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[irregularreconcile]

Hi Everyone, just thought I'd ramble for a bit.

Today has been both quite positive and negative. As seen in the title, I took a shower, which was hard but quite good for me, since I smelled like shit, lol.

I did, however, relapse with SH and now I'm quite frozen. I wanted to clean my friend's house since I'm staying here and surprise them, but I feel very disconnected at the moment. Funnily enough, I don't know whether to post on the Recovery board [Here] or the Suicide board, because I still feel like I'll never get better, but I'm really trying. It just feels hopeless. Most of me knows it is, and my recovery is in vain, but I am trying day to day.

Today, I've just been listening to sad music since my friend left. It's what is offering me some comfort right now. Lots of old coldplay, lol.

I'll try to unfreeze and clean soon. I'm hoping to get some art done today and hopefully surprise my friend before they get home.

Hope you all are doing well today, or as well as possible

 

[just_so_done]

A huge congrats on the shower! I know how hard that can be and while others see it as a normal regular thing, for others it is a huge task that requires energy and motivation when at least for me i have none so i know how big a win that it!

As for SH, relapsing can feel like shit but it also reminds us we're human. And the fact that you continue to try day to day shows your strength and resiliency. I think making some art is a great idea and I'm sure your friend will appreciate it. Enjoy listening to coldplay!

 

[irregularreconcile]

A huge congrats on the shower! I know how hard that can be and while others see it as a normal regular thing, for others it is a huge task that requires energy and motivation when at least for me i have none so i know how big a win that it!

As for SH, relapsing can feel like shit but it also reminds us we're human. And the fact that you continue to try day to day shows your strength and resiliency. I think making some art is a great idea and I'm sure your friend will appreciate it. Enjoy listening to coldplay!

thank you so, so much for your kind words; i really needed this