Venting Shitty life

[_Maya]

i think my depressive spiral started 2 years ago when my grandma died, She was one of the only other people in my family apart for my grandpa to genuinely make me feel loved and happy, i have more fond memories with her than any of my other family members. Since then, life's just felt really empty. I try to distract myself with games and taking care of my pets, but i always just feel shitty. i have so many different issues from having parental issues, having nobody i can trust, body dysmorphia, Being closeted, etc. Especially recently i think things have gotten worse, my entire friend group has basically ghosted me, still messaging me occasionally, but never inviting me to play games together with them anymore. I still hear them play with my sister on vc which always ruins my mood no matter how happy i feel.
I honestly have so much on my mind its hard to explain coherently, so please excuse me if this seems confusing.
Does anyone else relate?

 

[WeakWeave]

I can relate to a lot of the things that you're talking about as I had a few similar things happen to me. I took it as a learning opportunity to try and improve myself, talk to new people, go to the gym, etc. As human beings we are naturally good at adapting to situations, and what once seemed impossible to continue through doesn't seem that bad. Now this advice might not be the best for you, but it was something that really helped me get out of a depressive spiral. Sometimes we have to be at our lowest to get enough motivation to improve for the better.

 

[Gstreater]

I understand how you feel completely, I broke off from a friend group because of a lot of reasons. It hurt and I would see them in vc frequently. It took a while but I ended up making new friends, friends that actually give a damn about me. It'll be hard but build yourself up. Try and meet new people when you're ready.