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claeasi

claeasi

nonsense speaker
May 15, 2024
20
i have dealt with many self-harm issues since i was very young (11 years old).
I recently saw content on mainstream social media platforms like TikTok, Instagram, Twitter, etc. Many people there reacted to videos or photos of people with scars or anything related to self-harm as a "way of getting attention."
I know this can really happen, but i believe that even if someone does this to get attention, it's because they've never been listened to, and for them, this was a somewhat "sick" way to get attention.
In my case, i never intended to draw attention to myself or show off scars; i always hid them very well, even without a coat my arm always looked a bit strange. I hid it so well that my parents only found out two years later, and even after they found out, I kept doing it and managed to hide it, and to this day they still haven't found out (19y)
When i see people on the internet saying that this is just for attention, that if the person really wants attention they should cut their throat, and things like that, it makes me sick.
How can people be so mean?
This hurts me. I never hurt myself intentionally to show it to anyone, but rather to feel that my pain was valid and that i didn't need to die for any of my problems to disappear.
Somehow i ended up finding comfort in all of this, and i simply couldn't stop. Sometimes i can, but it's temporary.
This increases my desire to commit CTB.. maybe a life without scars on my arms and thighs would make me happier, lol.. i think i would restrict myself less from doing certain things like going to the beach, wearing tank tops... Ts pmo
 
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L.D.50

L.D.50

Member
Oct 13, 2025
22
i cut myself relatively often. but i don't want attention, or pity, or help.
its just convenient. i don't know why it matters so much to people what i do with my body anyways.
i get stares and looks sometimes, but eh, idc that much.
it sucks that the people get such a bad stigma.
 
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takuyangel

takuyangel

[ communist daughter ]
Feb 19, 2025
96
i try my best to hide my sh scars i think they're rly embarrassing. i get where it comes from tho i guess especially when it's done by younger/more emotionally immature people who flaunt it but it's honestly just an unfunny and played out stigma used to put others down. also love ur fallen angels pfp.
 
claeasi

claeasi

nonsense speaker
May 15, 2024
20
i try my best to hide my sh scars i think they're rly embarrassing. i get where it comes from tho i guess especially when it's done by younger/more emotionally immature people who flaunt it but it's honestly just an unfunny and played out stigma used to put others down. also love ur fallen angels pfp.
Thank you so much, darling, you're sweet. i identify with what you said, thats really so sad.. (⁠。⁠ŏ⁠﹏⁠ŏ⁠)
 
Leonard_Bangley39

Leonard_Bangley39

Hate life but scared of death
Nov 6, 2025
167
i like looking at my scars, but i always try to hide them not because im ashamed or embarrassed, but because its just a conversation i dont want to have with people
 
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Pale_Rider

Pale_Rider

Enlightened
Apr 21, 2025
1,467
I worry that my suicidal urges amount to attention seeking sometimes, because it's hard to do the dirty deed of killing myself. That's what I have on that.

So I really digress and try to keep my mouth shut on suicide. The plus is when asked I can easily say I'm not suicidal cause even though I'm tired of life I don't think I can end it currently.
 
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myattempt

Member
Dec 27, 2025
49
i like looking at my scars, but i always try to hide them not because im ashamed or embarrassed, but because its just a conversation i dont want to have with people
Yes because I understand the way that people with scars are treated in today's society even though my scars are never going to going to fade out I don't like the inconvenience of others knowing
i have dealt with many self-harm issues since i was very young (11 years old).
I recently saw content on mainstream social media platforms like TikTok, Instagram, Twitter, etc. Many people there reacted to videos or photos of people with scars or anything related to self-harm as a "way of getting attention."
I know this can really happen, but i believe that even if someone does this to get attention, it's because they've never been listened to, and for them, this was a somewhat "sick" way to get attention.
In my case, i never intended to draw attention to myself or show off scars; i always hid them very well, even without a coat my arm always looked a bit strange. I hid it so well that my parents only found out two years later, and even after they found out, I kept doing it and managed to hide it, and to this day they still haven't found out (19y)
When i see people on the internet saying that this is just for attention, that if the person really wants attention they should cut their throat, and things like that, it makes me sick.
How can people be so mean?
This hurts me. I never hurt myself intentionally to show it to anyone, but rather to feel that my pain was valid and that i didn't need to die for any of my problems to disappear.
Somehow i ended up finding comfort in all of this, and i simply couldn't stop. Sometimes i can, but it's temporary.
This increases my desire to commit CTB.. maybe a life without scars on my arms and thighs would make me happier, lol.. i think i would restrict myself less from doing certain things like going to the beach, wearing tank tops... Ts pmo
I'm 18 and started to sh when I was 11 - I love in the uk so I don't have to worry too much about missing on a lot of experiences the cold is convenient and as for social media I just stopped consumption entirely - (no tt no nothing basically) I just use netflix and Spotify also I'm not really sure but content on TT of ppl in mental hospitals really disturbes me and agitates me so I just don't consume anything like that anymore

