I don't go out, I don't speak, I don't interact or eat. I don't want to. Because the cards life has served me is cruel and hard. Since I was abused as a child I was robbed of innocence and normal. There is so much abuse locked away in my mind that it kills and haunts me everyday. And the fear. Pathetic for a 25year old female. But the pain of not having her is so bad. She was my best friend, and she deserved so much, I can't believe she's gone even though it's been nearly a year. I've been a robot since.
i'm sorry ur in so much pain. being homeless causes so much trouble and depression and on top of that i can't even begin to imagine how painful it must be to live without your mom. i truly wish you peace and happiness in your decisions and even more so i hope you meet your mom again. you don't deserve any more pain.
Thankyou, I'm sure I'll see her again. We're both Catholic, not religiously but enough to believe there's something after death. I hate myself for not being brave enough to join her. Since I was a young it's always been me and her, and there was soo much struggle. To the point where we were living in a tent and going to soup kitchens. And then her reward for sorting her life out: terminal cancer. Fuck the world mate. For stealing my mum. Her story really wasn't finished
heres the last picture I have of me and my mum. It kills me looking at this
Do not do it in the same room where your partner is sleeping, for obvious reasons.
After having started drinking the poison, do not move at all, and use all your energy (specially mental) to fight against your stomach. This effort should not last more than 10 minutes.
Good luck I am with you
Whether it is to work or not I'm taking 25grams tonight. Haven't been on herw too long but everyone been lovely and helpful
Will anyone be here at 9/10oclock UK time?