Venting Scars are so dumb I hate em

[four_walls_girl]

I've always tried to make my sh scars look neat, or at least perfectly horizontal anyways, but in the beginning I didn't really care about placement as long as I was getting scars. Now my arms are just different size and length lines dotted around randomly with no set pattern and don't look pretty or appealing or perfect at all, just an ugly mess across my skin that's going to take more than 2 years to get rid of, I can't be still alive by then, but I don't wanna ctb and have my family and the funeral people see how small and pathetic they are. I have get deeper before I go, but that means going over old scars and potentially messing the look up more. I can't fix this, I'm so stupid, why didn't I pay more attention to spacing them out better.