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- Feb 13, 2020
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My age is 25
I live in India where is biggest exam is IAS
I had relationship with girl for 6year
Last 1 and half year I did not talk to her because she was preparing for that exam and we had little fight over some reason
I think it is true love ...so usually send her message every consecutive days and waiting for her reply more than a year ...never approached her another way becz I don't want to disturb her ....we decided to get married after clearing her exam ...but one month before I get to know that she is dating another guy ..in this time period I never cheated with her ...loyal to her ...but regret killing me ..
Why didn't I approached her ..talk to her ...call her ...I lost her ....she is everything for me ...I can't imagine my life without her ...I lost my job recently ,...can't find reason to live ...everytime I think its true love she will come back ..because of my mistake I lost her ...come in relationship with another girl but nothing changed ...I brkup with her ... memories killing me ...regret killing me ...the only thing is in my mind ...why i am alive ,, what is purpose of my life ,..only suffer ,,..day be day things getting worse
I gathered all Material that are needed for sn suicide ..
Still confused should I doing right ?
More than a month nothing changed everything getting worse day by day
I know this most foolish reason for sucide for a girl ...but I have no reason ..
I feel so useless ...I don't love money ...I don't want luxurious life ..don't know what was I am doing ...
Before suicide I decided to donate organ something that can help poor
I live in India where is biggest exam is IAS
I had relationship with girl for 6year
Last 1 and half year I did not talk to her because she was preparing for that exam and we had little fight over some reason
I think it is true love ...so usually send her message every consecutive days and waiting for her reply more than a year ...never approached her another way becz I don't want to disturb her ....we decided to get married after clearing her exam ...but one month before I get to know that she is dating another guy ..in this time period I never cheated with her ...loyal to her ...but regret killing me ..
Why didn't I approached her ..talk to her ...call her ...I lost her ....she is everything for me ...I can't imagine my life without her ...I lost my job recently ,...can't find reason to live ...everytime I think its true love she will come back ..because of my mistake I lost her ...come in relationship with another girl but nothing changed ...I brkup with her ... memories killing me ...regret killing me ...the only thing is in my mind ...why i am alive ,, what is purpose of my life ,..only suffer ,,..day be day things getting worse
I gathered all Material that are needed for sn suicide ..
Still confused should I doing right ?
More than a month nothing changed everything getting worse day by day
I know this most foolish reason for sucide for a girl ...but I have no reason ..
I feel so useless ...I don't love money ...I don't want luxurious life ..don't know what was I am doing ...
Before suicide I decided to donate organ something that can help poor
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