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heroine

heroine

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Feb 4, 2025
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personally, even though my life is unbearably painful and very hard, my favorite fictional characters always cheer me up! I collect merch of them and commission art of them. they're my favorite things in the world!
 
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BooksIsAloneK

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Jul 8, 2026
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I have a memory from my first day in a new, very big, city. I stopped in a donut shop and was drinking a coffee with a donut and saw a man come in with a blind cane, he found his way next to me and I curiously observed him. At the end of his donut he found his way to the trash an and threw away his trash and he gave himself a small cheer and I saw happiness on his face.

I try to be more like him when I am conscious enough to think of it. It makes my problems seem so much simpler imagining his life, and yet he can find so much joy in a simple task like that when I feel nothing no matter what I am capable of.
 
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imagonner

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Aug 9, 2026
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my dog. i keep thinking of ctb and then i think whos going to take care of her when im gone? i took her hiking today and she was so happy, they way she looked at me, i thought how could i leave her? but then i think, shes just a dog, she wont realise im gone...im torn...
 
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bagel12

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Jul 7, 2026
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thank you for making this thread! i like seeing people's responses!

spending time outside in nature always makes me feel so much better. it makes me feel calmer, happier and more connected to the world.

trying new foods or beverages or watching new shows makes me happy too. it gives me something to look forward to.
my dog. i keep thinking of ctb and then i think whos going to take care of her when im gone? i took her hiking today and she was so happy, they way she looked at me, i thought how could i leave her? but then i think, shes just a dog, she wont realise im gone...im torn...
i totally understand this. my dog passed away, and one thing that made me not want to get another dog is that if my dog didn't get to sniff or see my body, they would think that i abandoned them, and they might wait for me to come back :( i think about dogs who spent years waiting for their dead owners all the time and it makes me cry whenever i think about it too long :(
 
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vanillacakeyyy

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Jul 8, 2026
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this is a little silly but discovering new things since this world can be so fascinating and talking to a certain person!! i get so happy when we get to chat with each other they tends to make me forget about any awful thoughts im experiencing in the exact moment and i get to be called special names!!! it's such an honor to have such a strong bond with a friend i feel like
 
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Jun 11, 2026
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personally, even though my life is unbearably painful and very hard, my favorite fictional characters always cheer me up! I collect merch of them and commission art of them. they're my favorite things in the world!
Might seem stupid, but finding and buying unique pieces of clothing does cheer me up a bit. Also my siblings, it's fun to watch them grow up
 
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singingcrow

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Jul 7, 2024
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i was going to say meeting someone from online but i don't think they care about me anymore so travel??
 
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throwawaygirl

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Dec 23, 2025
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My partner, who knows what Ive gone through and about my struggles with suicidal ideation and self harm but supports me anyways. They give me the motivation to keep trying, even if Im not doing well at it.
 
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NZkiwi

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Sep 17, 2019
312
personally, even though my life is unbearably painful and very hard, my favorite fictional characters always cheer me up! I collect merch of them and commission art of them. they're my favorite things in the world!
the ?delusion thst one day everything will be okay

ive started reallsed that waiting for evidence for my life is worth it to start living is an impossible standard

maybe i should live and see if along the way a reason to live comes up... idk
 
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bagel12

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Jul 7, 2026
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the ?delusion thst one day everything will be okay

ive started reallsed that waiting for evidence for my life is worth it to start living is an impossible standard

maybe i should live and see if along the way a reason to live comes up... idk
thank you for sharing, i like this mindset a lot and i will try this too
 
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infinitanocte

starlight & moondust
Jan 28, 2024
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the ?delusion thst one day everything will be okay

ive started reallsed that waiting for evidence for my life is worth it to start living is an impossible standard

maybe i should live and see if along the way a reason to live comes up... idk
Maybe it's not a delusion.
I feel you though, trying to find some standard or proof that life is worth living is like trying to prove unicorns exist. It can't be disproven, but you can always believe that they might exist somewhere, and always in your heart!

One thing that gives me hope is how desperately people cling to and try to connect to each other, even and especially in their hardest times. I think this site is a great example of the way we seek each other, again and again, and we want to hope, even after every time we trip and fall.
A more lighthearted thing is just the art my favorite artist makes and music, too :) I hope that creators know how dearly beloved they and their creations are!
 
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NZkiwi

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Sep 17, 2019
312
One thing that gives me hope is how desperately people cling to and try to connect to each other, even and especially in their hardest times. I think this site is a great example of the way we seek each other, again and again, and we want to hope, even after every time we trip and fall.
thank you i needed to hear this
 
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PeaceSeeker83

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Jul 23, 2026
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I am hoping that assisted suicide for mental illness becomes legal in Aussie land. Or for anybody who wants it.
 

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