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Freesan
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- Jul 3, 2018
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House?How will you pay for your food, movies etc.?
this. I'd rather die than be in a half assed coma the rest of my life. I can't stand not having the will to live. I don't enjoy anything anymore. To sleep all day and then wake up knowing I have no life is too much to bare.I would rather just kill myself.
yes, i've been living from my bed for years. i even use fans to create as much white noise as possible, blocking most everything out. i've been doing it so long 20+ hrs a day 7 days a week it's normal for me now.This is a new idea I am thinking about... What if I drug myself to sleep everyday? I could sleep for 18 hours or more in a broken car (big so you have enough space to be comfortable), wake up just to eat something and watch the years pass by. If I get to 67, they will give me the minimum amount they give to the elderly (about 400 euro / month). In the meanwhile, I will watch movies, videos, read books, listen to music, be on the Internet... with an Ipad or something like that. The idea is to watch your life pass by until you feel like you have seen enough technology, news, and all you want to see. You would eat just enough to be full.
You may be thinking "but life is not worth living that way". Yes well, nowadays I prefer to sleep all day instead of playing videogames with my rig or do something else, so to me the only issue would be to be comfortable.
Does this make any sense?
please share, what are some of these jobs?I have had jobs where I make enough to live comfortable in my own house and mainly just played video games and slept during work and was told how great of a job I am doing. You should research and come up with a plan. All jobs are not jobs you would hate.
Lucky you, I guess. They are giving you money. My parents get 1200 € free each year for taking care of me and that's about it (33 % dissability here). University is also free but why would I even bother at this point. I hope they never stop giving you that money, live a happier life.That's essentially what I do, though usually with a little less sleep than 18 hours - more like 15. Last week I had 3 days with nothing to do so I kept taking more and more sleeping meds, painkillers, and muscle relaxers and ended up sleeping for about 60 hours. Oof. Not nearly enough to OD on (I have quite a tolerance to my usual meds) but enough to knock me out. I just wasn't ready to do ANYTHING, not even my MMORPG-lite on my phone (book of heroes, if anyone wants to play pm me your email and I'll invite you we both get rewards that way. It's fun. But I haven't had the energy to even look at my phone in the past 2 weeks for longer than a few mins. Not even World of Warcraft. Just ugh. Too much.
I'm a little better energy wise though tomorrow will be similar - my days seems to go like that if I have no reason to leave my apt. I don't have any appointments tomorrow (tuesday) though I do have a rehearsal (I play trumpet in an LGBT concert band) at 7PM if I can stay awake that long. That's like...bedtime for me normally haha. Tomorrow I'll probably get up around 1 and if I have the energy try and play on one of my toons on WoW.
But yeah, I'm on SSI. I receive $750 a month from social security (US) for disability, and have no other income (though am looking into online captioning if I can get the energy). So no work to drag me out of bed. I finished school (pointlessly since I don't work, now just have the loans yippee! but I have an MSW (master's in social work).
This is a new idea I am thinking about... What if I drug myself to sleep everyday? I could sleep for 18 hours or more in a broken car (big so you have enough space to be comfortable), wake up just to eat something and watch the years pass by. If I get to 67, they will give me the minimum amount they give to the elderly (about 400 euro / month). In the meanwhile, I will watch movies, videos, read books, listen to music, be on the Internet... with an Ipad or something like that. The idea is to watch your life pass by until you feel like you have seen enough technology, news, and all you want to see. You would eat just enough to be full.
You may be thinking "but life is not worth living that way". Yes well, nowadays I prefer to sleep all day instead of playing videogames with my rig or do something else, so to me the only issue would be to be comfortable.
Does this make any sense?
I never was able to get high no matter how much kush I smoked.kush vodka couch stuck forever
I never was able to get high no matter how much kush I smoked.
i have no idea. I've done it about 5 different times. Ive wanted to try edibles though.maybe you were deficient in cbd
i have no idea. I've done it about 5 different times. Ive wanted to try edibles though.
Me too. I hardly get to relax anymore, when I sleep I have to wake up and am forced to face reality. Anyway using sleeping pills for that long will probably do you in, in the end. I mean taking them everyday is bound to have a slow effect on your body. Probably lead to some sort of failure later in life.I would rather just kill myself.
God, you till live with your family? What I wouldn't give to be with my family again. Can't turn back time now, alone and I have a roof over my head, but it's stressful, and I can't hack life. Homelessness is always on my mind, it's like if I was homeless, would it be easier to die? Because then you have really nothing to live for.I think this is what I am going to start doing from now on. My usual day is really long and I am suicidal because of it, so my only option is to sleep 16 -20 hours / day to spend days quickly. Now I am looking for the right medication to use, do you guys have any ideas? (I am not homeless, I am still living with my parents just like always).
I love this idea and hope I could do it. But unfortunately is not realistic. And no human can sleep 18 hours every day. And even worse in my case with my sleeping problems.
I think in our country (we are both spanish) you have to work a x amount of years for getting this money. So it won't work.
Bad thing because the idea sounds very good.
i cant sleep longer than 4h for over 2 years now
one of the reason why i strongly consider to end it
I think I want to find a company like on Vanilla Sky LE. Life Extension. Bio Freeze you while you have a dream of your choice. For hundreds of years .Enh, as far as I'm concerned, sleep isn't all it's cracked up to be. It's certainly superior to being awake, but that's about it. Being a slightly better alternative isn't really saying much. In my case, the whole act of sleep wearies me just as much as any other part of life. The always painfully dull experience of laying in my bed waiting to fall unconscious, the odd nightmare or annoying bout of sleep paralysis, the absolute shittiness of waking up, the intense, groggy, bag faced feeling of even short naps (etc.). Just another boring song & dance and I'm all so tired of it. To me sleep is ultimately just a crappier "free-trial" version of death and I'd much rather opt for the latter (assuming I finally could, that is).
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