Sexlessness is the primary reason I wanna die

[Sadbanana]

I don't give a shit how stupid this reason sounds. But desire for sex is one of the things I that have been programmed into my brain by evolution. It would be great if I didn't care about it, but I just can't control it.

Although what I hate even more is the fact that I'm not seen as worthy of sex. Like I'm not worthy to be anyone's partner.

I'm tired of porn. It's making me feel empty inside and I can't stop, because I'm addicted. Doesn't fulfill me at all, it's like trying to satisfy hunger by looking at pictures of food.

The reason I am here is to have a good life. To see full spectrum of human experience. And this garbage is just not worth my attention. I didn't consent to be born into an empty half-ass life. I don't care if there is any afterlife, this is just not worth it.

I know my parents are gonna be sad when I die. But to be honest, I kind of feel like it's not fair that I should keep living like this, just so others don't miss me.

And they are both clearly autistic, so if they kept their flawed genes to themselves and I wouldn't have to be born like a this.

 

[bpdwriter]

I hear you. I've never been in a relationship my whole life and I'm 27 lol. I've kissed and gone on dates, but that's about it. Unfortunately, I can't force myself to be "okay with just anyone". I just want to be liked back for once. Tired of being the 'ugly' friend in the group.

 

[Drogon]

Massage parlors will take care of that for you

 

[Sadbanana]

Massage parlors will take care of that for you

For me it just doesn't work. Not only I don't have money for it, but it just doesn't feel very fullfiling.

I want to feel attractive and wanted. This doesn't do it for me.

 

[Dejected 55]

No one understands how it isn't really or "just" about the sex. Just sex can be bought, sometimes it can be had easier than love... it isn't just easy, but it's easier.

Sex is neat and all... feels physically good... but empty without anything else.

I crave companionship, love, partnership, understanding. I want someone to share life and ideas and love and experiences with... we'd have sex sometimes too, and I think that would probably be great... but I could live without sex IF I had the loving partner and intimacy that comes with that.

 

[UnusedGate]

Don't want to minimize what you're going through rn but here are my thoughts.

I get it, I'm an ugly dude. Never even held hands with a girl. The thing is, being sexless is only one of the many reasons for me ctbing. If I didn't have anything else (Intelligence, money, good job) and the only thing that I did have was the ability to attract women, I would still ctb. If I had everything else but couldn't attract women I definitely would NOT ctb. My point is that it's just one factor. My life would still suck if I could get girls. Having sex won't magically change that.

 

[Sadbanana]

Don't want to minimize what you're going through rn but here are my thoughts.

I get it, I'm an ugly dude. Never even held hands with a girl. The thing is, being sexless is only one of the many reasons for me ctbing. If I didn't have anything else (Intelligence, money, good job) and the only thing that I did have was the ability to attract women, I would still ctb. If I had everything else but couldn't attract women I definitely would NOT ctb. My point is that it's just one factor. My life would still suck if I could get girls. Having sex won't magically change that.

I guess if I had literally everything except sex, like respect, love, belonging, purpuse, enjoyment... I probably wouldn't want to die too. But I would still think it sucks