Scared?

[Tired and Done]

I'm scared. All the time. I'm scared of having to keep living like this. I'm scared of hurting my mom. I'm scared of losing my home. I'm scared of losing my job. I'm scared of having to live my life constantly on the edge like this. But I am also scared of CTB'ing. But bit by bit my choices are slipping away. I'm just afraid all the time. It can all get ripped away in an instant. Death, I want it and I'm terrified at the same time. I'm just so fucked up. I wish I could lose it. Just break the fuck down and let someone else deal with this shit. But there is no one else.

 

[LaVieEnRose]

It's a terrible feeling to be scared of life and death at the same time. Are you in real risk of losing your home and/or job? I know it's hard to keep up the grind when you're mentally struggling so severely.

 

[Tired and Done]

It's a terrible feeling to be scared of life and death at the same time. Are you in real risk of losing your home and/or job? I know it's hard to keep up the grind when you're mentally struggling so severely.

I am unfortunately losing my home in Feb and I have been unable to find a new one. Yes, there is still time but on my salary it is close to impossible to find anything here And all this pain I'm pushing down and hiding so I can cope with my job and appear normal just keeps bubbling up and that is not conducive to keeping your job. I'm just getting pushed into a corner. My choices taken away. And everyone just says, keep the faith, trust in this or that deity. I'm sending you good thoughts. Oh thanks yes. I'll live in your good thoughts. Or your Facebook hugs.

 

[FuneralCry]

It sounds really awful and tiring what you have to endure, the unfortunate reality is that there is simply nothing fair about any of this. It's such a cruel existence where all of this endless suffering continues to exist and I find it horrible how in this world there is unlimited potential to be tortured. I'm sorry that you are trapped in this situation.

 

[Tired and Done]

It sounds really awful and tiring what you have to endure, the unfortunate reality is that there is simply nothing fair about any of this. It's such a cruel existence where all of this endless suffering continues to exist and I find it horrible how in this world there is unlimited potential to be tortured. I'm sorry that you are trapped in this situation

Thank you.