Sad scared worried

[GreenTree]

Sorry just needed to post. I'm so sad. The tears are endless. I got a rubbish plan but I'm so scared of messing up again. I can't hack going in a psych ward so that's making me scareder. Been in those hell holes too many times. I had a fucking life. Beautiful daughter. Lovely girlfriend. Lovely family. I just can't take no more and will make an attempt even if I fuck it up again. I hate how the world can become. Don't trust anything when life is going well. One moment can change all that. Thanks for listening.

 

[sunshiningbackwards]

I was talking about that with someone on here last night. Happiness is scary because you're always waiting for the other shoe to drop. It never lasts. Sorry to hear you're having a tough time.

 

[LostCauseLooknToCTB]

Sorry just needed to post. I'm so sad. The tears are endless. I got a rubbish plan but I'm so scared of messing up again. I can't hack going in a psych ward so that's making me scareder. Been in those hell holes too many times. I had a fucking life. Beautiful daughter. Lovely girlfriend. Lovely family. I just can't take no more and will make an attempt even if I fuck it up again. I hate how the world can become. Don't trust anything when life is going well. One moment can change all that. Thanks for listening.

Hey Think about your girlfriend your family and your daughter you have reasons to live. it's your decision to CTB and I stand by that but think about the impact. And, If your method is shit than do some research and find another because no one deserves to die in pain.

 

[man_in_red:)]

It seems you lost the only thing that matters, it sucks doesn't it? Death is a gift at this point.

 

[eleanora]

I agree, one moment can change everything. I experienced it too and I still can't get over the consequences that it came with.
No matter what you will choose to do, I hope you will find happiness at the end.

 

[Someone123]

I'm so sorry you had so much and lost so much- I wish there was some way for you to get it back, but I do hope you can find peace somehow.

 

[Shinobu]

I was talking about that with someone on here last night. Happiness is scary because you're always waiting for the other shoe to drop. It never lasts. Sorry to hear you're having a tough time.

yea this is so true like at one moment i was so happy and then out of nowhere everything just crashed around me

 

[FuneralCry]

It's true that existing is something that is incredibly harmful, as what we go through can easily get much worse as there is unlimited potential to suffer as long as one exists here. To me, it's so horrible how suicidal people cannot just peacefully free themselves from this existence, I hate how we exist in this hellish world where people can very easily end up being punished for trying to leave. Psych wards really do sound like awful prisons.