Venting I am getting impatient

[KillingPain267]

It's too hard, risky to buy meto and SN. My family is getting nosy about my rum drinking and sleeping pills (so now I have to endure sleepless nights in the heat again). It will take weeks before I got all set up with SN, they they probably find it anyway. FUCK IT! I have to go with other methods. I'm thinking partial, or eventually a brutal drowning while drunk. I can't swim, so I cannot save myself when SI kicks in. This has to be done within the month. I'm tired.

 

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It's too hard, risky to buy meto and SN. My family is getting nosy about my rum drinking and sleeping pills (so now I have to endure sleepless nights in the heat again). It will take weeks before I got all set up with SN, they they probably find it anyway. FUCK IT! I have to go with other methods. I'm thinking partial, or eventually a brutal drowning while drunk. I can't swim, so I cannot save myself when SI kicks in. This has to be done within the month. I'm tired.

Its important to have a clear head when following through with plans about ctb. Always have a backup. Drowning and hanging work, I think the SI if drowning is higher. Best regards