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bambibambam

bambibambam

𑄻𑄾 i’m on your side..!!
Jan 29, 2024
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hi guys. i ordered some meto through an online pharmacy that's based in germany. i placed this order over two weeks ago, only got a tracking number 2-3 ish days ago and my package got accepted but there hasn't been any updates since april 22nd. at first it was expected to arrive around may 2nd-7th but now it was changed to the 14th. i'm scared that my meto is stuck in transit and i don't want to wait any longer…it feels so suffocating waking up every day knowing there's 50g of SN in my closet and i can't ctb yet because i'm scared i'll be unsuccessful without an AE. i feel so frustrated to the point where i'm considering to just raw dog it without an AE and only use a pain killer + antacid but i know this might be a bad idea.
 
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halleyscomet

halley
Mar 26, 2024
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You have all the time in the world to cbt, don't risk ending up a vegetable or seriously injured just to get it done quicker.

I know it's hard, but there is plenty of time and there is no need to rush into things.

I hope you find the peace you're searching for.
 
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Mi Mi

No One Special
Mar 18, 2024
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hi guys. i ordered some meto through an online pharmacy that's based in germany. i placed this order over two weeks ago, only got a tracking number 2-3 ish days ago and my package got accepted but there hasn't been any updates since april 22nd. at first it was expected to arrive around may 2nd-7th but now it was changed to the 14th. i'm scared that my meto is stuck in transit and i don't want to wait any longer…it feels so suffocating waking up every day knowing there's 50g of SN in my closet and i can't ctb yet because i'm scared i'll be unsuccessful without an AE. i feel so frustrated to the point where i'm considering to just raw dog it without an AE and only use a pain killer + antacid but i know this might be a bad idea.
I'm going through this somewhat
I haven't looked into meto
I'm only considering maybe taking something for nausea
I keep going back and forth
But I try to remember according to the SN Bible thread it repeatedly says SN is the main component
Keep it simple
Everyone is different and we can't guarantee anything
I would say try not to rush it
Plan accordingly
If you decide to just go the SN route
Dosage according to weight is key
Just accept what is
And with SN you can always try again
Best wishes 💜
 
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locked*n*loaded

locked*n*loaded

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Apr 15, 2022
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I'd try and wait it out a bit if you can. Might as well give yourself the best shot at success.
 
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homesoon.

homesoon.

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Apr 15, 2024
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hi guys. i ordered some meto through an online pharmacy that's based in germany. i placed this order over two weeks ago, only got a tracking number 2-3 ish days ago and my package got accepted but there hasn't been any updates since april 22nd. at first it was expected to arrive around may 2nd-7th but now it was changed to the 14th. i'm scared that my meto is stuck in transit and i don't want to wait any longer…it feels so suffocating waking up every day knowing there's 50g of SN in my closet and i can't ctb yet because i'm scared i'll be unsuccessful without an AE. i feel so frustrated to the point where i'm considering to just raw dog it without an AE and only use a pain killer + antacid but i know this might be a bad idea.
I completely understand. I have a kit consisting of 100g of SN, antacid, painkillers, and a mortar and pestle so far. After I pay bills (cause, ya know, I'm still alive), I plan on acquiring the rest of what I can through an online pharmacy (such as meto). There has been success stories of people just raw dogging SN, but I would rather make it as comfortable as absolutely possible. No point in putting myself through more pain and suffering if I don't have too. SN, especially if you haven't messed with it, has a pretty long shelf life; so, don't rush it.
 
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PINKIESISU

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Apr 21, 2024
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hi guys. i ordered some meto through an online pharmacy that's based in germany. i placed this order over two weeks ago, only got a tracking number 2-3 ish days ago and my package got accepted but there hasn't been any updates since april 22nd. at first it was expected to arrive around may 2nd-7th but now it was changed to the 14th. i'm scared that my meto is stuck in transit and i don't want to wait any longer…it feels so suffocating waking up every day knowing there's 50g of SN in my closet and i can't ctb yet because i'm scared i'll be unsuccessful without an AE. i feel so frustrated to the point where i'm considering to just raw dog it without an AE and only use a pain killer + antacid but i know this might be a bad idea.
What is CBT God I hate this abbreviation talk
 
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Mar 12, 2024
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What is CBT God I hate this abbreviation talk
Well, CBT is either cognitive behavioural therapy or cock'n'ball torture, depends who you ask...

CTB on the other hand is "catch the bus"*, a common euphemism on here for the act of suicide.

* or any of the many other creative expansions people on here have come up with: cease to breathe etc.
 
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Dopamine_Junkie44

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Nov 12, 2023
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I always read it as "cease to be"...
 
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bebeblu

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May 20, 2024
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I find it incredible that here in Aus, my GP hands out meto px like lollies every time I see him with a migraine but I can't get SN to help myself.
 
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rozeske

Maybe I am the problem
Dec 2, 2023
4,223
@bambibambam I wonder whatever happened to you. In any case I hope you have managed to find peace ❤️
 
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