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Require_love

Awkwardly social due to spicy grey matter
Apr 20, 2025
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I used to SH on impulse. Never gave a damn about securing wounds and self care. In hindsight, that was a shit move. My pants would get stained, and eventually some people figured it out.

Now? I get a gauze piece and antiseptic. Proper procedure with a new blade each time (I used to reuse the blades for weeks. I just never cared enough about myself).

I think this is recovery, of some sort. While I don't completely stop cutting myself, I don't beat myself down for it. It's become more of a necessary evil, like a chore. I went from acting on pure impulse to choosing to cut. I have been having less SI as well. I guess that's recovery, again.

I just don't know if this is because I'm shutting myself out of everything, or genuine recovery. I wish someday I could like myself without caveats, really.
 
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Dot

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Sep 26, 2021
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If u r tryn2 recvr frm SH thn thre r sme rsourcs whch eithr gve spport or jst copng mechnsms if thy wll hlp



U hve mde progrss tho & n.e progrss = gd progrss
 
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Require_love

Awkwardly social due to spicy grey matter
Apr 20, 2025
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If u r tryn2 recvr frm SH thn thre r sme rsourcs whch eithr gve spport or jst copng mechnsms if thy wll hlp



U hve mde progrss tho & n.e progrss = gd progrss
Any progress is good progress. Thanks, Dot. It's quite true, I should be happy instead of overanalyzing.
I'm probably wary about everything now, haha.
 

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