Discussion Sleep all day long instead of killing yourself.

[Freesan]

How will you pay for your food, movies etc.?

 

[bbq1]

How will you pay for your food, movies etc.?

House?

 

[Morbidreality]

Basically what I've been doing for the past 10 years, on & off...? Been going pretty strong the past 4 months and now I can't sleep through the night any more-always up by 4am

 

[bbq1]

No, bad idea. Sleep is ok but after a while the brain will reject so much. Drugs like amitriptyline or benzo's will stop working. And shame of shames you will piss the bed one day. Maybe worse.
No. You need to figure out a better solution to your problems.

 

[Freesan]

House?

What do you mean house?

 

[Duqu]

That's essentially what I do, though usually with a little less sleep than 18 hours - more like 15. Last week I had 3 days with nothing to do so I kept taking more and more sleeping meds, painkillers, and muscle relaxers and ended up sleeping for about 60 hours. Oof. Not nearly enough to OD on (I have quite a tolerance to my usual meds) but enough to knock me out. I just wasn't ready to do ANYTHING, not even my MMORPG-lite on my phone (book of heroes, if anyone wants to play pm me your email and I'll invite you we both get rewards that way. It's fun. But I haven't had the energy to even look at my phone in the past 2 weeks for longer than a few mins. Not even World of Warcraft. Just ugh. Too much.

I'm a little better energy wise though tomorrow will be similar - my days seems to go like that if I have no reason to leave my apt. I don't have any appointments tomorrow (tuesday) though I do have a rehearsal (I play trumpet in an LGBT concert band) at 7PM if I can stay awake that long. That's like...bedtime for me normally haha. Tomorrow I'll probably get up around 1 and if I have the energy try and play on one of my toons on WoW.

But yeah, I'm on SSI. I receive $750 a month from social security (US) for disability, and have no other income (though am looking into online captioning if I can get the energy). So no work to drag me out of bed. I finished school (pointlessly since I don't work, now just have the loans yippee! but I have an MSW (master's in social work).

 

[bigj75]

I would rather just kill myself.

this. I'd rather die than be in a half assed coma the rest of my life. I can't stand not having the will to live. I don't enjoy anything anymore. To sleep all day and then wake up knowing I have no life is too much to bare.

 

[Deadinside24]

I'd rather die too. Every time I woke up I'd be pissed I was still alive. Why not sleep forever and not wake up.

 

[DeletedUser4739]

This is a new idea I am thinking about... What if I drug myself to sleep everyday? I could sleep for 18 hours or more in a broken car (big so you have enough space to be comfortable), wake up just to eat something and watch the years pass by. If I get to 67, they will give me the minimum amount they give to the elderly (about 400 euro / month). In the meanwhile, I will watch movies, videos, read books, listen to music, be on the Internet... with an Ipad or something like that. The idea is to watch your life pass by until you feel like you have seen enough technology, news, and all you want to see. You would eat just enough to be full.

You may be thinking "but life is not worth living that way". Yes well, nowadays I prefer to sleep all day instead of playing videogames with my rig or do something else, so to me the only issue would be to be comfortable.

Does this make any sense?

yes, i've been living from my bed for years. i even use fans to create as much white noise as possible, blocking most everything out. i've been doing it so long 20+ hrs a day 7 days a week it's normal for me now.

 

[DeletedUser4739]

I have had jobs where I make enough to live comfortable in my own house and mainly just played video games and slept during work and was told how great of a job I am doing. You should research and come up with a plan. All jobs are not jobs you would hate.

please share, what are some of these jobs?

 

[deflagrat]

That's essentially what I do, though usually with a little less sleep than 18 hours - more like 15. Last week I had 3 days with nothing to do so I kept taking more and more sleeping meds, painkillers, and muscle relaxers and ended up sleeping for about 60 hours. Oof. Not nearly enough to OD on (I have quite a tolerance to my usual meds) but enough to knock me out. I just wasn't ready to do ANYTHING, not even my MMORPG-lite on my phone (book of heroes, if anyone wants to play pm me your email and I'll invite you we both get rewards that way. It's fun. But I haven't had the energy to even look at my phone in the past 2 weeks for longer than a few mins. Not even World of Warcraft. Just ugh. Too much.

I'm a little better energy wise though tomorrow will be similar - my days seems to go like that if I have no reason to leave my apt. I don't have any appointments tomorrow (tuesday) though I do have a rehearsal (I play trumpet in an LGBT concert band) at 7PM if I can stay awake that long. That's like...bedtime for me normally haha. Tomorrow I'll probably get up around 1 and if I have the energy try and play on one of my toons on WoW.

But yeah, I'm on SSI. I receive $750 a month from social security (US) for disability, and have no other income (though am looking into online captioning if I can get the energy). So no work to drag me out of bed. I finished school (pointlessly since I don't work, now just have the loans yippee! but I have an MSW (master's in social work).

Lucky you, I guess. They are giving you money. My parents get 1200 € free each year for taking care of me and that's about it (33 % dissability here). University is also free but why would I even bother at this point. I hope they never stop giving you that money, live a happier life.

 

[akosineenee]

I used to love sleeping. My life is better in my dreams even if I'm having a nightmare. Now I have manic states where I stay up for 2-3 days, fall asleep when exhaustion finally hits and wake up even more tired than before.

 

[Trashcan]

When I sleep, I have dreams. So I'd rather just die.

 

[medusa]

This is a new idea I am thinking about... What if I drug myself to sleep everyday? I could sleep for 18 hours or more in a broken car (big so you have enough space to be comfortable), wake up just to eat something and watch the years pass by. If I get to 67, they will give me the minimum amount they give to the elderly (about 400 euro / month). In the meanwhile, I will watch movies, videos, read books, listen to music, be on the Internet... with an Ipad or something like that. The idea is to watch your life pass by until you feel like you have seen enough technology, news, and all you want to see. You would eat just enough to be full.

