Venting seem to have swapped depression for anxiety

[LittleJem]

A while ago in a FB group, someone asked the group whether they'd prefer depression or anxiety.

I've had suicidal thoughts for 20 years or more, plus anxiety. Tonight, the depression isn't here, but the anxiety is much higher. I don't know which I hate the most to be honest.

I have thrown everything I have at it - apart from alcohol. Maybe I need some alcohol. I also haven't thrown weed at it yet, but I really hate weed these days as it makes me hallucinate every time, and brings up stuff I don't want to think about.

I am getting more stuff from health food store tomorrow in case it helps with the anxiety.

 

[SinisterKid]

There is a great little thread someone posted in the recovery section about legal "highs" using nothing but everyday herbs. Very interesting read if you are looking for alternative ways to lower anxiety levels and possibly treat depression.

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/thre...t-new-age-shit-and-placebo.26847/#post-489037

 

[Jean4]

A while ago in a FB group, someone asked the group whether they'd prefer depression or anxiety.

I've had suicidal thoughts for 20 years or more, plus anxiety. Tonight, the depression isn't here, but the anxiety is much higher. I don't know which I hate the most to be honest.

I have thrown everything I have at it - apart from alcohol. Maybe I need some alcohol. I also haven't thrown weed at it yet, but I really hate weed these days as it makes me hallucinate every time, and brings up stuff I don't want to think about.

I am getting more stuff from health food store tomorrow in case it helps with the anxiety.

I'm here if you ever want to talk. :)

 

[Mizzmini45]

I rather depression. I was fine depressed but The anxiety is the killer for me.

 

[Moonicide]

Anxiety is worse than depression for me.

Depression = I want to die.
Anxiety = I am dying.

 

[Mizzmini45]

Anxiety hurts

 

[Taki]

I agree with others about anxiety (meaning clinical anxiety, not the "I have anxiety!" crowd on Instagram) is way worse. On the other hand, lots of people get too comfortable with their depression. Anxiety at least is disturbing enough that you want it to end.

 

[Rushon]

Does anyone else have panic attacks? I used to get them when I went into a mall, big box store, etc. Then it was traffic jams, any thing I was not in control. They made me feel like I was going to die if I did not get out of the situation.

 

[Cupcake]

A while ago in a FB group, someone asked the group whether they'd prefer depression or anxiety.

I've had suicidal thoughts for 20 years or more, plus anxiety. Tonight, the depression isn't here, but the anxiety is much higher. I don't know which I hate the most to be honest.

I have thrown everything I have at it - apart from alcohol. Maybe I need some alcohol. I also haven't thrown weed at it yet, but I really hate weed these days as it makes me hallucinate every time, and brings up stuff I don't want to think about.

I am getting more stuff from health food store tomorrow in case it helps with the anxiety.

Personally, I prefer depression to anxiety. When I am anxious, I often feel very sick physically, and that discourages me because it puts any hope of CTB with my method out of the question until my stomach settles down. FYI, my method is SN, so you need to have a pretty calm stomach to take that, which is what the anti-emetics are for, but when I am super anxious, I don't think even they would help me. With depression, at least I don't feel sick, and, when I am

A while ago in a FB group, someone asked the group whether they'd prefer depression or anxiety.

I've had suicidal thoughts for 20 years or more, plus anxiety. Tonight, the depression isn't here, but the anxiety is much higher. I don't know which I hate the most to be honest.

I have thrown everything I have at it - apart from alcohol. Maybe I need some alcohol. I also haven't thrown weed at it yet, but I really hate weed these days as it makes me hallucinate every time, and brings up stuff I don't want to think about.

I am getting more stuff from health food store tomorrow in case it helps with the anxiety.

