Self check list before?

[boc]

I'm planning to purchase some N later this year to have in the cupboard. I have a history of depression and SI. I'm trying to plan a safety check list for myself before taking it. For example I want to give myself a two week check period before deciding to take it and actual execution to avoid use in a heat of the moment situation. Was wondering if anyone else has any such ground rules for themselves before taking the plunge.

 

[hahabye]

That's very wise of you to set a rule like that for yourself. I can see how possessing N, while very liberating, can also lead you towards a rushed decision and rob you of the opportunity to find out what life has in store for you.

That being said, I don't have any rules for myself except for the promise to take my N despite the occasional SI that I experience. Due to my responsibilities, I cannot just CTB without preparations. That's the thing keeping me from ctb right now.

 

[Bedrock48]

That sounds like an excellent idea tbh, not one that I've consciously thought of doing. I kinda try doing at least one distraction before doing anything impulsive such as watching a movie or texting someone.

 

[FuneralCry]

That is a really good idea. At the end of the day suicide is a last choice situation, when we have exhausted every other option and there is nothing left. I was thinking a similar thing if I ever got hold of some substance, I would keep it locked away until I knew I was absolutely certain that I wanted to leave. I think it would just relax me having it in my possession though, knowing I had a way out.