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let.me.let.go87

let.me.let.go87

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Jul 12, 2024
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I have 7,125mg of seroquel and read that 6000 is enough to be lethal but that people have survived taking 30,000 (that was probably me when I was younger I was on 1600 a day and took a 90 day supply once and my heart stopped. But I was revived. But my tolerance is much much lower. It's been like 15 years since I was on it. I've been trying for like twenty years to end my pain and I can't take this shit anymore. I'm always in pain. Always crying. Always wishing I could just end the suffering. I was abused all my childhood. Sold for sex. And my marriage is abusive too. I'm 37 now. I'm also considering sodium nitrite or buying a dissembled gun online which is totally legal now. I found a website, ghostguns.com selling guns dissembled, the complete kit for $330 but you don't need a permit or background check or anything and with my ptsd and depression it ain't like I can walk into a regular guns and ammo store and buy a gun… the latter is most tempting to me because it's most likely to be auccessful. I'm just so f*cking tired!!
 
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Tommen Baratheon

Tommen Baratheon

1+1=3
Dec 26, 2023
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I've got a box of Quetiapin Sandoz, 180 pills of 300 mg, so 54.000 mg. I have no doubt it's lethal in some cases, but they wouldn't sell it in these quantities if it were very dangerous.
 
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KillingPain267

KillingPain267

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Apr 15, 2024
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No, all these pill overdoses are likely to make you vomit before killing you or make you in so much pain that you automatically call ER. Even if your heart stopped last time, it might not again and something worse happens instead where you will be in more pain instead. Look into better methods.
 
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marooned123

marooned123

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Jul 2, 2023
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I have 7,125mg of seroquel and read that 6000 is enough to be lethal but that people have survived taking 30,000 (that was probably me when I was younger I was on 1600 a day and took a 90 day supply once and my heart stopped. But I was revived. But my tolerance is much much lower. It's been like 15 years since I was on it. I've been trying for like twenty years to end my pain and I can't take this shit anymore. I'm always in pain. Always crying. Always wishing I could just end the suffering. I was abused all my childhood. Sold for sex. And my marriage is abusive too. I'm 37 now. I'm also considering sodium nitrite or buying a dissembled gun online which is totally legal now. I found a website, ghostguns.com selling guns dissembled, the complete kit for $330 but you don't need a permit or background check or anything and with my ptsd and depression it ain't like I can walk into a regular guns and ammo store and buy a gun… the latter is most tempting to me because it's most likely to be auccessful. I'm just so f*cking tired!!
I have multiple psychiatric diagnoses including yours and I recently passed a background check in a gun store. I sold the gun, unfortunately, because I had significant SI. Where I live you are only flagged in a background check if you've been recently committed for at least a 72-hour stay. I was about 25 years ago but this state only provides lip service to their "red flag" law.
 
let.me.let.go87

let.me.let.go87

Meh
Jul 12, 2024
300
I have multiple psychiatric diagnoses including yours and I recently passed a background check in a gun store. I sold the gun, unfortunately, because I had significant SI. Where I live you are only flagged in a background check if you've been recently committed for at least a 72-hour stay. I was about 25 years ago but this state only provides lip service to their "red flag" law.
I was in the state hospital 3 times as a kid. My parents lost custody when I was a teen and I kept running away from foster care but my ptsd and sh/si was so bad I wound up in state hospitals. They don't give anyone in my state with state hospital records a gun permit and if you get caught with a gun and no permit it's prison time. I can't go back to jail. I spent my last jail stint trying to off myself the whole time (obviously unsuccessfully and very humiliatingly) guards laughed at me the whole time. So did inmates. They had no idea the amount of pain I was in and didn't give a shit I was just a game to them. I'm never going back. I'll suffer out here in the real world first.
 
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marooned123

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Jul 2, 2023
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I was in the state hospital 3 times as a kid. My parents lost custody when I was a teen and I kept running away from foster care but my ptsd and sh/si was so bad I wound up in state hospitals. They don't give anyone in my state with state hospital records a gun permit and if you get caught with a gun and no permit it's prison time. I can't go back to jail. I spent my last jail stint trying to off myself the whole time (obviously unsuccessfully and very humiliatingly) guards laughed at me the whole time. So did inmates. They had no idea the amount of pain I was in and didn't give a shit I was just a game to them. I'm never going back. I'll suffer out here in the real world first.
People suck. I wish this fucking world would implode.
 

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