Venting seeing both my therapist and psychiatrist tomorrow

[aeri]

hi there!

tomorrow im seeing all my psys again as usual. im gonna tell them once again how desperate i feel and how i feel like there's no escape. i dont feel heard at all. it feels like my issues are garbage and not important nor worthy. idk what to do next, im truly trying my best to recover but yet it feels like i should just. take my sn. fuckin die. stop making all those efforts

 

[wildflowers1996]

your issues aren't garbage, they are important and worthy, you matter
I hope that you feel more heard by them this time
I'm sorry you are in so much pain

 

[UKscotty]

Good luck and well done for trying recovery again.

 

[aeri]

your issues aren't garbage, they are important and worthy, you matter
I hope that you feel more heard by them this time
I'm sorry you are in so much pain

thank you for the kind words i appreciate them a lot

Good luck and well done for trying recovery again.

thank you! it's been so many years i've been trying to recover but it never felt good nor successful. idk what im doing this wrong

 

[aeri]

so my therapist incited me to open up to my friends. the friends who just told me to go see a therapist. why can i never win?

and with my psychiatrist well she just invalidated all the pedophilia i was a victim of

when can i be heard? can I be? do i even deserve good things?
i am drunk.

 

[iloverachel]

I'm sorry the meetings didn't turn out too well
You deserve good things

 

[an_alias]

so my therapist incited me to open up to my friends. the friends who just told me to go see a therapist. why can i never win?

and with my psychiatrist well she just invalidated all the pedophilia i was a victim of

when can i be heard? can I be? do i even deserve good things?
i am drunk.

you deserve better than this. it seems like your friends are just trying to push you away because they know about your struggles which is really sad - i sincerely hope that they either change and become more supportive or you find better people who can give you the support you deserve :) w/ regards to your psych i'm disgusted by how she treated you; being subject to something so terrible is bad enough on its own but being degraded because of that is even worse - no victim should have to put up with that shit. throughout all this bullshit just remember that you know yourself best! stay safe :)

 

[aeri]

I'm sorry the meetings didn't turn out too well
You deserve good things

thank you so much
im used to those appt not going well
i dont like to think i deserve good thing. if i did deserve them, i'd have them already. but i understand the feeling so thank you very much

you deserve better than this. it seems like your friends are just trying to push you away because they know about your struggles which is really sad - i sincerely hope that they either change and become more supportive or you find better people who can give you the support you deserve :) w/ regards to your psych i'm disgusted by how she treated you; being subject to something so terrible is bad enough on its own but being degraded because of that is even worse - no victim should have to put up with that shit. throughout all this bullshit just remember that you know yourself best! stay safe :)

i dont think they're pushing me away, they just cant help me so want professionals to help me and give me the support i need. but my issue is not being supported with my friends so obviously my therapist advise me to open up to my friends. i cant anymore. i reached their limit.
she wanted me to try to have a different point of view i guess. but i didn't need those. i didn't to be told how resilient i am
stay safe as well and thank you for the attention
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if neither my friends, my family nor professionals can support me, where am i supposed to search? will someone ever validate the horrible stuff i've been through?