PrincessInWhite
I just want to sell out my funeral
- Feb 21, 2019
- 640
Sigh....every time I think I have my method sorted some fucking bullshit happens. First I didn't have an AE. Then I was worried about the cost if I potentially failed and needed to be hospitalized, but I'm now on some of the best public insurance in the country.
Now I'm worried about liver damage. I'm already a regular drinker (not binge drinking or drinking to sickness/blackout but enough that my liver enzymes are already elevated) and I'm extremely concerned about permanent liver damage if I attempt and fail. It's very important to me that my method not cause lasting damage if I fail because if we're being honest here nothing is foolproof no matter what we tell ourselves.
I'm so fucking sick of this shit. Can't do an exit bag because I don't live alone and the tank would raise serious suspicions. Can't do hanging, risk of brain damage is too high. Don't have access to any pills that would be lethal, and I am very opposed to any method involved in being in public.
I feel so fucking stuck.
Now I'm worried about liver damage. I'm already a regular drinker (not binge drinking or drinking to sickness/blackout but enough that my liver enzymes are already elevated) and I'm extremely concerned about permanent liver damage if I attempt and fail. It's very important to me that my method not cause lasting damage if I fail because if we're being honest here nothing is foolproof no matter what we tell ourselves.
I'm so fucking sick of this shit. Can't do an exit bag because I don't live alone and the tank would raise serious suspicions. Can't do hanging, risk of brain damage is too high. Don't have access to any pills that would be lethal, and I am very opposed to any method involved in being in public.
I feel so fucking stuck.