Personally, I'd take depression any day over anxiety. Yes, depression sucks balls, but anxiety, somehow sucks more. When I am anxious, I feel physically ill, ready to vomit at any moment, so that makes me feel more hopeless because it puts CTB out of the question until my anxiety subsides and my stomach has time to settle. My method is SN, so you need a calm, settled stomach to keep it down. Anti-emetics are supposed to calm the stomach, but my anxiety is so severe that I don't think they would even help. With depression, I know I can CTB at any time, and, on my darkest of days, I can actually feel my courage to do it building. Like today, for instance, I feel calm enough to do it, but I lack Meto and the ant-acid, so I'm prob not going to go through with it because vomiting a bunch and failing sounds like something I would definitely like to pass on, lol!

 

[BipolarExpat]

I used to get very long depressions that were mostly void of anxiety but now it's completely flipped. That is, the last 3 depressions have steadily contained more and more anxiety.
And with that comes panic. The attacks have become a prequel for most ordinary things in life that involve a change of setting, public biz, work, etc.
I'd take an old (just) depression stint any day over this crap. Anxiety is THEE worst.
Can't really take care of myself well at all with anxiety...too busy trying to hide (distract) from it.

 

[Cupcake]

Does anyone else have panic attacks? I used to get them when I went into a mall, big box store, etc. Then it was traffic jams, any thing I was not in control. They made me feel like I was going to die if I did not get out of the situation.

Yes, I get panic attacks also. Mine make me feel extremely nauseous.

Does anyone else have panic attacks? I used to get them when I went into a mall, big box store, etc. Then it was traffic jams, any thing I was not in control. They made me feel like I was going to die if I did not get out of the situation.

Yes, I have panic attacks. Mine make me extremely nauseous, to the point of actually vomiting when they are super bad. I've also pooped my pants because the abdominal pain was so severe, it felt like labor pains. Fortunately, it was night and no one saw, but it was embarrassing as hell, and super gross to clean up. I don't get chest palpitations, my panic mainly effects my stomach. Breathing exercises don't help me because, when I try to take deeper breaths, it makes my stomach hurt even more, for some ungodly reason. I try to avoid situations that give me panic attacks, and I wear earplugs when I go out because I live in a city and noise makes me super anxious. They help a lot, and I'm eternally grateful to whoever invented earplugs. Sorry my post is a bit messed up, I have a screen reader and it's hard to write on here. You are not alone, and I hope you find peace soon, whether you stay here or catch the bus.

 

[LittleJem]

Personally, I'd take depression any day over anxiety. Yes, depression sucks balls, but anxiety, somehow sucks more. When I am anxious, I feel physically ill, ready to vomit at any moment, so that makes me feel more hopeless because it puts CTB out of the question until my anxiety subsides and my stomach has time to settle. My method is SN, so you need a calm, settled stomach to keep it down. Anti-emetics are supposed to calm the stomach, but my anxiety is so severe that I don't think they would even help. With depression, I know I can CTB at any time, and, on my darkest of days, I can actually feel my courage to do it building. Like today, for instance, I feel calm enough to do it, but I lack Meto and the ant-acid, so I'm prob not going to go through with it because vomiting a bunch and failing sounds like something I would definitely like to pass on, lol!
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Good plan - don't do it till you have everything you need - no point wasting what you've got and going through that.

I'm in bed today - zero motivation for anytihng - thinking about going back to sleep.

 

[a_strange_day]

Depression over anxiety anytime. I've been living with depression for so long that now it's almost become a comfort zone compared to anxiety. I can more or less deal with depression even if it's hard, but anxiety you can't deal with that.

 

[ImsooDone1N]

I really hope that you are able to find some relief from your anxiety. I actually have; for the last 10~ years suffered from both depression and anxiety simultaneously. However, before that I can relate to the anxiety or depression sort of passing center stage over to each other.

I would love to hear positive results about herbal medicines. I personally have been using prescription benzodiazepines (both Xanax and klonopin) & an unusual SSRI to treat my anxiety. I know benzos aren't ideal long term. I've always used pot as well, which helps with depression & anxiety.