You may be thinking "but life is not worth living that way". Yes well, nowadays I prefer to sleep all day instead of playing videogames with my rig or do something else, so to me the only issue would be to be comfortable.

Does this make any sense?

I don't want to sound mean, but it's a silly idea. How are you going to drug yourself to go to sleep every day? Things like Propofol only put you in anesthesia and are not a sound sleep. Benzos are the only other thing that's available except chloral hydrate and they are both addictive and won't make you sleep for 18 hours. And where are you going to get 400 Euros per month? In the long term, your body will not want to sleep all day. Stuff like Benadryl is also addicitive in the long term and might not even work-I use it every day but many times I took like 200mg and still didn't fall asleep at all.
So it would be better to try and fix some of your problems or work part time and try to pay the bills that way if it's possible for you.
And if you want to ctb one day and nothing helps, you can still do it.

 

[MEoDP]

If I may make an unsolicited suggestion,you could potentially spend many hours a day meditating instead. (you may even be rewarded with altered states of consciousness and the feeling of being high)

of course,its not as if doing this is going to be easy either,but it certainly sounds like the more practical/doable option than trying to spend your entire day sleeping. there are people out there who could spend as much time as 6 hours or more of straight meditation.

 

[deflagrat]

I think this is what I am going to start doing from now on. My usual day is really long and I am suicidal because of it, so my only option is to sleep 16 -20 hours / day to spend days quickly. Now I am looking for the right medication to use, do you guys have any ideas? (I am not homeless, I am still living with my parents just like always).

 

[Caustic Cardinals]

kush vodka couch stuck forever

 

[bigj75]

kush vodka couch stuck forever

I never was able to get high no matter how much kush I smoked.

 

[Caustic Cardinals]

I never was able to get high no matter how much kush I smoked.

maybe you were deficient in cbd

 

[bigj75]

maybe you were deficient in cbd

i have no idea. I've done it about 5 different times. Ive wanted to try edibles though.

 

[Caustic Cardinals]

i have no idea. I've done it about 5 different times. Ive wanted to try edibles though.

 

[checking out]

Hey everyone. I have a troubled relationship with sleep. It's hard to get, but when I do achieve it, it provides a quantum of peace before the dreams come and ruin it. Re-occurring dreams, taunting dreams, dreams that seem so real and in which my life has meaning. Then I wake up and my heart is broken all over again. I too have thought about disappearing and living somewhere remote where no-one can find me. In Australia there are lots of places to hide. But I know I can't outrun who I am so I would just end up swinging from a tree within a short time. So I'll just get all my affairs in order, then exit stage left, and skip the Daniel Boone bit

 

[couldntthinkofaname]

i cant sleep longer than 4h for over 2 years now

one of the reason why i strongly consider to end it

 

[checking out]

Wow that would be incredibly hard. There are few things worse than the 2am thoughts that come creeping into the sleep-deprived mind, or trying to exist on so little rest. Would give you a hug if I could

 

[Aragon]

I would rather just kill myself.

Me too. I hardly get to relax anymore, when I sleep I have to wake up and am forced to face reality. Anyway using sleeping pills for that long will probably do you in, in the end. I mean taking them everyday is bound to have a slow effect on your body. Probably lead to some sort of failure later in life.

I think this is what I am going to start doing from now on. My usual day is really long and I am suicidal because of it, so my only option is to sleep 16 -20 hours / day to spend days quickly. Now I am looking for the right medication to use, do you guys have any ideas? (I am not homeless, I am still living with my parents just like always).

God, you till live with your family? What I wouldn't give to be with my family again. Can't turn back time now, alone and I have a roof over my head, but it's stressful, and I can't hack life. Homelessness is always on my mind, it's like if I was homeless, would it be easier to die? Because then you have really nothing to live for.

 

[checking out]

Yes that's the worst. That first thought when you wake. The tiny break from the hopelessness that sleep affords, then awake, and reality, the awful reality. I have for so long wished that I would no longer wake up. Just go to sleep and be free of it all

 

[deflagrat]

Yesterday I slept 19 hours with a bit of help (meds), do you guys know good meds for sleeping 20 hours / day? Because I am still unsure about what to ask for.

 

[Regisphilbin_savant]

I love this idea and hope I could do it. But unfortunately is not realistic. And no human can sleep 18 hours every day. And even worse in my case with my sleeping problems.

I think in our country (we are both spanish) you have to work a x amount of years for getting this money. So it won't work.

Bad thing because the idea sounds very good.

 

[Jerryman]

i cant sleep longer than 4h for over 2 years now

one of the reason why i strongly consider to end it

You ever tried mirtazipine? Great for sleep, take one before bed.

 

[Roehannta]

Enh, as far as I'm concerned, sleep isn't all it's cracked up to be. It's certainly superior to being awake, but that's about it. Being a slightly better alternative isn't really saying much. In my case, the whole act of sleep wearies me just as much as any other part of life. The always painfully dull experience of laying in my bed waiting to fall unconscious, the odd nightmare or annoying bout of sleep paralysis, the absolute shittiness of waking up, the intense, groggy, bag faced feeling of even short naps (etc.). Just another boring song & dance and I'm all so tired of it. To me sleep is ultimately just a crappier "free-trial" version of death and I'd much rather opt for the latter (assuming I finally could, that is).

I think I want to find a company like on Vanilla Sky LE. Life Extension. Bio Freeze you while you have a dream of your choice. For hundreds of years .