don't have an antiemetic so I want to do everything I can to not puke, or at least digest enough of the SN before I do. If I do puke I'll drink one of the extra glasses. I really hope I have no problem swallowing the SN, and it kicks in fast. 12 hours and 10 minutes from now I better be unconscious, and then shortly after free of this joke of a world. I really appreciate everyone that talks to me while I do this.

Wish you the best luck .. Safe travels

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

I am 100% sure that I want to CTB, I have to do it and I am going to do it. The post isn't putting pressure on myself, it's just helping to make me commit and not have any second thoughts. Saying I wouldn't want to disappoint you guys was mainly just me making a dark joke because I thought it was funny lol. You guys can calm down now

Sorry I misunderstood, one of the many things in life I don't understand.

 

[FreedomSoonIHope]

Regarding the dosage, you could check out the table that lists body weights and their according dosages in this post:

SN Bible Sodium Nitrite Method (Comprehensive Guide SN Method)

Sodium Nitrite (SN) Method Introduction This document is a compilation of different sn information, members inputs, important posts related to sn, recorded suicide cases related to sn, different research on sn and so on. This document also give a full understanding of SN, what it is, how it...

sanctioned-suicide.net

edit: I also agree with the others in this thread that you shouldn't be putting pressure on yourself to go through with ctb by posting about it.

I guess I will do 22g in 44ml water according to that chart, I just really don't want to puke it up instantly and I don't want it to be a thick SN milkshake

 

[Deleted member 65988]

I am 100% sure that I want to CTB, I have to do it and I am going to do it. The post isn't putting pressure on myself, it's just helping to make me commit and not have any second thoughts. Saying I wouldn't want to disappoint you guys was mainly just me making a dark joke because I thought it was funny lol. You guys can calm down now

Alright, I understand. Wishing you the very best and I definitely think i will learn from this for my own time.

I guess I will do 22g in 44ml water according to that chart, I just really don't want to puke it up instantly and I don't want it to be a thick SN milkshake

Puking instantly is quite rare as for most people, it does take a few mins to vomit since it's in the stomach but again, it depends how much you vomit after all.

 

[FuneralCry]

I wish you the best with your plans and I hope that you find the freedom you search for.

 

[Unwr!tten]

i hope your bus ride is peaceful and you find what you're searching for at the end of your journey. Keep us updated and remember that we're here for you no matter your decision.

 

[Aisley]

No one here would be disappointed, no matter what way you go. If the opinions of strangers mean anything to you, then I think we would ALL rather that YOU are fully on board with your decision.
But I get where you're coming from. It helps to drive the momentum.
Good luck. Hope it's as painless and as quick as possible for you.

 

[Techef]

Saying I wouldn't want to disappoint you guys was mainly just me making a dark joke because I thought it was funny lol. You guys can calm down now

Yeah, jokes/sarcasm have a way of not getting through online or in written conversation.

Wishing you a pleasant and safe journey. If you do go, I hope I too can go and see all those who've gone before on the other side as soon as possible.

 

[Gonnerr]

Good luck, i hope you set yourself free from this existence peacefully.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

I hope your final journey is an easy one for you and that you achieve the peace you deserve.

 

[SVEN]

Best wishes for an easy trip and peaceful arrival. Go well.

 

[FreedomSoonIHope]

Any day now it'll be 11pm and I can get this over with. For my last meal a few hours ago I had a grilled cheese sandwich if anyone is curious, not too bad. I cleaned up some garbage and did some other shit so there's less for other people to deal with, besides my corpse. Now I guess I'll watch king of the hill or something for 3 hours while I wait lol