I don't think it's anyone's place to tell you whether you should take your meds, or to not take your meds in the same way no one can/will tell you that you should kill yourself, or not. I think you need to honestly weigh everything in your life, whether you believe things are going OK for you, whether things could be better for you in the future, whether you're having your needs met, whether you are or could be happy, whether you're getting any joy out of living at all, whether there are things you might still want to do, even whether you're OK with your how your death might affect others. I'm not saying you should live for anyone, necessarily, the same way I'd never say you should kill yourself over someone else. I'm just saying to be honest with yourself and decide what's important to you. No one can know that answer for you except you. Do you still have hope? Do you still have life left in you? Those are important questions and dying is serious business - about as serious as it gets. It deserves some real introspection.
BTW, welcome to SaSu. Hope you can find, at least, some of the answers you seek while you're here.
