several things happened

[psychosis]

hi,
Pretty recently I managed to injure myself (not on purpose) to a point where I couldn't walk, and only now am I able to walk around my house, although it is difficult. I have been unhappy with how little I do with my life for awhile, but now that it is so hard to do anything I'm realizing how miserable I am. I haven't left my house in a few days, it feels like everyone in my house is watching me during the day so I end up only being awake at night, there is nothing really to do around this house, and I am feeling lonely and stuck. I wish I didn't have to be here, I want to be dead. I feel like even if i physically recover, I'll never be a desirable person to anyone. I have far too many flaws. Its cold and I need someone in my life who I can really love. God I hate february. On the other hand, I'm glad I'm actually feeling something. Ive been so devoid of any feeling this past month I almost don't hate this. I feel like who I really am again.

 

[timf]

If you are up at night and need to kill time, people have used fiction as a way to explore new worlds for centuries.

You might find that as time passes what people consider attractive also changes. Young people are often attracted to the superficial like looks, money, and physical prowess. However, as time passes other character qualities begin to be sought after such as kindness, patience, humor, honesty, and reliability.

 

[Non_suicidal]

You could look up activities or festivals taking place soon, it's always difficult to leave the house, but if you find something to do, it gets easier.

 

[psychosis]

If you are up at night and need to kill time, people have used fiction as a way to explore new worlds for centuries.

You might find that as time passes what people consider attractive also changes. Young people are often attracted to the superficial like looks, money, and physical prowess. However, as time passes other character qualities begin to be sought after such as kindness, patience, humor, honesty, and reliability.

You could look up activities or festivals taking place soon, it's always difficult to leave the house, but if you find something to do, it gets easier.

Thank you for your replies. I'm getting better and I'm going to try and see a friend today. Its always beneficial to hear what everyone has to say, and I really appreciate that you took the time to read and respond to my post <3