Venting sister beat me for mentioning suicide

[iammadeofchalk]

Ok so I'm not suicidal anymore, I'm still mentally unwell so sometimes the thoughts come but it's more ideation which has been like that forever but anyway, because i'm a neet my family is rightfully curious about what I'm doing all the time on my devices. I'm scrolling, looking though interesting articles, videos, listening to music, talking to people. But anytime I've said any of that it becomes the sole thing they seem to think I'm doing. So I just say I'm doing nothing. Today I don't know what got into me, my sister was being annoying again with her lecture about my future and constantly asking what I'm doing on my phone. I blurted out without thinking that I'm looking up methods to kms and she went batshit crazy, making a scar on my mouth. My family is not abusive, and I've fought with her before but this was just crazy to me. I share room with her, really want to get out of here

 

[Mgelanie]

Ok so I'm not suicidal anymore, I'm still mentally unwell so sometimes the thoughts come but it's more ideation which has been like that forever but anyway, because i'm a neet my family is rightfully curious about what I'm doing all the time on my devices. I'm scrolling, looking though interesting articles, videos, listening to music, talking to people. But anytime I've said any of that it becomes the sole thing they seem to think I'm doing. So I just say I'm doing nothing. Today I don't know what got into me, my sister was being annoying again with her lecture about my future and constantly asking what I'm doing on my phone. I blurted out without thinking that I'm looking up methods to kms and she went batshit crazy, making a scar on my mouth. My family is not abusive, and I've fought with her before but this was just crazy to me. I share room with her, really want to get out of here

She did that instead of showing kindness and support

 

[alwayspissedoff]

I wanna say similar situation? but not really... they don't know that I wanna ctb, but they know that I drink and are suspicious that I sh. they offer me help in such a way that... I don't want it. it does not help. it feels unnatural, artificial. they should just leave me to die. it's clear they cannot help me. nothing can.

I am so sorry that happened to you.