Share your reasons to die in summary, method, are you ready, and time

[idelttoilfsadness21]

I was 5, I hated the world, it fucking sucks, I came to realize at 14 I was trapped, I delt with abuse for years, no one believed me, I hate it here, I'm gonna be dead knowing this world is boring and I can't be anymore glad actually I delt with abuse to wake me up and not be delusional, I don't care to be driven by this world any longer, I'm using SN, yes I am and I have to, perhaps in the summer

 

[_Maya]

Since childhood life's been pretty mediocre at best, and unbearably painful at worst. i got bullied a lot in school, parents neglected to love me, and much more i can't be bothered to list. in general life has just felt like a constant loop of pain that i can't escape, I've got more hurtful and sad memories than i do happy ones. I'm thinking maybe of doing hanging/asphyxiation, i've thought of SN but i haven't done much research on it yet.

 

[numb3r]

I was abused as a child, in many ways. I developed several mental illnesses that accumulated over time starting at around 11 years old. My life is a cycle of feeling a little bit better before sinking back into immense misery, or at best, mind gnawing boredom. Trying to think about going forward and contributing to a capitalist system and living as a part of society feels like torture. If I were to kill myself soon I would probably bleed myself out or poison myself. I'm not quite ready to die yet though, as I have my partner who would miss me greatly and who cares for me and wants me to get better. But the more time passes the harder it gets, and I know for sure I don't want to be alive 3 years from now

 

[F@#$]

Life is pointless. My existence is an irrelevant waste of resources.

 

[Valhala]

The loss of a loved one through one's own fault and the absolute loss of purpose and meaning. The method is most likely SN although I still haven't given up on the search for N.

 

[FuneralCry]

I wish to not exist as I have no interest in the futile and torturous burden of human existence, I'd always prefer to not exist no matter what, to me existence just feels like a mistake that causes suffering all for the sake of it and problems there were never a need for and I find it tragic how this existence was even imposed at all. For me non-existence is all that's desirable and is all I personally see as positive, I'd be so relieved to fall asleep permanently and never exist ever again, I see existence as something really harmful and cruel that causes endless amounts of suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, nothing would make me wish to be conscious suffering in this existence, I just want some peace instead.

I'm so tired of being enslaved in this existence I never would have wished for, to me existence itself is the true problem, I wish for non-existence to save me from all future suffering and solve everything for me which is why I suffer so much from how I cannot just have the option to simply cease existing in peace with suffering seen as to force and prolong instead. I wish I could just fall asleep permanently, the thought of being trapped in this pointless existence just to face the extreme agony and torture of old age is horrific to me, I personally see human existence as a tragedy, it's just terrible cruelty and suffering to me.

 

[sleepforever81]

No life anymore after surviving 2 major overdoses. Brain damage and all the other cognitive problems along eith it. Incontinent for the rest of my life, have to wear pads and nappies constantly only in my early 40s. Few weeks time I hope to be dead.

 

[tbh2023]

I was 5, I hated the world, it fucking sucks, I came to realize at 14 I was trapped, I delt with abuse for years, no one believed me, I hate it here, I'm gonna be dead knowing this world is boring and I can't be anymore glad actually I delt with abuse to wake me up and not be delusional, I don't care to be driven by this world any longer, I'm using SN, yes I am and I have to, perhaps in the summer

I'm so sorry you dealth with abuse. What a cruel world.

I had sn but I throw it in the trash. I didn't want my parents to see it, but it looks like I'm buying again. I will email dmc tonight. I can't find other methods so it's what it's.

I have great parents, great as they are not abusers. The Problem is with me. I have depression with severe sadness and isolation. I don't have motivation to do things. I'm like dead already. My family don't believe in mental illness. When they read about things like that in the news, they comment "the young generation can't handle life and they fake this nonsense illness, it's all in their head". So I don't talk to them about why I feel the way I feel. I honestly believe life is not for me. I just don't fit. My only friend died by suicide. He introduced me to this site and dmc. I miss him so much. I kind of feel guilty I'm still here. I know I won't be here for long. I'm thinking about March.

 

[3rdworldsadness]

From my childhood I was the most abused one out of everyone I saw, people discriminate me physically, mentally and socially. I was always the awkward quiet person, I feel like life was never for me and will never. I never talk freely how I feel. I'm don't feel I'm myself. I don't know who I am. Everything is confusing. I get constant shame because of my behaviour even people tease me that I have mental problem. Mental illness here seen as laughing stack. People can't be open minded nor they are helpful. They are close minded, and think like ancient people. My own mom is abuse and a disgusting human.. I sometimes starve cause I don't get the food, Im studying so i can get wage work thats how people survive here. Everything is doomed here. Life is just hopeless loop. I don't want to live like that, I don't know how I will survive.. suicide looks like a 1000x better open than anything else.

 

[Azlia]

I found i have blood clots on the brain and i already have keratokonus, fat liver even if not overweight and dysphoria to deal daily, i can't get a good job with my resume to pay for all treatments, i still enjoy some things in life besides all but blood clots are the last drop, they can make me insane or lose functions, i already started to have short memory loss or forgetting word structure. I want to leave with dignity instead of suffering blind. /I will use Digitoxin if i find a trusted seller or overdose on clonazepam under the sea while diving if i don't. / 1 year and a half approx when it gets real bad