NiveusAnima
Member
- Apr 19, 2025
- 17
I have a girlfriend. Great, right? I thought so. But now that she's going to be over a thousand miles away with someone I've never met, I realize how little else I have. No family or friends or pets, just me and my mental illnesses trapped in a body failing thanks to bad genetics and a lot less luck than I'd like. She's moving to a place so far away I can't pay to get there even if I save for years, and that means I'm basically doomed to get ghosted or for the inevitable "he's here for me when I need him" and "you're just so far away" bullshit I never fucking initiated. I never wanted to lose her. She's the one who's running off to the other side of the damn country just to get a job. And yeah, I get it, everyone needs money to live. It's why I'm not holding her back. But that doesn't mean I like watching her slip away from me like this. I fucking hate it. Honestly I don't think I'd mind her telling me to fuck off, at least then I could kill myself without regrets. I fucking hate living like this.
