Secrets/confessions/things your embarrassed about/things you haven't told anyone

[Empty Smile]

I have a extra small penis......



Ok, no I don't, but I had to throw something different into this crazy mix!

 

[worldexploder]

Ok content warning, this is disgusting, I have hemorrhoids and shitting really hurts. And cleaning my ass takes really long because apparently I'm a bit obsessive-compulsive when it comes to anal hygiene. But at least I can browse SS while taking a dump. Also, I'm secretly hoping that I die from straining on the toilet lol.
Alright, now you know something I haven't told anyone because I'm far too embarrassed.

I have a "lump" in my asshole that's been bothering me for 15 years of and on. Not sure if it's a hemmeroid or not. It has left me in severe burning pain before.

 

[Empty Smile]

I have a "lump" in my asshole that's been bothering me for 15 years of and on. Not sure if it's a hemmeroid or not. It has left me in severe burning pain before.

Sounds like you found my ex-wife.

 

[worldexploder]

Sounds like you found my ex-wife.

 

[Lastchance]

I slept with the sister in law of the girl I had been seeing on and off for a few years. She had been pursuing me behind her and her husbands back for months in which I done the right thing on many occasion turning her away. However I had a moment of weakness and was heavily intoxicated one night and one thing led to another after she cracked onto me. She ended her marriage with the guy who was basically like a brother in law and a friend. It was a terrible thing to be caught up in. Both are unaware but the guilt and shame is unbearable and my life has completely derailed because of this. Furthermore the sister in law is a complete psychopath and basically admitted to using me as a pawn to leave her marriage and fuck over her own people as a parting gift. I want to say tell the truth and expose her for what she has done. However in doing so I will also expose myself and cause a lot of hurt. Tough times

 

[longingforrelease]

I used to be addicted to prostitutes.

me too

 

[wanttodie]

i love hairy arms on women

 

[Johnnythefox]

I told someone recently I needed some information because my father was getting buried this week.
He was in fact cremated four years ago.

This is quite lame compared to some other things I've done.

 

[Rivotrial]

I have no problem with Incest or Gay Incest so long as it's consensual. I actually at one point loved my cousin and wanted to be in a relationship with him, but I knew it would never be so I forced myself to get over it.

Same here + I had a sexual relationship. Since our childhood till our teenage years. After my parents died my grandma took me with her and immigrated to another country. It was painful enough that I could see her during summer holidays only. When she got a boyfriend, I broke up. I have never been able to let another girl into my life. I'm such a low life

 

[Slenderman]

Well, I used to catfish people online. I was extremely ashamed with my physical appearance as well as with my life, I wanted to escape, so I started catfishing at the age of... 8 maybe? For years I was so many different people. Online I could be anyone. Once, I was a 17 years old rich Spanish girl. Other time, a 16 years old unshooled boy from the States. 30-something years old teacher. Hell I don't even remember all my personas. I'm 19 now and I stopped for good at 17. It eas really really addictive. I never lead anyone on romantically or whatever, I just wanted to make friends. I was feeling horrible the whole time but it's hard to stop once you start.
Absolutely no one in my life knows that. I just abandoned all my fake accounts one day. No explanations, no nothing. I was a fucking coward and couldn't even admit what I did to those people. I just ghosted them.

 

[temp1234]

These all are really serious posts, but mine is just gross and really embarrassing for me. I shit in a plastic bag once lol and it still haunts me to this day.

 

[Life sucks]

Tbh I don't know if I should say some secrets or not. Sometimes its better untold. I never said some of the secrets to anyone in my whole life and once I told a friend online they abandoned me

 

[deltahead]

i spent the night of my 13th birthday listening to an adult man masturbate on Skype. i could hear my dad on the kitchen outside. and this was after another sex chat i had with a guy a decade older than myself that same day. it was my "gift".

this doesn't even begin to cover the embarassing shit i've done.

 

[saomao]

im loosing my mind

 

[dhk96]

- I'm bisexual. Something I'm going to keep to myself as I've already disappointed my family enough. Is there any trophy for being the biggest disappointment of a human being despite having a fairly normal upbringing and not doing drugs or anything?


The rest are just things I haven't really said to the people around me:

- I have had Peter Pan Syndrome since like forever, even as an actual kid which really messed up my childhood for me. I spent every waking minute thinking about how old I was in late elementary school and beyond, that life was going to pass in the blink of an eye, and that my future would be bleak.

- I like animals and finally was allowed to get a pet, and I thought it would help my mood somewhat. But my dog likes my mom the most and it sucks knowing he would abandon me for my mom or for food. I was already lonely as heck so it's like he's rubbing salt into my wounds sigh I understand it's because he's an animal but...

- I'm so, so scared of change. Literal change in anything in life. I hate the very word. I get anxious when furniture is moved around. When I meet people from the past. When I see differences in appearance, like hair whitening. I suppose this is related to being unable to grow up and function as an adult. Whenever I blow up at my parents, it's often about my being unable to handle my inability to be independent and do things on my own. I get super anxious inside and can never explain myself. It's also just tiring to explain anything now but because of that, everyone just assumes I have a temper...which isn't false either. I have no patience anymore.

- When people ask me in games what I'm studying or doing or my age now, I just hate myself even more. I took a Leave of Absence last semester so I can't even lie that I'm in school anymore. Or at least doing something. I suck at lying and lying itself makes me feel guilty.

 

[throwaway123]

All I ever wanted is to be normal.

That's it.

 

[Rivotrial]

- When people ask me in games what I'm studying or doing or my age now, I just hate myself even more. I took a Leave of Absence last semester so I can't even lie that I'm in school anymore. Or at least doing something. I suck at lying and lying itself makes me feel guilty.

