Sad about not being able to ever enjoy good things about life but can’t cope with the pain anymore

[tiredofbreathing]

I'm sad because I always wanted to experience a relationship and dating. I'm in my late twenties but never got to experience those things due to trauma. But I can't cope with the pain anymore and want to Die. I wish I could have had at least a few years of life where I was happy. I find some peace knowing I won't know a difference when im dead

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I'm sorry that your life causes you so much pain. I wish you all the best. May you find love, peace and freedom!

 

[animetal]

i feel the same way :/ it feels like my trauma has ruined everything for me and now I feel incapable of even being in another relationship or experiencing more of the things I wanted to experience in life! I had turned 20 not too long ago and it feels my life is over before it even began. You're not alone and sending virtual hugs

 

[Forever Sleep]

Yeah, I know what you mean. I'm 43 and never had any of those experiences. Just a whole lot of limerance. Lol. Sometimes, I wonder how my life could have turned out. I think I had the potential to have met someone and been happy- but- maybe we all did. I'm sorry.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence really is so cruel and painful which is why to me the thought of not existing is the only comfort. I understand why you would find relief in the thought of not being here as in death everything is forgotten about, the nonexistent cannot mourn for everything and grieve for the existence they never had, to die removes all desires, needs and wants, solving all problems. But anyway I think that true happiness is a delusion in this world as I believe that humans are never really satisfied, I wish you the best and I hope you find freedom from all the suffering.

 

[Readytogo246]

I've had relationships and they can be pretty hard too. I'm glad to have the experience but wouldn't want to repeat it again. I don't like explaining myself to others and find most too nosey......so I'll go at it alone with my 2 amazing cats. They are keeping me here now...but the pain gets bigger and bigger. I hope you find peace in your choices.

 

[outrider567]

'Not being able to enjoy things' -- As AIDS-stricken Halston said, "There's really nothing to celebrate anymore"