Running out of methods

[goodoldnoname923]

I really feel like I'm running out of methods here i feel like I've tried or considered just about everything

Couldn't jump cause afraid of heights

Couldn't drown because afraid of water

SN couldn't strave myself for 24HR and even if i could it's not fully reliable accessible or even painless so what would be the point

I considered toaster bathing but was advised against it with good reason

Considered F but couldn't access

Considered cherry extract but no clue how to do it

Been trying CO but haven't managed to get it to work

Recently looked into the lanugry method and cant figure it out

Tried the bag method

Tried slitting throat but takes alot of emotions for me to pull off and even then SI

Can't access guns

Considered hanging but can't tie a noose properly or find somewhere to hang

Considered cyanide again couldn't access

Looked into being put down with euthanasia and not easy

Couldn't jump infront of a train

N requires going to peru

Again there is definitely more I've considered and tried that I've forgotten about here you name it i've probably considered it tried it and if you have any other methods to try or consider honestly I'm open but I'm not sure if i'll even find one that works and it terrfies me

 

[locked*n*loaded]

What issues are you having with the CO method?

 

[goodoldnoname923]

What issues are you having with the CO method?

I made a goodbye thread about it,I can't tell wether its the tent i'm using or just not being able to produce enough CO those seem to be the core problems because my setup is as decent as i can get it and I believe I'm cooking the carlcoal right and for long enough

 

[locked*n*loaded]

I made a goodbye thread about it,I can't tell wether its the tent i'm using or just not being able to produce enough CO those seem to be the core problems because my setup is as decent as i can get it and I believe I'm cooking the carlcoal right and for long enough

I think what I'm not understanding is HOW you know that you're not doing it right? Are the charcoals not staying lit? Is the tent falling down? What EXACTLY is the indication that what you're doing is not working?

Are you going into the tent with burning charcoal and nothing is happening? If you are, that's a BAD move if all things aren't right. If the charcoals aren't burning properly, you won't be generating enough CO and that can mess you up without killing you. It's a step by step process where each step needs to be right. If the charcoals aren't burning properly, you work on just that until you can get them to burn properly and then you do it again and again until it becomes 2nd nature to you.....so that when the time comes and you want to do it FOR REAL, then it's a piece of cake, because you mastered it and feel confident doing it.

 

[Linda]

I really feel like I'm running out of methods here i feel like I've tried or considered just about everything

Couldn't jump cause afraid of heights

Couldn't drown because afraid of water

SN couldn't strave myself for 24HR and even if i could it's not fully reliable accessible or even painless so what would be the point

I considered toaster bathing but was advised against it with good reason

Considered F but couldn't access

Considered cherry extract but no clue how to do it

Been trying CO but haven't managed to get it to work

Recently looked into the lanugry method and cant figure it out

Tried the bag method

Tried slitting throat but takes alot of emotions for me to pull off and even then SI

Can't access guns

Considered hanging but can't tie a noose properly or find somewhere to hang

Considered cyanide again couldn't access

Looked into being put down with euthanasia and not easy

Couldn't jump infront of a train

N requires going to peru

Again there is definitely more I've considered and tried that I've forgotten about here you name it i've probably considered it tried it and if you have any other methods to try or consider honestly I'm open but I'm not sure if i'll even find one that works and it terrfies me

Have you considered hypothermia? If you know much about travel on foot (or ski) in the outdoors, you will know that it is all too easy to die from hypothermia accidentally. It happens to lots of people. So it doesn't take much effort to die from hypothermia in the outdoors deliberately. (You do need to understand the subject, if you want to be sure of success, and it would help to have some experience of the outdoors.) I have spent a lot of my life in the outdoors, much of it in cold places, some of it in very remote places, often alone, so I have always had to be aware of the danger posed by hypothermia. I can, and will. turn that knowledge to my own advantage when the times comes to go.

 

[LaughingGoat]

What specifically is the barrier for you to access a gun?

 

[shweepwomp]

I really feel like I'm running out of methods here i feel like I've tried or considered just about everything

Couldn't jump cause afraid of heights

Couldn't drown because afraid of water

SN couldn't strave myself for 24HR and even if i could it's not fully reliable accessible or even painless so what would be the point

I considered toaster bathing but was advised against it with good reason

Considered F but couldn't access

Considered cherry extract but no clue how to do it

Been trying CO but haven't managed to get it to work

Recently looked into the lanugry method and cant figure it out

Tried the bag method

Tried slitting throat but takes alot of emotions for me to pull off and even then SI

Can't access guns

Considered hanging but can't tie a noose properly or find somewhere to hang

Considered cyanide again couldn't access

Looked into being put down with euthanasia and not easy

Couldn't jump infront of a train

N requires going to peru

Again there is definitely more I've considered and tried that I've forgotten about here you name it i've probably considered it tried it and if you have any other methods to try or consider honestly I'm open but I'm not sure if i'll even find one that works and it terrfies me

i have this method tht i rlly rlly wouls want to try bcs i've experienced nearly passing out from it its on the nighty night megathread, if you do it i promose it feels peaceful and doesnt hurt if u do it ryt, ty

i have this method tht i rlly rlly wouls want to try bcs i've experienced nearly passing out from it its on the nighty night megathread, if you do it i promose it feels peaceful and doesnt hurt if u do it ryt, ty

also remember to um i mean if u arent ready dont take it harsh on urself u can try again if u fail !!

