Small stupid everyday stuff that make you think about killing yourself

[RedHarlequin]

So I have seen on several occasions people mention their reaction to everyday challenges is kinda dramatic :) that the smallest inconvenience makes us think- oh well, guess I'll die then..

This is exactly my situation too, it is kinda creepy, but looking back at it has also gotten funny and ridiculous.

Here is my top five:
- When I drop something, even when it's easy to pick up/ nothing breaks.
- when it's cold outside, if it's cold with closes inside it's extra suicide fuel
- sitting at the table at boring relative get-together thinking how lame you are for being here, while Dan Bilzerian is living his best life snorting Coke of someone's titties. Surely you thus suck at life and should die before ppl find out how muxh of a loser you are.
- when I run into door with my little finger, but also stuff like give myself a minuscule cut while cooking/ opening a wine bottle is enought to send me spiralling. Extra points if it's a small open cuts- my mind goes, great, I have to look for something to tie it with, and it's going to hurt every time I use my hands. I clearly don't have time for this shitshow. Goodbye cruel world.

PS I just realized the amount of typos/mistakes in the text is impressive. As much as possible try not thinking I'm stupid AF, think it's just a mix of lack of sleep & shit keyboard skills.

 

[Darkover]

when i walk past a door and my clothes get caught on the door handle and rip apart now i want to kill my self

 

[storeboughtisfine]

dropping my keys when i'm trying to put them in a door. it makes me want end sooooo bad some days its ridiculous.

 

[RedHarlequin]

when i walk past a door and my clothes get caught on the door handle and rip apart now i want to kill my self

Oh yes me too. For me I almost always think- fuck, how can one person fail at life so hard.. I can't even dress myself correctly or navigate going through door.

Similarly when I try pulling the door when it says push. In my 25 years of existence I have surprisingly mastered the direction when the sign says pull, but this is just too much for my dumb self. Extra points for when there are ppl around

dropping my keys when i'm trying to put them in a door. it makes me want end sooooo bad some days its ridiculous.

Yes, I felt that. And I feel this X 1000, when a thing from my back pocket has fallen into the toilet. I just think no way my hand is going in there, wheres the safety razor, I'll just cut my carotid right here before anyone notices the cigarette pack In the toilet.

 

[Valky]

It really is ridiculous how it's always the smallest things that are the straw that breaks the camels back.

But it also just shows how full we are with negative emotions, that even the smallest things Break us :/

 

[00nobody00]

Every time I hear or think of the phrase "the cost of living", I instantly want to curl up and die

 

[RedHarlequin]

Every time I hear or think of the phrase "the cost of living", I instantly want to curl up and die

Wait there was one that triggered me unreasonably..
Oh Yess, it was these WHO statistics terms or I'm not sure what they are called.

One that particularly triggers me was Years of Life Lost to Disability..
Bitch, it's all of them.

Like I know this might be a good statistics tool for someone, but I take it as a personal attack.

 

[jigsaw_falling]

oh yeah, i relate. i absolutely despise knocking things over, not being able to make my bed correctly sometimes, or just messing little things up. i've burst into tears of frustration so many times, it feels like such mundane things push me over the edge. also, hearing people talk loudly sometimes makes me want to disappear, my heart rate speeds up and it makes me feels weirdly miserable

 

[RedHarlequin]

oh yeah, i relate. i absolutely despise knocking things over, not being able to make my bed correctly sometimes, or just messing little things up. i've burst into tears of frustration so many times, it feels like such mundane things push me over the edge. also, hearing people talk loudly sometimes makes me want to disappear, my heart rate speeds up and it makes me feels weirdly miserable

This reminded me of putting blanket in bedsheets (forgot, maybe it was called bed covers)..
It makes me feel like the slowest fuck, dependant on others completely . i always think.. if this took me like 30 min, what are the chances I'm not gonna fail at life.. and I dispise that feeling of fabric across for example freshly trimmed fingernails. It makes me want to die on an unimaginable level.

 

[Pidgeons_Sparrows]

Everytime i brush my teeth (it really hurts i have progressing periodontitis)

Everytime i head to bed and turn the lights off lol

 

[Source Energy]

Oh, yes, knocking things over and they fall with a loud crash AND make me bend over to pick it up. Bending makes me dizzy I hate it.
Not having strength in my fingers to open a tightly screwed lid or cap and having to ask for help
Same for anything that requires assembling/putting together
Loud voices, sarcasm, demeaning comments between a group of people, criticizing every small thing
And my biggest pet peeve: bumping, competing for the same space to walk around

On a daily basis, these small things make me think "see, all this I will leave behind soon and I'm not gonna miss it"

 

[sulli]

whenever i get comfy in bed and close to falling asleep then i'm struck with the need to get up and go to the bathroom
when i'm woken up by the phone ringing and 90% of the time it's walgreens saying yet another prescription needs to be refilled
sometimes when the sun comes out, idk why or how to explain this one i'm just happier being nocturnal and the brightness of the sun makes me miserable sometimes when i have to be awake for it
trying to put a fitted sheet on my bed
GROCERY SHOPPING (though having an ed makes this even more miserable for me than the average person), how there's always someone in the way anytime you turn around, or when you're standing waiting for someone to move because they're exactly where you need to be to get the one item you need and they just take their sweet time admiring the cheese selection like they're at the louvre

 

[RedHarlequin]

Also whenever I have to go meet up with someone or go to work and my wallet disappears for the 50th time that day.. it makes me just want to lay down on the stairs in defeat, tell everyone to just climb over me, it would be nice if someone would mb check if I'm still alive poking me with their shoes every now and then.. not that I would like to be bought back into consciousness, but that's just the treatment a Shit like me deserves. In my head I imagine staying in the stairway because it feels like the only place I deserve to be at, the bed is too expensive, soft and warm for a loser like me to sleep in.

