silentgoodbye
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- Feb 2, 2024
- 6
i plan on hanging myself in my closet if i continue to be at rock bottom like how i am right now. i'm trying to get over the ideation so that i won't have to face any more stress by the end of the month. god, i wish the first attempt had just worked. i don't even know what to say my mind is blank and i'm pretty sure my last attempt gave me brain damage. i started to become more religious last year and it was helping me out but now i wonder if God is even real. the world around me is crumbling and it was crumbling before the last attempt. i am a shell of a human and i've been a shell of a human for quite awhile now. i don't like that i'm getting older (im 19) and i just wanna go back to being a kid. i need to stop beating myself up over regrets and start to accept the sweet release of death.