 

[sanitystruggle]

What specifically is the barrier for you to access a gun?

Living in the UK.

 

[LaughingGoat]

Living in the UK.

Black powder is an option

 

[sanitystruggle]

Black powder is an option

Not that straightforward. First you need a shotgun or firearms certificate for the guns themselves (police background check, possibly including MH history, home visit and storage inspection), the you have to apply for a licence for the black powder itself (you can't do this until you have a valid reason i.e. possession of and intent to shoot a gun proofed for black powder). Only then when you've been granted an 'acquire and keep' certificate can you actually get your hands on it.

 

[LaughingGoat]

Not that straightforward. First you need a shotgun or firearms certificate for the guns themselves (police background check, possibly including MH history, home visit and storage inspection), the you have to apply for a licence for the black powder itself (you can't do this until you have a valid reason i.e. possession of and intent to shoot a gun proofed for black powder). Only then when you've been granted an 'acquire and keep' certificate can you actually get your hands on it.

Yep you are right, but it's definitely doable for people without a record. I have family in England, one of whom has firearms.

 

[makingaplan]

I really feel like I'm running out of methods here i feel like I've tried or considered just about everything

Couldn't jump cause afraid of heights

Couldn't drown because afraid of water

SN couldn't strave myself for 24HR and even if i could it's not fully reliable accessible or even painless so what would be the point

I considered toaster bathing but was advised against it with good reason

Considered F but couldn't access

Considered cherry extract but no clue how to do it

Been trying CO but haven't managed to get it to work

Recently looked into the lanugry method and cant figure it out

Tried the bag method

Tried slitting throat but takes alot of emotions for me to pull off and even then SI

Can't access guns

Considered hanging but can't tie a noose properly or find somewhere to hang

Considered cyanide again couldn't access

Looked into being put down with euthanasia and not easy

Couldn't jump infront of a train

N requires going to peru

Again there is definitely more I've considered and tried that I've forgotten about here you name it i've probably considered it tried it and if you have any other methods to try or consider honestly I'm open but I'm not sure if i'll even find one that works and it terrfies me

I don't think you have to starve 24 hours with SN.

 

[Unicorn_mo7]

I would take the SN any day if I had access.

 

[Sail_to_Infinity]

Not that straightforward. First you need a shotgun or firearms certificate for the guns themselves (police background check, possibly including MH history, home visit and storage inspection), the you have to apply for a licence for the black powder itself (you can't do this until you have a valid reason i.e. possession of and intent to shoot a gun proofed for black powder). Only then when you've been granted an 'acquire and keep' certificate can you actually get your hands on it.

Black firearms can be purchased without a permit I think. A permit is required for black powder because it is an explosive - you can construct a bomb, for example. As a curiosity - granulated black powder can be easily made yourself with a rock tumbler.

 

[bambibambam]

where did you get the idea that SN is not reliable/could be painful? it's actually one of if not the most partially peaceful method as long as you follow the protocol. there obviously is going to be some discomfort with SN but you're not going to be suffering since you'll go unconscious rather quick

there are guides & mega threads on SN in the forum if you want to do proper research on it since you seem to be new, other than that i'm sorry that you're frustrated with your options.

 

[SadTitan]

where did you get the idea that SN is not reliable/could be painful? it's actually one of if not the most partially peaceful method as long as you follow the protocol. there obviously is going to be some discomfort with SN but you're not going to be suffering since you'll go unconscious rather quick

there are guides & mega threads on SN in the forum if you want to do proper research on it since you seem to be new, other than that i'm sorry that you're frustrated with your options.

ive failed to take SN a couple of time due to anxiety of not knowing how my body will react. Ive read cases that say it is peaceful and ive read others that say ppeople went through excruciating pain or witnesses clmaied it didnt seem like a peacefull process.

 

[bambibambam]

ive failed to take SN a couple of time due to anxiety of not knowing how my body will react. Ive read cases that say it is peaceful and ive read others that say ppeople went through excruciating pain or witnesses clmaied it didnt seem like a peacefull process.

everyone's different, i'm fine with enduring 15-20 minutes of discomfort if it means i'll be gone. i'm gonna ctb with SN in a few hours so we'll see :p

 

[goodoldnoname923]

Had therapy for like 5 months m8 and its not doing shit. When your a person that constantly makes other peoples lifes hell no matter how many times people tell you what your doing wrong no matter how much you try to reflect on your wrong doings yet you repeat the same mistakes countless times,my last therapist even gave up on me

You don't know my life pal,you don't know my struggles,you don't know the psychological and mental pain i've endured you don't know the mistakes i've made,the experiences i've been deprived of the constant empty pit i have felt for years the lack of disconnect i've felt from people and the world around me my inability to create and sustain healthy relationships or to find enjoyment in anything

I could go on all day man…all fucking day it's not about the discomfort of eating its the fact all i fucking really do anymore for any sense of pleasure is fucking eat…

I'm fucking tried of people on this fucking forum basically bulling me into fucking doing SN I'm not fucking interested end fucking of

 

[Zaphkiel]

Ok.

