Venting Scared that I might end up just living

[whybother2002]

I'm scared that time will pass and I'll end up alive but living this horrible life like a zombie. I'm scared that this is how they win, wearing me down to the point of me being numb to my existence. I need to die quick. FUCK.

 

[HangMan123]

"Nolite te bastardes carborundorum." That's Latin for "Don't let those bastards grind you down." It's a quote from Margaret Atwood's novel The Handmaid's Tale. I recently read it for school and enjoyed it. The narrator is feeling the same way as you are. Maybe you should read it. It might take your mind off of things and/or give you a new perspective.
Maybe that was a bit nerdy and corny, LOL . What I'm saying is that I hope you stay strong.

 

[Xxkol]

"Nolite te bastardes carborundorum." That's Latin for "Don't let those bastards grind you down." It's a quote from Margaret Atwood's novel The Handmaid's Tale. I recently read it for school and enjoyed it. The narrator is feeling the same way as you are. Maybe you should read it. It might take your mind off of things and/or give you a new perspective.
Maybe that was a bit nerdy and corny, LOL . What I'm saying is that I hope you stay strong.

That wasn't nerdy or corny. I like people like you bro.

 

[DeathSweetDeath]

Forgive me, as I don't know your situation, but is there NO way for your life to change or improve?

 

[HangMan123]

That wasn't nerdy or corny. I like people like you bro.

That's kinda the nicest thing that anyone has ever said to me (seriously). You just made my day. Thanks a lot, I mean it .

 

[Xxkol]

That's kinda the nicest thing that anyone has ever said to me (seriously). You just made my day. Thanks a lot, I mean it .

Your welcome man. You making me smile.
Have a good day.

 

[HangMan123]

Your welcome man. You making me smile.
Have a good day.

You too!

 

[Mooncry]

Preach… This shit is an absolute nightmare.

 

[whybother2002]

Forgive me, as I don't know your situation, but is there NO way for your life to change or improve?

I really try to think of ways my life could improve and I just hit a wall. Maybe only a miracle, unfortunately. I'm already under (a lot of) medication and go to therapy 2 times a week.

 

[Dejected 55]

I feel like I'm pretty much stuck for the long haul. I tried to escape but did not make it... and seeing no way to improve, I'm just stuck in the suck that is my life for as long as I'm naturally able to survive. It sucks to be in this state of being.