Venting Sleeping with my method tonight

[TeflonMummy]

Just lost the most important person in the world to me tonight. After 3 hard-fought years of trying to make it work he finally quit on me. I feel so empty. I thought there was still a chance for a future I could enjoy. Life has felt like I'm already in hell for the last 6 months. Beside me is a springer air rifle in .30 in bed tonight.

Hoping I'll have the will not to use it when I wake up.

 

[Worndown]

While this was a terrible day for you, I hope you do not feel the need to use it.

 

[SVEN]

Being in the UK I have no firearms experience, or how effective an air weapon may be in ctb. All I can offer are my best wishes, whatever your decision when you awake. If you have any uncertainty, or the method has the possibility of leaving you disabled, you can always wait for another 'bus.
Whatever your choice, you know you have good wishes and support.

 

[Letgo]

I hope you feel better in the morning. Have no experience with weapons but you need to feel it is the right time. If it's not, then give yourself time. Thinking of you. Hugs.

 

[unnormal9]

I used to do that; sleeping with a knife under my pillow when I was tiny and suicidal.

 

[cherrysquick]

aw man, hope you feel better after you wake up :( im so sorry for your loss, the first days are always the worst. sending hugs x

 

[FuneralCry]

It must be a relief to have the firearm, that method isn't even legal in my country and while that wouldn't be the most ideal method to me, I think that those who have it as an option certainly are fortunate as they aren't trapped here. To me the thought of being gone truly is such the only comfort in this world filled with endless agony.