I get you feels bad and all that but you seems intent into us forcing you to go by SN. Similary, you ask by method, people try to help. And you kinda reject everything en masse if it's not perfect. Yeah, it's ending your life we're talking about here, and the miracle peaceful, easy, not SI inducing method is a solution we all want to have but it doesnt exist.

Your first step to have any meaningful discussion here would be to accept that first, then you can move on to something more constructive.

I'd even advise you to take a break of Sasu for at least a couple day. Judging by your presence since you registered you might be a little too much on here and trust me, it's not that good of a thing (i was there).

Godspeed.

 

[goodoldnoname923]

yeah cuz u dont actually wanna kill yourself ur just gonna whine on here all day instead of actually finding something that works for you. I'd put money on you still actively posting on here in a year from now

Wanna look at my goodbye thread and actually see the fucking CO setup I actually have fucking ready man? Or the fact i've spent months trying to collect the same blade. I mean you complain about me not CTB'ing but here you are here since fucking January and your still here so isn't that alittle pot call the kettle black?

 

[goodoldnoname923]

Why was my last post deleted?


Yeah, that's kind of my point. Your account was made 3 months after mine, and you have somehow made over 20 times as much posts as me. Your reading comprehension is a little bad there, huh? I can't wait to see another meaningless post from you on the front page when I check this website for 10 minutes next week!

You do realise that i have diagnosed autism right? Comprehension is a huge problem for me so if you have a problem just piss off

 

[Zaphkiel]

You do realise that i have diagnosed autism right? Comprehension is a huge problem for me so if you have a problem just piss off

Yeah, and you find the the solution to always be agressive on every post. but you manage to ignore the sensible posts (like mine a bit ago)
It's ok man. but seriously. Take a break. Breath. And think about everything. If you come here and ask for help, dont throw everything and everyone in the garbage can because things don't please you. it's not on us. For now you're obsessed and tunnel visionning.
But we'll be still here for you at any time.

 

[goodoldnoname923]

Yeah, and you find the the solution to always be agressive on every post. but you manage to ignore the sensible posts (like mine a bit ago)
It's ok man. but seriously. Take a break. Breath. And think about everything. If you come here and ask for help, dont throw everything and everyone in the garbage can because things don't please you. it's not on us. For now you're obsessed and tunnel visionning.
But we'll be still here for you at any time.

I've genuinely been having mature discussions with everyone on this forum for fucking months,even privately in DM's

I had a guy help me use the darkweb (which my buddy irl was supposed to help with but fell flat) i've had a handful of people add imput into my CO set up that has heavily been helped by another user that took alot of their time out to aid me with that

I've done my best to listen to everyone this whole time i've been here i've only started getting snappy when i made ONE post about SN simply saying i find it alittle overated and then you get all these fuckers making somewhat valid points i was happy to engage with or even conceded to but they went out of their way to make it personal attacking me invalidating me Among other shit

These fuckers haven't read most my posts were i explain about the shit i've been dealing with,how i feel i'm a terrible person,how this friend i lost that i love dearly that meant the world to me and still does how i fear for them and dont see a life without them,as well as lacking human connections down to my own issues among many other things alright

I was fine until all these people started attacking me for simply saying "i don't think this method is all it cracked up to be and doesn't deserve the hype and attention it gets but,whatever freedom of choice" i'm getting more hate than the guy that was LITERALLY trying to shut down these SN sources and ruin shit for everyone

*breathes* and sorry I'm not trying to snap at you really i'm not i have no beef with you at all just after that post i made yesterday all i've had is people taking jabs at me because i make their feelings hurt so yea i'm alittle trigger happy currently i don't exactly feel save in any capacity

yeah so do i, stop playing the l0lcow card. I have a problem with demoralizing assholes like you. keep ur fucking throughts about SN to yourself because I don't wanna see that shit when I log in.

Oh boo woo cry me a river,aleast i'm not like that fucker on reddit shutting down SN sources am i?

Its fuckers like you that make me wish pricks like him would win,but guess what there is nicer people than you out there that deserve their precious SN

 

[Zaphkiel]

Thing is, no one is attacking you. But you're kinda on the defensive so it escalates.

Also, just gonna react on something you wrote. No one is gonna read all your posts about how you feels etc, especially since you literally dropped 400+ in a month.

We're all strangers here, don't forget that. We try your best. You do you. If it escalate into drama and not achieve your desired result, i'd advise to stop for a while. I think your SaSu tolerance gauge is filled for a while.