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[bnkshawty]

ive been oversexualized by others and myself since a very young age ive "Developed" hips and gained attraction from boys and grown ahh men this alone isnt what fuckedf me up sm in life it was also the religion and culture i came from that raised me to feel ashamed of myself when i want to enhance my attraction not cz its a sin but rather cz men cant be controlled. ive dealt with male harrassment sm my entire life especially in the country im in rn for "vacation" i went to a kids amusment park and a worker grabbed my tits while Fastening my seatbelt for me and the void in me dug so much deeper. ive gotten so fucked in my brain to the point now when i do my makeup and hair and try to get cute i feel like a fucking ugly ogre even when my surroundings call me attractive i feel disgusting i js want to cut myself and rot in my bed idk whats wrong w me that has led me to this point i have no identity im not real ts im js rambling thots rn i dont rlly have no one to talk 2 about these thots js deadass going crazy ts. i dont feel attractive i feel like a pig. i hate harassments from grown men and my family basically calling me a hoe i rmemeber one time i discussed tis topic w my dad and mom how in the place im at rn men bother me on the streets my dad had said "its like how flies are attracted to trash" which i couldnt even forget ever is that what i am fr js shit lamolmaolmaolmao i feel so overstimulated rn i think i hate being percieved i js want to be a angel far away from the earth and not be percieved js enjoying my own pure existence
oh and i got back w my ex lmao #thirdtimesacharm

 

[loser4ever4life]

I'm so sorry that's happening to you, that's really disgusting behaviour from all these men and I'm sorry your parents aren't taking your back on this issue. I'm a man and I'm not sure if I'm the best equipped to give you advice but know that this isn't your fault and I hope you get some help, im not sure what country you're in but I hope you find the resources necessary.

 

[AllWentWrong]

I've found that people bother you when you are attractive and look vulnerable.

However, you can be invisible to them too. Fat people, ugly people, and sick people are always treated like they are invisible. Play around with makeup to look sickly, wear clothes that don't fit right. Read up a little on how to look butch. (Binders specifically)Hetero men won't bother you if they think you are a boy.
If you're out in the street put on a performance. They don't have to know the real you.

Save your looking cute time when you are around people you trust. Have a disguise for other times. I'm writing all this because Ive seen people put on this chameleon act and it shocked me.

 

[bnkshawty]

I've found that people bother you when you are attractive and look vulnerable.

However, you can be invisible to them too. Fat people, ugly people, and sick people are always treated like they are invisible. Play around with makeup to look sickly, wear clothes that don't fit right. Read up a little on how to look butch. (Binders specifically)Hetero men won't bother you if they think you are a boy.
If you're out in the street put on a performance. They don't have to know the real you.

Save your looking cute time when you are around people you trust. Have a disguise for other times. I'm writing all this because Ive seen people put on this chameleon act and it shocked me.

feel like i lost my indentity completely and gave up fully

I've found that people bother you when you are attractive and look vulnerable.

However, you can be invisible to them too. Fat people, ugly people, and sick people are always treated like they are invisible. Play around with makeup to look sickly, wear clothes that don't fit right. Read up a little on how to look butch. (Binders specifically)Hetero men won't bother you if they think you are a boy.
If you're out in the street put on a performance. They don't have to know the real you.

Save your looking cute time when you are around people you trust. Have a disguise for other times. I'm writing all this because Ive seen people put on this chameleon act and it shocked me.

I'm so sorry that's happening to you, that's really disgusting behaviour from all these men and I'm sorry your parents aren't taking your back on this issue. I'm a man and I'm not sure if I'm the best equipped to give you advice but know that this isn't your fault and I hope you get some help, im not sure what country you're in but I hope you find the resources necessary.

u guyz r so kewl

 

[composingthefuture]

dude people, especially men usually, are the WORSTTUUH its terrible that that your family doesnt have your side, also i hope ur partner treats you well because you deserve that ALSO at a kids amusement park is crazy that person needs to get fired and their hard drives checked

 

[bnkshawty]

dude people, especially men usually, are the WORSTTUUH its terrible that that your family doesnt have your side, also i hope ur partner treats you well because you deserve that ALSO at a kids amusement park is crazy that person needs to get fired and their hard drives checked

he takes advantage of me sm but i feel like i deserve it

 

[composingthefuture]

he takes advantage of me sm but i feel like i deserve it

i know it might seem like something you should tolerate considering everyone else in your life sucks just as much as him, and the wordsof a person on an online forum probably wont be able to convince you you deserve better (which you totally do, nobody deserves to be taken advantage of in any sense of the word) but i hope youll be able to find somebody good for you even if people who arent total assholes sounds really rare wherever youre at, i know i dont really know anything about your relationship and that no matter how bad someones partner treats them, its hard to get rid of that attachment, so just know that im 100% rooting for you and hope your future relationships both platonic and romantic get better also nuking that park, the houses of th men who have harassed you, and the houses of those who were able to help and support you but didnt, because all the people you talk about show such disgusting behavior myjaw legit DROPPED when i read the post like how are these people so comfortable acting like the actual worst?? also if its you in your pfp, youre really pretty like i had to reverse search before typing that HOLY YAPPATHON IM SO SORRY

 

[bnkshawty]

i know it might seem like something you should tolerate considering everyone else in your life sucks just as much as him, and the wordsof a person on an online forum probably wont be able to convince you you deserve better (which you totally do, nobody deserves to be taken advantage of in any sense of the word) but i hope youll be able to find somebody good for you even if people who arent total assholes sounds really rare wherever youre at, i know i dont really know anything about your relationship and that no matter how bad someones partner treats them, its hard to get rid of that attachment, so just know that im 100% rooting for you and hope your future relationships both platonic and romantic get better also nuking that park, the houses of th men who have harassed you, and the houses of those who were able to help and support you but didnt, because all the people you talk about show such disgusting behavior myjaw legit DROPPED when i read the post like how are these people so comfortable acting like the actual worst?? also if its you in your pfp, youre really pretty like i had to reverse search before typing that HOLY YAPPATHON IM SO SORRY

i have borderline and he knos that got diagnosed w it pretty early in life, he was my fp for about 2 yrs almost and he doesnt rlly take my needs seriously for attention but he will do js enough to string me on, most recent thing he did was get jealous when i spoke about my SA experience and basc made me feel stupid 4 talking about it to him even tho he asked but i feel like i dont deserve better, i feel like i deserve to be hurt also thank u sm :3

 

[composingthefuture]

i have borderline and he knos that got diagnosed w it pretty early in life, he was my fp for about 2 yrs almost and he doesnt rlly take my needs seriously for attention but he will do js enough to string me on, most recent thing he did was get jealous when i spoke about my SA experience and basc made me feel stupid 4 talking about it to him even tho he asked but i feel like i dont deserve better, i feel like i deserve to be hurt also thank u sm :3

yww ^_^ adding him to the nuke list, getting jealous over touch you didnt even want is diabolical did he crawl out of a pit in hell or something

 

[bnkshawty]

yww ^_^ adding him to the nuke list, getting jealous over touch you didnt even want is diabolical did he crawl out of a pit in hell or something

omg he js starting like being weird....he was atangonising how i spoke about it i was laughing out of discomfort and he said it was weird i laughed i laugh so i can make i seem less serious cz i fear the response i get being tm 4 me