Should I go inpatient before my attempt?

[Lucifer’s Son]

I don't really know why I'm asking this. My number of inpatient stays is somewhere in the 30s, so I know everything there is to know as to what it's like and all that. But now that I've ordered SN, part of me wants an inpatient stay as a sort of last-ditch attempt to turn things around. The hours of just doing nothing are of course boring as fuck, but maybe something will happen in there, like a conversation with someone or a different medicine, that will steer me onto the course of recovery. And maybe I can also use the time to contemplate and meditate on whether or not I'm serious about this, because this is going to be the most lethal attempt I've ever done. My biggest motivation for staying alive is being able to see the third season of hazbin hotel. My dad will also see that I did *try* to get help first if I do die. Thoughts?

 

[peacebenow]

you are still looking for ways to help yourself live out your life and taking action by going inpatient sounds really smart. be good to yourself.

 

[SASU-KE]

Try it dude, do your best till the end.I hope you can exhaust every option before anything else.

 

[Lucifer’s Son]

Try it dude, do your best till the end.I hope you can exhaust every option before anything else.

I requested ketamine or TMS at one hospital (it's an academic one), but they refused because they said it wouldn't do anything and that I need therapy instead. It's really fucking shitty if I'm unable to access something that *could* help me, because I can't afford to pay out of pocket, but oh well I guess.

 

[Meretlein]

The fact that you are thinking about it shows that you want to do it. Make your last ditch effort, it will be so much better to make it than not. If it works, great. If it doesn't, you will have more peace.

 

[LastNite]

I requested ketamine or TMS at one hospital (it's an academic one), but they refused because they said it wouldn't do anything and that I need therapy instead. It's really fucking shitty if I'm unable to access something that *could* help me, because I can't afford to pay out of pocket, but oh well I guess.

Which country? Im from the U.S I went to therapy and had a psychiatrist. I tried plenty of meds until we had no more options, my psychiatrist then suggested Ketamine because we went through a lot of meds and none worked. That made me basically qualify for that treatment. If you follow the same path then they'll probably do the same. I didnt take the treatment at the time but it was on the table for me so yuh. Good luck.

 

[Lucifer’s Son]

Which country? Im from the U.S I went to therapy and had a psychiatrist. I tried plenty of meds until we had no more options, my psychiatrist then suggested Ketamine because we went through a lot of meds and none worked. That made me basically qualify for that treatment. If you follow the same path then they'll probably do the same. I didnt take the treatment at the time but it was on the table for me so yuh. Good luck.

The US.
I'm 31 and I've been on meds since age 12, so I've definitely tried a few.

 

[LastNite]

The US.
I'm 31 and I've been on meds since age 12, so I've definitely tried a few.

If you tried a few and they didn't work then I don't see why not. If you get a psychiatrist and tell her or him about it and how you are considering Ketamine therapy or TMS because you've exhausted all efforts and nothing worked then they might refer you to a place where you'll get it done. Also, they might prescribe you something just to see. Im not entirely sure. All experiences are different, I would say I tried around 8-10 medications before she ever suggested ketamine. I don't have perfect memory sorry. I wish you luck.

 

[PerfectVictory]

I requested ketamine or TMS at one hospital (it's an academic one), but they refused because they said it wouldn't do anything and that I need therapy instead. It's really fucking shitty if I'm unable to access something that *could* help me, because I can't afford to pay out of pocket, but oh well I guess.

I've done ketamine as well as TMS to no avail (and an MAOI and psychedelics) right now my last ditch effort is keto it has exciting emerging research for severe mental illness I am hopeful and that hope is keeping me here.
btw have you considered just buying the ketamine without a doctor? there are also a bunch of telehealth places that will rx it to just about anyone I'm not sure if I can mention the name here though.

 

[flowersforalgernons]

nothing helpful just that i thought about the third season of hazbin today too as motivation to stay alive

ive thought about going inpatient but idk what the point would be i dont think it would fix whats wrong with me

 

[Lucifer’s Son]

nothing helpful just that i thought about the third season of hazbin today too as motivation to stay alive

ive thought about going inpatient but idk what the point would be i dont think it would fix whats wrong with me

Fellow hazbin fan!!! :D

Sometimes the stays help me in the sense that I'm in an almost entirely empty box, without access to the internet and social media, and it gives me the space to think about my situation rationally and I can't go down the rabbit holes and loops of material that triggers my depression. It's definitely not enjoyable, but there have been times where it was helpful in that way.

 

[Awesomefoid67]

I don't really know why I'm asking this. My number of inpatient stays is somewhere in the 30s, so I know everything there is to know as to what it's like and all that. But now that I've ordered SN, part of me wants an inpatient stay as a sort of last-ditch attempt to turn things around. The hours of just doing nothing are of course boring as fuck, but maybe something will happen in there, like a conversation with someone or a different medicine, that will steer me onto the course of recovery. And maybe I can also use the time to contemplate and meditate on whether or not I'm serious about this, because this is going to be the most lethal attempt I've ever done. My biggest motivation for staying alive is being able to see the third season of hazbin hotel. My dad will also see that I did *try* to get help first if I do die. Thoughts?

it's worth a try tbh. i tried it as a last ditch effort and it kinda helped a bit but i crashed like even harder when i got out but like i got in contact with a good group who is like helping me actually get the care i need and advocating for me and stuff and it got me like put on a different pathway cus i'd been waiting for therapy for like a year (and theres potentially another year on the waiting list)
even if it ends up not helping theres no harm in trying

 

[Musiclover338]

I mean i ordered SN, never used it, Actually ordered it twice in case i had a bad batch.

Never used it tho its been about a year or two now.... Dont really have plans on using it anymore, its just if things get worst Which surprisingly ive gotten better since then. Ive attempted with alcohol and benzo overdose and it messed me up real bad. BUT i think im getting better now... i hope

Also never been to a inpatient because personally i need my phone and tv, i hate being told what to do when to do it and how to do it.

literally your choice if u feel it helps you.