Im angry at myself that I failed ctb
I wish I never existed or have an easy way out ctb but thats just not possible as of right now. I just wish I had something that can help me leave. Im useless to the world so don't worry or try to keep me around. I dont care anymore. Im a useless lonely nobody with no skills or talent and I've given up all hope in trying. I tried. Maybe if I go gym. Have friends online that care? Someone who cares? Reach my goals? I still will want to ctb. I've been disheartened from going on. I am weary.
Also I have fleeting emotions. They don't stay for a long time. Its so temporary. I can't experience life as everyone else does, or I just experience the world differently. Im a emotionless empty heart and numb brain who's dead to the world.
I wish I never existed or have an easy way out ctb but thats just not possible as of right now. I just wish I had something that can help me leave. Im useless to the world so don't worry or try to keep me around. I dont care anymore. Im a useless lonely nobody with no skills or talent and I've given up all hope in trying. I tried. Maybe if I go gym. Have friends online that care? Someone who cares? Reach my goals? I still will want to ctb. I've been disheartened from going on. I am weary.
Also I have fleeting emotions. They don't stay for a long time. Its so temporary. I can't experience life as everyone else does, or I just experience the world differently. Im a emotionless empty heart and numb brain who's dead to the world.
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