Also whenever I have to go meet up with someone or go to work and my wallet disappears for the 50th time that day.. it makes me just want to lay down on the stairs in defeat, tell everyone to just climb over me, it would be nice if someone would mb check if I'm still alive poking me with their shoes every now and then.. not that I would like to be bought back into consciousness, but that's just the treatment a Shit like me deserves. In my head I imagine staying in the stairway because it feels like the only place I deserve to be at, the bed is too expensive, soft and warm for a loser like me to sleep in.

In general i have a better opinion of myself. This however or something similar gets played in my brain every time I'm late for school, late for a meeting, late for bus. Honestly don't remember when the last time was I want late.

 

[charlotte_]

there are a lot more but here are my top 5:
- morning routine (cleaning ur bed brushing ur teeth ect)
- breakfast/lunch/dinner time (I'm anorexic and usually too tired to eat)
- School and work ofc
- Having to go out
- The awarness that tomorrow will come

 

[RedHarlequin]

Sorry I'm creating such a mess with these shitty formatted posts. Heh now I think of it this is also definitely suicide fuel.. my head is like " ok.. so you've been learning to write for what, 12 years at school. So.. why you failin'? You do realize you will never have so much training for anything.. if this is the maximum level of perfection you can achieve.

Can I maybe offer a grill and some Coles??

 

[moonlightstairway]

Honestly, every little inconvenience makes me feel like that. Sometimes I tell myself that I'm being too sensitive and I need to stop since everyone else goes through the same thing, but at this point if I'm this sensitive and weak to what's normal for everyone else, I feel even more like dying. Every little thing makes me spiral and the only way out is death.

 

[SleepingLessons]

When I become aware of the fact that my teeth will decay and I'll have to have dentist work done in 10-30 years. Literally just takes that thought to convince me that yes, CTB is the right way, I can't be arsed with that shit.

 

[silent star]

When I'm eating something and I accidentally bite my lip or my gums really hard.
And when I get a really bad headache

 

[Unknown21]

Me every day when I'm going to work. Lol.

 

[StolenLife]

My neighbours being loud and annoying makes me wanna yeet myself off the building.

 

[RedHarlequin]

whenever i get comfy in bed and close to falling asleep then i'm struck with the need to get up and go to the bathroom
when i'm woken up by the phone ringing and 90% of the time it's walgreens saying yet another prescription needs to be refilled
sometimes when the sun comes out, idk why or how to explain this one i'm just happier being nocturnal and the brightness of the sun makes me miserable sometimes when i have to be awake for it
trying to put a fitted sheet on my bed
GROCERY SHOPPING (though having an ed makes this even more miserable for me than the average person), how there's always someone in the way anytime you turn around, or when you're standing waiting for someone to move because they're exactly where you need to be to get the one item you need and they just take their sweet time admiring the cheese selection like they're at the louvre

This reminded me of that comedy sketch on neurosurgeon who got asked about what he'd do if he suddenly needed to pee like crazy during a 1 hr surgery.

Honestly, every little inconvenience makes me feel like that. Sometimes I tell myself that I'm being too sensitive and I need to stop since everyone else goes through the same thing, but at this point if I'm this sensitive and weak to what's normal for everyone else, I feel even more like dying. Every little thing makes me spiral and the only way out is death.

Damn, this is awful aa well.. basically I somethime try to cut corners by not cuttig the nails of my feet. So about two hours in paint and prepping the wall, were finally ready to advance with the wall..the moment I put the thuff on they started almost immediately by the butter. By, the noting or kaut kādā vego fesj. Es gan pameginasu??

This reminded me of that comedy sketch on neurosurgeon who got asked about what he'd do if he suddenly needed to pee like crazy during a 1 hr surgery.

Damn, this is awful aa well.. basically I somethime try to cut corners by not cuttig the nails of my feet. So about two hours in paint and prepping the wall, were finally ready to advance with the wall..the moment I put the thuff on they started almost immediately by the butter. By, the noting or kaut kādā vego fesj. Es gan pameginasu??

I would like to confesession ro my miniusin applws pinal priwat I've never lived with.
And next to that wforw taking the exam, there are a athe stuff

And I will f next time whe meet

This reminded me of that comedy sketch on neurosurgeon who got asked about what he'd do if he suddenly needed to pee like crazy during a 1 hr surgery.

