
Ob La Dee
Member
- Aug 4, 2021
- 76
This is going to sound a bit silly, but it's true. I'm planning to ctb with SN sometime over the next few weeks. While I'm not afraid of dying (in fact I welcome it) I AM afraid of vomiting. This is a major phobia for me, something I have had since I was a child. After I puke I tend to crawl into a fetal position on my bed and shake like a leaf. I have already purchased the SN and paid a hefty price for it (sn is hard to find in the US now that companies have learned that people are using it to commit suicide) and I'm worried that this fear will prevent me from going through with it. In fact it's the only thing that is stopping me.
I am on a psych med (paliderodone) which is supposed to act as an antiemetic and prevent vomiting, but I'm still fearful. I know how ridiculous this sounds and I'm wondering if anyone has advice on how to push past this phobia.
I am on a psych med (paliderodone) which is supposed to act as an antiemetic and prevent vomiting, but I'm still fearful. I know how ridiculous this sounds and I'm wondering if anyone has advice on how to push past this phobia.