Sick, alone, no one cares

[copioushopelessness]

I typed out a rant then deleted it. My severe illness is taking over. I look as dead as I feel. My life has always been hard. The last decade has been hell but the last year everything has changed... this is my first post.. maybe I'll find the words, maybe I'll type out this shit again, but who cares...

Anyone else severely ill? Anyone else completely alone?

 

[TBONTB]

I typed out a rant then deleted it. My severe illness is taking over. I look as dead as I feel. My life has always been hard. The last decade has been hell but the last year everything has changed... this is my first post.. maybe I'll find the words, maybe I'll type out this shit again, but who cares...

Anyone else severely ill? Anyone else completely alone?

My problems are different. I do care about yours.

 

[copioushopelessness]

My problems are different. I do care about yours.

My problems are different. I do care about yours.

I can sort of relate to your problems.
Before my dad's cancer took over we were flipping houses. As time went on he had assets that became too much to fix and he sat on properties that needed too much work. Then of course we lost everything due to unpaid taxes. He took what he had left and moved closer to family who could care for him in his final moments. We lost our home. Both homes actually, the one I grew up in and the one I was renting from him. I had to move into a shitty apartment. I recently had to move again as the new landlord wanted too much for it without even fixing the problems with the place. To an even dumpier place. It's crazy what rent for these old buildings are.. Its hard adjusting, I lived there for years. Now I'm on a third floor when I was on the first. Getting up and down the stairs is hard being as weak as I am. My finances dwindled, my health declined more, I had to get on disability years ago which obviously doesn't cover the cost of living. I don't know what country you're from but I understand being upset with how this country is run and the tanking economy.
As far as me being ill, yeah that happened to me at a much younger age than most but the fear of aging and becoming ill with a broken healthcare system I imagine is scary for everyone. I guess "normal" people don't think that much about it until the time comes but unfortunately I was dealt this hand many years ago. I'm suprised I even lived past the age of one. I spent my infancy in the hospital where I beat meningitis, got my hearing back. In my teen years I was gaslit by doctors and family, called a hypochondriac. I found out in my early twenties that my disease had already progressed to a severe state. They finally did the proper testing.
I lost my mother who also dealt with autoimmune disease to a heart attack. My sister is also very ill with autoimmune diseases and cancer. It's genetic. I did genetic testing.
There's only two guarantees in this world. Taxes and death.

I can sort of relate to your problems.
Before my dad's cancer took over we were flipping houses. As time went on he had assets that became too much to fix and he sat on properties that needed too much work. Then of course we lost everything due to unpaid taxes. He took what he had left and moved closer to family who could care for him in his final moments. We lost our home. Both homes actually, the one I grew up in and the one I was renting from him. I had to move into a shitty apartment. I recently had to move again as the new landlord wanted too much for it without even fixing the problems with the place. To an even dumpier place. It's crazy what rent for these old buildings are.. Its hard adjusting, I lived there for years. Now I'm on a third floor when I was on the first. Getting up and down the stairs is hard being as weak as I am. My finances dwindled, my health declined more, I had to get on disability years ago which obviously doesn't cover the cost of living. I don't know what country you're from but I understand being upset with how this country is run and the tanking economy.
As far as me being ill, yeah that happened to me at a much younger age than most but the fear of aging and becoming ill with a broken healthcare system I imagine is scary for everyone. I guess "normal" people don't think that much about it until the time comes but unfortunately I was dealt this hand many years ago. I'm suprised I even lived past the age of one. I spent my infancy in the hospital where I beat meningitis, got my hearing back. In my teen years I was gaslit by doctors and family, called a hypochondriac. I found out in my early twenties that my disease had already progressed to a severe state. They finally did the proper testing.
I lost my mother who also dealt with autoimmune disease to a heart attack. My sister is also very ill with autoimmune diseases and cancer. It's genetic. I did genetic testing.
There's only two guarantees in this world. Taxes and death.

My problems are different. I do care about yours.

Thank you for caring. Sometimes strangers are more kind..

 

[Wrath]

I'm not physically ill, but I am completely alone. I relate to deleting posts before posting them. Many times I have read my posts and realize I come off too strong. I'm afraid of having my own opinions about things. I hope you find courage to rant, even if it is embarrassing. No one knows who you are here, and many may relate to your rant. I hope you can squeeze a little more joy out of this world.

 

[littleearthquakes]

I'm seriously ill with an autoimmune arthritis condition that was misdiagnosed and dismissed for decades. I've lost most function and quality of life over time and dramatically over the last several years. It's horrific and unfair and I'm sorry you can relate. My DMs are open if you want someone to talk to.

 

[Pale_Rider]

I can relate on many levels. I just can't put it all into words presently. This is a good place to let stuff out I have learned. I've written stuff here I've never said out loud, and yes I've deleted messages too.