Damn, this is awful aa well.. basically I somethime try to cut corners by not cuttig the nails of my feet. So about two hours in paint and prepping the wall, were finally ready to advance with the wall..the moment I put the thuff on they started almost immediately by the butter. By, the noting or kaut kādā vego fesj. Es gan pameginasu??

 

[RedHarlequin]

I had a period in my life of getting quite overweight, if not obese already. They prescribed me a bunch of antipsychotics at a hospital, like 900mg Quetiapin Ret a day. As I was there I was always hungry, but the meals were limited.
As I got home I just went wild on food, the medication stayed the same. I remember reaching the point where it took a lot of determination and motor skill just to wipe my own ass.. this is Def one of the lower points of my life :D

This reminded me of that comedy sketch on neurosurgeon who got asked about what he'd do if he suddenly needed to pee like crazy during a 1 hr surgery.

Damn, this is awful aa well.. basically I somethime try to cut corners by not cuttig the nails of my feet. So about two hours in paint and prepping the wall, were finally ready to advance with the wall..the moment I put the thuff on they started almost immediately by the butter. By, the noting or kaut kādā vego fesj. Es gan pameginasu??

I would like to confesession ro my miniusin applws pinal priwat I've never lived with.
And next to that wforw taking the exam, there are a athe stuff

And I will f next time whe meet

This reminded me of that comedy sketch on neurosurgeon who got asked about what he'd do if he suddenly needed to pee like crazy during a 1 hr surgery.

Damn, this is awful aa well.. basically I somethime try to cut corners by not cuttig the nails of my feet. So about two hours in paint and prepping the wall, were finally ready to advance with the wall..the moment I put the thuff on they started almost immediately by the butter. By, the noting or kaut kādā vego fesj. Es gan pameginasu??

I would like to confesession ro my miniusin applws pinal priwat I've never lived with.
And next to that wforw taking the exam, there are a athe stuff

And I will f next time whe meet

Wait what is this post even.. I wasn't drinking yesterday, just really tired. Guess my brain insisted I keep at posting :D
Reading this the next day can also be considered small things that make me want to kms

 

[moya117]

- when my hair gets wet because of my own sweat.
- when I constantly feel sticky even after I showered.
- when there's a little bit of itching from wherever part of my body.
- when I can feel my clothes or blanket just not right (idk how to explain it)
- when the weather is too hot or too cold

 

[kwho]

Seeing people staring at their smartphones used to really trigger me for years. As in - i felt a sharp and uncontrollable pang of pain and despair, and wished i could never have to see another human-smartphone hybrid. I've gotten over it now. It is what it is.

Other than that - the moment of waking up. I hate it so much. My reaction every single time can be described as a different variations of: Really???! f#c&! ..... &%(%§('<!!!!!! Not AGAIN! Why......................????!!! why?!

 

[bluebird16]

Being completely and utterly bored for the most part of the day.

 

[RedHarlequin]

- Always and I mean always forgetting to take the shopping cart before entering the store then walking around like a retard with 20 stuff in my hands.
- not feeling like wet hair is a problem to society, so never waiting long enough after washing it for it to get dry and just going out, then looking crazy and ppl avoiding me

 

[CTB Fella]

Existing.

 

[RedHarlequin]

Existing.

Ok you won the thread.

 

[freedompass]

So I have seen on several occasions people mention their reaction to everyday challenges is kinda dramatic :) that the smallest inconvenience makes us think- oh well, guess I'll die then..

This is exactly my situation too, it is kinda creepy, but looking back at it has also gotten funny and ridiculous.

Here is my top five:
- When I drop something, even when it's easy to pick up/ nothing breaks.
- when it's cold outside, if it's cold with closes inside it's extra suicide fuel
- sitting at the table at boring relative get-together thinking how lame you are for being here, while Dan Bilzerian is living his best life snorting Coke of someone's titties. Surely you thus suck at life and should die before ppl find out how muxh of a loser you are.
- when I run into door with my little finger, but also stuff like give myself a minuscule cut while cooking/ opening a wine bottle is enought to send me spiralling. Extra points if it's a small open cuts- my mind goes, great, I have to look for something to tie it with, and it's going to hurt every time I use my hands. I clearly don't have time for this shitshow. Goodbye cruel world.

PS I just realized the amount of typos/mistakes in the text is impressive. As much as possible try not thinking I'm stupid AF, think it's just a mix of lack of sleep & shit keyboard skills.

Is it alright to say I found this funny as well as relatable?

I vape and I'm always dropping them, it's like they deliberately, magically roll right under the bed, necessitating getting down on my arthritic knees to fish them out! Kill me right now please.

Stubbing my toe on anything is obvious suifuel.

Coughing (yup the vaping doesn't help), sometimes I accidentally swallow my own saliva and start choking for several minutes, what the freaking fuck.

Just fuck this stupid shit all the way to hell and back.

 

[RedHarlequin]

So this is new suicide fuel in my life. I beg you guys- someone get my brains checked.

So a bit of Bg- I'm not looking for hooking up. There's nothing wrong with that if it's what both want. But I'm still not in a perfectly stable place mentally, also dealing with self esteem issues from last relationship. So having sex with someone I like in more ways that that would be a ticking time bomb.

This whole situation was deserving of a meme