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Captain laser

Captain laser

its too late.
Mar 17, 2026
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every time i talk with my friends and they crack a joke, before i wouldve laughed and joked along, now it just fills me with anger and sadness and makes me isolate myself, i keep assuming the worst possible meaning from everything they say and getting defensive, i feel like im ruining my own life.
 
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HeyBoogahJr

HeyBoogahJr

I'm still here.
Apr 25, 2026
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Why does it fill you with anger and sadness?

Why assume the worst?

Are they still friends if you don't seem to get along with them?
 
endboss

endboss

Student
Apr 8, 2026
146
every time i talk with my friends and they crack a joke, before i wouldve laughed and joked along, now it just fills me with anger and sadness and makes me isolate myself, i keep assuming the worst possible meaning from everything they say and getting defensive, i feel like im ruining my own life.
Sounds like you might be experiencing paranoia. I don't want to intrude, but do you smoke weed often? That's what triggered my paranoia when I was younger.. I had the exact same feelings and I became very defensive even though my friends were just making jokes and never wanted to hurt me.
 
Captain laser

Captain laser

its too late.
Mar 17, 2026
61
Sounds like you might be experiencing paranoia. I don't want to intrude, but do you smoke weed often? That's what triggered my paranoia when I was younger.. I had the exact same feelings and I became very defensive even though my friends were just making jokes and never wanted to hurt me.
nope, im too lame for that :P, but paranoia is exactly how i'd describe it
Why does it fill you with anger and sadness?

Why assume the worst?

Are they still friends if you don't seem to get along with them?
the thing is as soon as i leave my depressed state i look back at what made me so angry, it all seems super trivial, it makes me feel kind of guilty for judging them so harshly
 
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Lapdog6795

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Mar 24, 2025
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Have your friends intentionally targeted or bullied you? Made fun of you in any way?

If not, then you are just suffering in your imagination. If you don't like certain types of jokes, tell them.
I know it will be hard, but if you can't feel comfortable around your friends then what's the point of friendship?
 

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