I believe that people are demonic so I don't get surprised when they find out I sh and start behaving differently or even use it against me not surprising whatsoever
 
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claeasi

claeasi

nonsense speaker
May 15, 2024
20
Yes because I understand the way that people with scars are treated in today's society even though my scars are never going to going to fade out I don't like the inconvenience of others knowing

I'm 18 and started to sh when I was 11 - I love in the uk so I don't have to worry too much about missing on a lot of experiences the cold is convenient and as for social media I just stopped consumption entirely - (no tt no nothing basically) I just use netflix and Spotify also I'm not really sure but content on TT of ppl in mental hospitals really disturbes me and agitates me so I just don't consume anything like that anymore

I believe that people are demonic so I don't get surprised when they find out I sh and start behaving differently or even use it against me not surprising whatsoever

unfortunately these people will always think theyre right, but there's not much you can do about it..:(
do you live in the UK? That's so cool, i think countries with cold climates are nice, my country is usually so hot...(⁠╥⁠﹏⁠╥⁠)
 
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myattempt

Member
Dec 27, 2025
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unfortunately these people will always think theyre right, but there's not much you can do about it..:(
do you live in the UK? That's so cool, i think countries with cold climates are nice, my country is usually so hot...(⁠╥⁠﹏⁠╥⁠)
Yes I live in the uk - I use tor browser to access ss since it's banned in the uk
 
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XxEstenxX

XxEstenxX

A Borderline is speaking. Listen and Learn.
Feb 10, 2026
17
i have dealt with many self-harm issues since i was very young (11 years old).
I recently saw content on mainstream social media platforms like TikTok, Instagram, Twitter, etc. Many people there reacted to videos or photos of people with scars or anything related to self-harm as a "way of getting attention."
I know this can really happen, but i believe that even if someone does this to get attention, it's because they've never been listened to, and for them, this was a somewhat "sick" way to get attention.
In my case, i never intended to draw attention to myself or show off scars; i always hid them very well, even without a coat my arm always looked a bit strange. I hid it so well that my parents only found out two years later, and even after they found out, I kept doing it and managed to hide it, and to this day they still haven't found out (19y)
When i see people on the internet saying that this is just for attention, that if the person really wants attention they should cut their throat, and things like that, it makes me sick.
How can people be so mean?
This hurts me. I never hurt myself intentionally to show it to anyone, but rather to feel that my pain was valid and that i didn't need to die for any of my problems to disappear.
Somehow i ended up finding comfort in all of this, and i simply couldn't stop. Sometimes i can, but it's temporary.
This increases my desire to commit CTB.. maybe a life without scars on my arms and thighs would make me happier, lol.. i think i would restrict myself less from doing certain things like going to the beach, wearing tank tops... Ts pmo
"Mental Health Matters!" until someone s/h for attention. All of a sudden, it's okay to bully mentally ill people who just want help...

I remember when I had cvt pretty bad on my thigh in 6th grade. I didnt want anyone seeing but I had P.E. so I had to change clothes in front of the other girls. A ""friend"" saw my cvt and I trusted them enough to admit that it was s/h, but they then proceeded to tell the entire locker room that I cut myself as if it was something to laugh about...
 

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