scared of healthcare, anyone?

[Room237]

so straight to the point i'm scared of paramedics bc of experiences i've had. od'd, tried to drown myself, few times. talked my way out of it in hospitals but everytime and been sent home (discharged? sry, not from an english speaking country) in hours. i hate that part of myself, and just want to end it all. SI or sth i don't know kicked in i guess. but the main problem is also feeling as i'm not taken seriously even when my actions could have been fatal. more like a vent i guess but has any of you experienced sth similar? i feel so desperate and weak

 

[underscore]

100% i have an instant mistrust of medical proffessionals & settings....takes a while for nurses to gain my trust if at all, even if i know when i should trust them or that they helping im always on edge. i know it has to do with past experiences too but its honestly ingrained in my head at this point

 

[Room237]

100% i have an instant mistrust of medical proffessionals & settings....takes a while for nurses to gain my trust if at all, even if i know when i should trust them or that they helping im always on edge. i know it has to do with past experiences too but its honestly ingrained in my head at this point

so sorry to hear that. i guess there are good ones specialaizing on traumas out there but it's friking hard to find one, or trust. especially when talkin about things like hurting yourself

 

[underscore]

so sorry to hear that. i guess there are good ones specialaizing on traumas out there but it's friking hard to find one, or trust. especially when talkin aabout things like hurting yourself

exactly, so often trauma specialists are expensive or physically inaccessible that we get stuck with a nurse who isnt qualified to work with u or is too ignorant to care :'/ worst experience is opening up about sh or intent and being bombarded with instant hospitalization or just misinformed, unhelpful bullshit, regardless of whether or not u will actually carry out

 

[SilentSadness]

Of course you could never trust someone who can force you into a psych ward just for telling them what you think. The healthcare services have far too much power to abuse normal people who only rationally want a way out of this objectively horrific and unlikable world. My experiences with them have been inadequate on all counts and I intend to stay as far away as possible. It's true that they never take anyone seriously, it seems like they are more interested in their paycheck than doing good which is a fault of the system I guess. Anyhow, you shouldn't think that you're weak, because you are very strong to have to put up with this daily torment alone and I hope you find peace in this waking nightmare.