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Mixo

Mixo

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Aug 2, 2020
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Best part of my growing up was being alone in my bedroom with my guitar, learning how to play songs for the first time, listening to CDs I got from Best Buy or stole from my sibling's room. Also, much wasted time on AOL, cruising the internet for the first time. I also used to spend a lot of time drawing, making my own little story books. Just being alone in my imagination was enough for me.
 
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Chinaski

Chinaski

Arthur Scargill appreciator
Sep 1, 2018
3,469
Always waking up in our council house with no heating or boiler other than a coal fire. The cold was unbelievable it used to make you feel dizzy.
Bloody hell that's harsh, l was in a council house too but we at least had central heating - l remember the council leaving us without hot water for nearly three months and having to wash clothes over the bath though, being a working class child in Thatcher's Britain was an endurance test for sure.
Best part of my growing up was being alone in my bedroom with my guitar, learning how to play songs for the first time, listening to CDs I got from Best Buy or stole from my sibling's room. Also, much wasted time on AOL, cruising the internet for the first time. I also used to spend a lot of time drawing, making my own little story books. Just being alone in my imagination was enough for me.
I remember doing similar in my mid teens, except l play keyboards, not guitar. I didn't attend school at all past the age of eleven and in the end the LEA welfare types just gave up on me and agreed a one half-day attendance per week, the rest of the time l stayed home and listened to, or played, music in my own little space, l rarely went out and this was probably the most content I've been in my life tbh.
 
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Eternally Dottie

Eternally Dottie

Dreamer
Dec 17, 2021
191
Always waking up in our council house with no heating or boiler other than a coal fire. The cold was unbelievable it used to make you feel dizzy.
My childhood was the same living in a council house with only an open fire downstairs. The house was so cold upstairs that there was ice on the inside of the windows in winter as we had no central heating. I can remember being washed in the kitchen sink as well as a child and my clothes being warmed up in front of the fire before school.
 
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Looooser

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Feb 3, 2022
212
I recently had some clam cakes after not having them for almost 40 years. It brought me right back to my childhood when my grandfather and I would eat them on the rocks watching the boats go out and in at Galilee beach in Rhode Island. Those were better times and clam cakes are so delicious!
 
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Chiisai

Chiisai

To infinity and beyond!
Sep 1, 2021
754
Being top of the class. Though I stopped being smart because I always get the attention of bullies. Yet it felt like after that, I was disowned by my parents. Haha
 
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Looooser

My 2 cents
Feb 3, 2022
212
I just remember eating those double stuffed oeros. Not a particular memory
I used to leave them out for a couple of days so the cookie part would go stale get chewy.
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That day my mom beat me up and then I started crying. And then I got hit because I cried too much.
Wait this was not the question. This wasn't one moment this happened all the time on a daily basis. Lol.

That day my mom beat me up and then I started crying. And then I got hit because I cried too much.
Wait this was not the question. This wasn't one moment this happened all the time on a daily basis. Lol.
I can relate! The only time my dad ever told me he loved me was after he beat me.
 
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Sanva

Sanva

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Dec 10, 2021
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i always stayed up far into the night reading. wish i could go back to that, just lost in some book while everyone is sleeping, with no worries in the world & no fear of what would happen the next day.
 
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AreWeWinning

AreWeWinning

Experienced
Nov 1, 2021
225
When we were kids, we often spent a couple of weeks at our grandparents' house during summer holidays. They lived about a couple of hours' drive away. Being there meant being out of our usual environment, away from parents and everything at home. My grandparents were 'stable' people. They didn't fight or argue with each other, and not just for the sake of us, but in general. That's just who they were. I didn't have to be worried about them, about myself, or about anything while being there. Just playing in the sun in the garden, going for long walks in the woods around the house, simple things really, just enjoying myself. I still remember how the texture of the grass felt under my bare feet. It was a specific kind of grass, different from what we had at home. Remember how it felt to step on the hot sand on spots that weren't covered with grass. Remember how the cool air felt in the basement, how it smelled. They kept fruits there which were delicious. All these small details, even after 20 years, I remember them like it was yesterday. My grandparents were always kind to me. Being there was true happiness, I felt free.
 
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Baemo

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Jan 21, 2022
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I remember being in nursery school and playing with other kids, having no worries. I also remember going skiing with my parents and seeing beautiful landscapes.
 
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markimobzzdeasui

Life is a cruel joke
Oct 24, 2021
1,150
Oh I desperately wish I could remember some. My traumas and bad coping mechanisms have almost blocked every memory from my pasts. Sometimes I think I was born a few years ago only. I wish atleast during my last days, I can get some glimpse of those few cherishable memories.
 
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Bedrock48

Dreadful damage, dreadful destiny
Feb 1, 2021
540
A genuinely cherished memory is one of the few positive ones I can remember from early childhood. My grandad used to collect old stuffed animals to give away to poor kids. When I would come round he'd empty the bags of toys onto his living room floor and let me have one. I must've been max 4 years old but I remember clearly him picking me up under my arms and placing me in the middle of this pile of toys.

It's a memory I like to go back to in times of stress or difficulty.
 
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someonelse

Member
Jan 28, 2022
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My dad built a telescope in our garage so we could look at the stars at night. I still can't believe he managed to do that. He was an engineer so was very handy with that kind of thing but I feel like I couldn't do that now as a 44 year old to save my life (no pun intended)
 
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Sherri

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Sep 28, 2020
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Getting my Sony discman Who also read mp3 so I've had lots of songs, I though back then, on one CD.
 
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Gsvko

Mea culpa.
Dec 14, 2021
189
Meeting a cat for the first time
 
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