True. I am avoiding my neighbours because I don't know what to say if they ask. They know me since my childhood and always asking my grandma she doesn't know what to say then and is ashamed for me :/

 

[Loli]

When I was a kid I used to watch a medical drama. There was a car accident scene after which a woman landed on the road, completely wrecked and covered with blood. Some guy resuscitated her so hard that he broke her ribs.
It made me so aroused that I masturbated for the first time. I was 4 or 5?
In fact I was addicted to porn for the major part of my childhood, especially hardcore and gore

 

[Rukia]

I was not brushing my long hair for some time even after I washed them... I just wore them in a bun so that noone would see they were so tangled :(
Then I went to really famous and fashionable hairdresser's in the capital of my country :( They have to untangle my hair and I can hear the hairdresser laughing behind my back...:(

 

[marcusuk63]

Wow you are all so brave , so i guess i best confess ....I'm bi and not so much now but use to have bfs and gfs at the same time and three somes etc i also slept with my ex-wifes younger sister regularly and have a daughter to her , her mum caught us but never said anything so my sons cousin is really his half sister (that was 35 years ago ), i also regularly sleep with my ex girlfriend as we have been close since we split 16 years ago she is 12 years younger than me , he bloke is bi too so i sleep with him too now and again and sometime we have 3 somes but most i sleep with her and we have to send him pictures lol , i cant help being a sexy grand-dad lol

 

[Rivotrial]

Granddad hasn't lost his touch I guess. Ever thought about starting career as porn actress ?

 

[marcusuk63]

Granddad hasn't lost his touch I guess. Ever thought about starting career as porn actress ?

lol i did get offered a job as a male escort once , i turned it down

 

[blanketyblk]

On a tram going into work one day. the tram was full and people where standing in the aisle. about 10 or 15 people. i tripped on something an felt over. and i knocked the man standing in front of me over and he in turn knocked over the rest of the people standing up on the tram. they all fell down like skittles. i was embarrassed. but there was a poor sod that was standing behind me on the tram. his face was red like he was embarrassed and he got the blame for it. but what i think he was embarrassed about, was i had failed down and my skirt had ridden up and I was not wearing underwear. poor bloke got such a hiding from everyone on the tram. and i never spoke up to say it was me. i just glared at him too..

 

[thedutchguy]

Ever since my depression in 2009. Two attempts.
Lot of talking to psychiatrist the thoughts of CTB never did go away.

I always dropped myself in relationship to go on. Always stood up for people to give them a place to be there self. I still help in organising a fetish meeting once a month for a group which is misunderstood.

I do everything for a other where I always forget myself. Can't cope with the news in 2015 I can't get children (not fertile enough)

Through the years my illnesses did go worse and more and more all not treatable. No medicines available for them. Painkillers won't work because of the heroine use of both my parents and through the first 3 months of my mother pregnancy.

Everything together brakes me. Never told anyone since recently. I'm openly talking to close friends I CTB between now and 3 years max. My mind is at ease knowing hopefully my SN get through costums and I finally at peace knowing I can end it 48 hours....

Never felt loved never felt wanted. Always been taken advantage of my kindness

 

[Mart]

I'm just embarrassed that I did this in the first place although I know some people on here might relate. About a month ago I tried cutting just to try it. I did it two times after that when I was really upset, I don't know why. I regret it horribly. I just want to wear short sleeves again.

 

[Im2high4this]

I watched somebody die when I could of saved them

 

[not_a_robot]

A sampling of any of my posts here will reveal many embarrassing inner thoughts and details of my life. I just don't give a shit anymore.

I am in a married to the sweetest most considerate guy on the planet. And that's the only light spot in my life. No matter how wonderful he is. I Can Not get away from my feelings or my thoughts of suicide. They have always been with me and always will be. He is the Only reason i'm still here. But slowly but surely he's just not enough to keep me here. I've set my date to ctb. And I hate not being able to tell him that I love him but I can't keep living with myself just because of him. I know i'm a terrible person. But I just can't keep acting happy when i'm not.

well if you've really decided you just can't stand having such a wonderful guy in your life and you're done with him; how big is it, and can I get his number?

(sorry I know that was highly inappropriate, I was just hoping to scare a laugh out of you)

 

[Halo13]

I'm pretty open about my past and despite anxiety, I don't get embarrassed by much - even though most people are surprised IRL about some of my wild stories of when I was a terrible drunk. I owned up to that crap long ago. The real "secret" is that I'm still suicidal. People don't know that outside of this forum. I really wouldn't care about a psych ward trip again as I live alone and would easily attempt again upon discharge. In my experience, it doesn't help to tell anyone because they either judge or don't care whatsoever. People have become so jaded about the subject.

About two weeks ago, this annoying neighbor lady was complaining about how the store wasn't open for another 5 minutes, she got mad I didn't have a cigarette and said "fine! I swear I'm just going to kill myself!" It secretly made me furious because she says that over everything yet has never and would never harm herself. I was thinking "if you only knew what I was seriously planning..." and that no, I'm not going to feed into someone joking about ctb over a cigarette or stop them from making such a choice. I think hiding this subject is a secret however I am not embarrassed by it.

 

[Scribble Fan]

I want a suicide partner but I'm too insecure and scared because of my social anxiety, it also doesn't seem realistic being a NEET. I can't even drive to meet up. Plus what if they were some murderous nutter?

I'm also terrified of nearly everything these days, depression has turned me into a complete nervous wreck.

 

[Severen]

Plus what if they were some murderous nutter?

Well on the bright side, then you wont have to deal with your survival instinct stopping you from CTBing.